Couch 183: Stroopwafel salted caramel.

I stopped watching 1983, switched to underground. Going to start studying in a bit.

you could be right i suppose.
yeah it’s sort of how i think about it.
yeah it’s a coping mechanism for me as well, and i don’t really leave scars either.
i think you might be right-it does have an addictive quality to it.

Nice to see you back Artie.

Yep still not started- I'm now watching big meets bigger.

Hi everyone! Back after the weekend, got caught up on the couch. (((hugs))) to anyone that wants one! Got my Christmas cards written and sent, and did my wrapping (except for stocking stuffers). I feel much less stressed! Kit.

My T self-disclosed considerably more than normal today, and I'm trying to decide how I feel about it...I think I get nervous about it because of ex-MC. But it was directly related to stuff we were discussing about my D, not totally random. And it made me feel understood and connected. Still...

Self disclosure was always sort of weird for me when T would do that. I mean it was sort of confusing. I kind of liked it. I was kind of bothered by it. I kind of saw how it related to me. I kind of wondered why she was bringing it up. So I get that you have to try to decide how you feel about it, LT. I never could make up my mind how I felt about it. I felt too much different stuff about it. Kit.

T appointment in two days. Looking forward to it and not looking forward to it at the same time. Weird. I hate once a month. It's like not enough to get something rolling, and it's too long in between, then again, I don't talk a lot. Kit.

Its a beautiful day outside... I wanna go out and play!

I really hoped I would be, instead I'm just drowning in horrible, dark thoughts that are just consuming me.

Are you safe? Do you have anything to distract you-even if it's just mindless TV? Can you curl up in bed? Eat something nice?

It is a even worse sign if they do it 27 minutes before the exam starts.

Oh goodness!

Whew, what a day! Hey couchies, I'm passing out relaxing drinks and comfort foods if anyone needs any. I could go for a hot chocolate even though the a/c is on right now. Also a sign that I never check the weather, I'm making chili tonight. Go me!

Worker's comp audit next week at work. Yeah. (Sarcasm) Can't contain my excitement (more sarcasm). At least this year, I know what to expect. Unfortunately, it's the day after my trip to Disneyland, so I'll be thinking about that when I'm riding Pirates of the Caribbean! Kit.

Hot chocolate with whipped cream sounds pretty good to me! It's around 50 degrees here today so not cold, but sweater weather at least. Kit.

I'm feeling your end of the semester pain. I am ready to be done with this group. They aren't horrible, but they are testing my patience. I'm sure the feeling is mutual. LOL

Glad you understand. Ex-MC did it ALL the time, like multiple things a session. I know way too much about his family (mainly his kids, but also a couple siblings), his college and grad school days, his time as a camp counselor, etc. I think it definitely contributed to the transference, particularly the stuff about his kids.

Current T doesn't tend to self-disclose much (particularly not about his son), and wouldn't answer/dodged certain questions I asked him early on (like political beliefs and type of car he drove, though he ultimately revealed those just in general conversation--still evasive about his religion, though I'm 99% sure he's Jewish). So that's part of why today threw me, since it *was* a bit about his son and also some of his thoughts on the causes of autism (his son and my D are both on the spectrum). Hm, and something about his grad school experience, too. It's like part of me wants to know more, for him to share more, but part of me is afraid of it and the effect it could have on me.

I don't want to work this afternoon. 35 more minutes though I guess I can do it...
That's not much at all with almost 9.5 hrs already done.... tired of all this OT but I do admit I like the paychecks!

Art, I don't want to work either, I have 2.0 hours left. Bleh. Kit.

I'm not entirely sure I want to stay safe which is troubling to me. I came home from therapy, took my daughter to preschool and then came home and napped until it was time to pick her up. Trying to zone out watching tv now.

Something similar happened recently with my therapist. I was being plagued by a particular thought after our previous session. Over the weekend I ended up emailing him that I was struggling with something and we ended up having a phone call but I told him this was an in-person thought. At the next session, I spent probably half the session trying to say this thought out loud and I couldn't. He finally asked me if I could write it down and gave me some paper. I even had trouble writing it down but I finally did. Obviously there was some intense shame behind this thought. I think part of me was afraid he was judging me which is why he decided to self-disclose at this point. It was a pretty personal thing he shared with me. When he started to talk my stomach did a little flip because I knew what he was about to tell me. I wasn't sure what to make of it at first. I felt privileged that he chose to share this with me. I felt 100% reassured that he wasn't judging me, which makes me think he made the right choice to share. I felt a sense of connection because we had been in the same situation. But I also felt a bit confused, thinking was he supposed to tell me that? I seriously considered sharing here what he told me, but I figured some of you would criticize what he shared and I couldn't deal with it at the time. I've come to the conclusion that it was overall a good thing that he shared. Give it some time, LT. You'll figure it out.

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