Couch 182: Spiced Gingerbread.

I've always wanted what I've never had.Your feelings of jealousy are very normal and very common, but I can get how feel.

It must be nice to get whatever you want in life by manipulating others. If it doesn't just come to them, then they have no qualms about TAKING WHAT
THEY WANT FROM OTHERS!!!!!!

Awww that's a huge milestone.

I'm sorry you're hurting right now.

Being manipulated and used isn't nice at all.

He came to rtake our daughter out for the dayas he now lives 4 hours away which is why i cant have the dog. I saw the dog regularly when he lived in town. I cant not answer the door as my car is parked in the driveway when i am home.

While T was away for so long i looked up internal family systems stuff on the net and found some facebook groups. There are some doozies out there . One group is for clients and therapists and i really feel they take things too far. Someone wanted to know how to work with a client who had an, wait for it, embryo part. Wtf? How is that even possible? It s just a bunch of cells that starting to differentiate into organ systems at that point. Not one therapist pointed out how this would work and the original poster did not really supply any useful info after that. I really like internal family systems and it works for me but there are somethings...really?

Sorry the embryo bit made me laugh out aloud. But I'm a bit of a believer that a mothers emotional state does have an impact on the developing kid. I watched a John Bradshaw video where it was about telling the baby you that you were wanted and safe, so maybe it's like that?

If only therapists offered the same.

It's time for sleeping here. I've got a choice: (a) spend hrs on my phone cause can't sleep as avoiding thinking; (b) do some healthy meditation type relaxing to try and sleep; or (c) day dream about doc got parental transference for to relax and sleep.

Answers on a postcard please. Hugs.

Sorry you are having trouble sleeping. I would a combination of these things but set a time limti. Good luck. Also i havent heard the phraee "answers on a postcard" for such a loong time.

My fluffbutt cat got outside is covered in prickles. He didnt like being brushed before coming inside and is glaring at me from the top of the bookcase.

Hoping my neighbors' walls are thick enough that they're not subjected to me singing along to "Bridge Over Troubled Water."

I am thinking maybe they mean fetus at a late stage, as many people dont know they are pregant before 6-8 weeks unless you are actively trying.

When you bave a strict class attendance requirement, students do stuff like email you time-stamped pictures of their car accident to explain why they weren’t in class.

Its like prenatal aerobics - the toughest part is tying the reeboks on the little sucker

Seriously, i think the little one gets affected by anxiety hormones, fight or flight feelings, as well as mellow feelings.

Does anybody like Mr Bean as Maigret?

I liked him best as BlackAdder and as Inspector Fowler in The Thin Blue Line.

I meant to watch it last night but my brain doesnt work well after 7pm thesed days. i will watch it on catch up and tell you. this is how much my brain doesnt workafter 7 pm it is beingbroad cast tonight.

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Gorgeous sunny day.

I don't know if I can handle the holidays this year. This is year two alone, but I think I was still in shock last year and this year feels different. Now I've not only lost my husband, but now I've lost my father. I can't handle the incessant happiness and joy that seem to be expected and experienced by others. I feel none of that. I instead feel bleak and hopeless. I'm struggling with SI. My Thanksgiving this year is going to be some store-bought mashed potatoes and gravy reheated in the microwave. I got invited to someone's house but I had to decline the invitation. This person only recently found out what happened to me last year and from our previous interactions, I suspect it would turn into what would feel like for me an inquisition about the events. I can't handle that right now. I don't really want to be friends with this person anymore other than being cordial at work and I feel guilty for that. I screwed it up before by trying to be open about the state of my marriage and it turned into me feeling like a sideshow exhibit. I don't know how to be friends with anyone which is something we are working on in therapy. Very slowly.

I'm struggling so much! No SH, no smoking, no binge eating carbs, and tapering off medications... H obsessing over his health again, my sister's drama, injured puppy, no income, bills, putting off IVF, daily life, etc.

Serious question: is everyone's life like this? All the ups and downs? Constantly fighting to survive? Is this normal?

I know life isn't perfect and we all have problems. But does everyone actually struggle? And if everyone does struggle, then what are we hoping to gain from therapy? Learning how to struggle gracefully?

I'm afraid to bring this up with T. I'm afraid she'll suggest terminating.

He plays him with a calm dignity, which is nice, but not a great challenge for an actor.

Scarlet - everybody has struggles, however you have a significant amount of pressures in your life right now. Be kind to yourself, it's understandable that you're struggling - you are making a lot of life changes at once.

I think I read too many old fashioned books

Thanks for your thoughts. I am feeling pretty proud of myself so just gotta share

I immediately put the phone down, dragged the dog to snuggle up with, and slow breathed in his scent, which was calming, then I thought of the caring things I'd done that day, which gave me a feeling of (all the different types of) love and contentment, from as different sources as the delivery guy really putting himself out and me calling his boss so he gets recognition, walking in the autumn park with my nieces, cleaning the house together with my sister.

Seem funny things to get self soothing from though!

My mind did go back to the doc but I kept it fleeting, only to allow a feeling of safety and security to flood through no actual thinking of him.

Did this twice when woke up in night when before might have started writing emails so am like pleased with My self.

My critic/protector says - well you're on forums now, that's hardly functional but I've told him kindly, baby steps my dear, I'm doing this with my coffee, to ease myself into the day, then got loads to look forward to doing that shows I'm a functional productive adult. This is not a bad thing, in moderation but helps me to function. Huggggs.

Thats very interesting! Thats what i thought. I rather put myself in his shoes. It does feel like a great challenge for a comedian, though. I pulled a straight face in an acting class once, and the teacher was like, you didnt DO anything there. I was like, what? You didnt FEEL that? I kept my day job.