The Haunted House

I have been walking down a rocky road with no shoes on lately. And it is a familiar road. And on that road is a haunted house. And in that house is a little girl. She is alone and no-one can see her. And she can't see anyone, even her favorite person in the world, the person who can save her. So, when he comes in she screams at him, because she senses he is close and she is afraid.

My relationship with T is the catalyst that propels me down these roads. When I am in that house I can't always hear his voice. Our relationship has suffered recently because I have worked very, very hard at pushing him away. And I almost succeeded but only because he did not want to see me hurting anymore.

Now we are in the repair shop. I feel like we need couple's therapy. Sheesh.

Working hard at pushing people away and working hard at making sure I'm hurt again, that's me. And the T's oblige every time But its my fault, not theirs.

(((((((((((( Sister ))))))))))))))

Maybe you couldn't hear his voice before because you weren't actually sure what he was saying.

Now you are beginning to know. Now you can begin to hear T's voice and maybe even open the window a bit when you hear him coming towards the house. Soon you wil even be able to let him through the door. You are in the midst of a repair and at some point you will be able to sit at the table together.

If you want, I'll do free couples therapy for you and T. I could use the practice.

((((sister))))

It sounds like the therapeutic relationship has been really hard lately. Whenever that happens to me, I get depressed. It's embarrassing to be depressed because of your T. Then you go to session and say "I'm really depressed," and he says "why?" and you have to say "because of you." I hate that.

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She is alone and no-one can see her.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Powerful house image of isolation. sister, can you go and rescue this little girl, tell her that she is loved?

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I feel like we need couple's therapy. Sheesh.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">That is both funny and poignant and oh so true. Hopefully, your T is a repair expert (they are supposed to be, aren't they? rupture repair rupture repair--that's therapy) and can get things running smoothly again. I relate a little bit right now. Not quite the same, but I am having a major rupture with someone right now and it almost seems like we need therapy together! Which would be absurd.

Hang in there. Good to see you posting.