Couch 183: Stroopwafel salted caramel.

My sister asked me last night if I could be with her when she goes into labor. I feel so honored. She's pretty sure she doesn't want her ex there, but doesn't want to do it alone either. I just hope the baby doesn't come around my T sessions! But if it does, this is more important.

I'm so excited! New baby, baby shower, Christmas. It's funny, I love giving gifts, but I'm not big on receiving them. I feel embarrassed for some reason.

With screaming like that, the cat and the rat are probably also a tad shaken up

Hopefully they went outside to escape the chaos.

Thank you everyone for the pocket riders before, session went okay.

Thanks I was ready to go cry and beat myself up for how badly I did after, but my PI talked to me right after to tell me he was impressed and "proud of me"
I was so sure he was going to be disappointed in me.

Writing is a good thing long term because it helps me process instead of ignoring things, but in the short term it definitely brings out a lot of strong feelings and makes it more intense. It was writing that started bringing all this stuff to the surface over the last few months.
Running triggers migraines for me... Think that would count as a form of SH?:P
I go out for "mindful" cigarette breaks when I need to collect myself lol. I could probably do the grounding mindfulness thing without the cigarettes, but there are much worse ways I could be coping too.

24 hours until therapy now.

So Maltesers are British Whoppers and Toffifees are kind of like half of a Ferrero Rocher with nougat?

It's raining like crazy here in my desert, too! I love the smell of rain in the desert.

Raining here as well. I don't think it counts as desert since I'm literally a mile away from the ocean right now, but it doesn't rain very often.
We just got a flash flood alert that scared the **** out of me because I was listening to music on my phone with my headphones, so even though my phone was on silent it played the emergency alert sound through the headphones really loudly.

So. I just had my last session with L. We hadn't planned on it being such, but... it just kinda happened as we talked. Mostly it came about because of a dream I had over the weekend, that she said was the dream she'd been waiting for (I guess now I know what a 'termination dream' is!) I feel.... calm and settled, as I told her when she asked how I felt about it. I'm really so very glad that I went back at the end of July. She and I did some amazing work together over the past 7+ years. I have no regrets. None.

And now, Artie is truly "swimming on". Into the future!

wow artie! you sound so settled about it, that's great.

Thanks. I am right now. We'll see what the next few days bring as h & I get our son moved and begin our 'it's just us again' years....

i was about to share a recent pic of Miss Penelope P, but haven't seen any pics as I scroll back through the couch and wanted to check and make sure it was still ok to post pics!!

No, but there is a ban on multiple exclamation points...

Hey, I limited myself to 2.

Miss Penelope Pitstop making one of my afghans her throne recently! She likes to hang out with me while I work.

Even though I'm off work tomorrow, my tired eyes beg for sleep. Night couchies!!

I saw my therapist today. She threw me a little bit of a curveball. Not really of her making or mine, but something significant that I've got to figure out how to deal with. We spent about half the session talking about it. I came home and was suddenly so overwhelmed by the whole thing that I burst into tears.

Sh**, I am tired of trying to figure out how to find a balance that keeps this family safe and stable.

AND the garbage disposal crapped out.
This day is ridiculous.

I had no idea anybody here even knew what hockey was let alone Gritty! Though hes not my teams mascot he is so ugly hes actually cute :P

*mind blows at the idea of anyone not knowing what Maltesers are.*

That said I recently discovered that the word treacle isn't used on the other side of the Atlantic

Maltesers are quite popular in my country as well. Rather delicious, but straight chocolate is still better xD

*Googles treacle

Maltesers Reindeer are the best

That does look good Luco.

We use the word treacle, just not to refer to a foodstuff.

E.g., “Love, Actually” is pure treacle.

Interesting. Is it used in the knowledge of its original meaning do you think? I am wondering because its metaphorical meaning is sort of sickly sweet isn't it? Like treacle.