Couch 188: Who needs those people, anyway?

If you think or find that therapy doesn't help right now, it's still an option to not go anymore, do what works for you! From other things you've mentioned, maybe it'd be a good idea to treat this kind of like a romantic break up? I know it's hard the first time going through something like that, but there's tons of resources that give you advice on what helps in those circumstances and it seems kind of similar.

Ya true, if I research it, since its common, I can probably get over this quick. I'll look into it

Saw this on Facebook and had to share here, relatable.

I've never been able to hold down a job due to anxiety and depression. I also have certain fears with driving and social anxiety. If I could work from home or maybe a little shop? I also can't stand up all day. I did look into online tutoring, but I'd need a Bachelor's degree. I've looked at some survey site, but it makes next to nothing. I'm not against working, I just don't know what job would fit me.

It would be cool if I could make money off my baby blankets, but I don't feel they're good enough (haven't mastered joining yarns), and I use higher end yarn. I would barely make a profit. Plus because I have dogs, their hair gets all over it.

I just had to call my insurance place about something and it's the same company T now works for. Naturally a woman answered and set off my jealousy. I instantly hated her and went into thinking "Are you friends with him" "Do you have lunch together?" "Do you get to know all about his life now?" "Are you dating?" I completely spaced out of the call and can hardly remember a damn thing she said.

I feel like I'm losing myself and I hate it. I want this to stop. now. I'm sick of loving someone who doesn't care about me anymore. Sick of it. I don't for the life of me understand why anyone would WANT a close relationship with someone? All relationships end, who wants this hell? Ugh... not me, one and done here.

@ScarletPimpernel - The website The Mighty sometimes posts lists of companies hiring for Work from Home positions.


The latest one is here

Good Morning Couchies. Mom's foster Mom has arrived. So far it's not too bad but I retreated to my room pretty early last night and then just zoned on TV. I'm at work today. Not sure if my supervisor is going to make it in, so I'm sort of trying to decide whether or not to start on her work for the day. Feeling really depressed today. More than normal. A few SUI thoughts this morning. Not a good start to the day. I miss my former T today because I could have contacted her whereas with new T there's not that option, so I just gotta suck it up and continue on. HUGS if anyone wants one! Kit

Remember there's people on here to talk to! I hope you get some distraction from work.

The parent company of the one I work for has work at home positions in all kinds of departments all over the US and overseas too. I'll PM you Scarlett.

He said he didn't think he'd be able to do a call this weekend. (We've been doing a weekend 10 min. check-in on Sunday lately.) He didn't say anything about checking his email so this is a no-contact break. He asked how I was feeling about this break and I told him it didn't matter. He said yes it does. But what's the point of telling him? I'm afraid he's going to decide I'm too much hassle if I admit how I feel about him leaving for a week and he's going to abandon me. I don't think this is entirely rational since he hasn't abandoned me yet, but it's still a fear I have.

Scarlett, I have something, too, but I'll have to dig it up. It basically involves looking at websites and providing ratings related to accessibility of information. You do have to do this training and then pass their test. I did not pass - I found their ratings arbitrary and they didn't make sense to me. However, I have also found that what is intuitive as far as interfaces for other people (such as apple products) is not for me. So I probably just wasn't good at it. I think you can also retry every 3 months.

@ArtieSwimsOn: this dream book is interesting, but so far seems like a LOT of work to analyze a dream. Plus what if you don’t have any imagination and can’t do associations and the like?

Hmm Sorry if that wasn't a good rec. It never really feels like work to me, because I enjoy it I guess.
I'm sorry I don't know the answer and if I should not have

Here it is, Scarlett. I saw another position, too, that you could apply for if you live in select cities and have an android phone. For this one, you just need to be in the US and have a Windows computer (so if you have a Mac, this won't work).

I found another place with 6 people who specialize in grief, its about 10 min away. I'm trying to decide how many people is ok to try... before the insurance starts to wonder..... I may call them but I also think 2 sessions next week is probably gonna be draining as it is, so maybe its best to wait on more until after surgery if I still need it

I think you can try as many as you like. I probably wouldn't try more than two per week, though.

I'm dog sitting and watching the new Gabriel Iglesias special on netflix. he's so funny. it's a good distraction day

v, my t loaned me a dream book that might be a good bridge into doing the kind of dream work that Art's book gets into.

The Complete Dream Book (Holloway)
She analyzed thousands of dreams to look at common images and themes in dreams. It's interesting, and might give you some basic blocks to start with to learn about your dreams and dreaming, so that you can do deeper dream work.

Actually, I now own that dream book. I was holding a cup of tea and one of the boys bumped into me. Tea everywhere, including on the book I'd borrowed.

In the long run it's worked out well...my t has a nice shiny new copy of the dream book, and I have a wavy wrinkly copy sitting on my bedside table to look at instead of waking in the morning thinking, "What the heck?" and wishing I had the dream book to reference.

Thanks @ChickenNoodleSoup I know you guys are here! And I appreciate that. The SUI thoughts are moderate today. If I have to I'll go to the ER. Just really don't want to spend $250 for a psychiatric evaluation. They always send me home and tell me to contact my PDOC. What a waste. But it's a good 7 or 8 hours of being somewhere safe. I don't want to stress my parents out right now though with my Mom's Foster Mom being here. I can only imagine what she would have to say to that! Kit

Kit, has your therapist actually said she doesn't do outside contact, or are you assuming that because she hasn't mentioned it? Sorry, I can't remember.

Stay safe Kit!

Susannahsays, I haven't specifically asked her (because I am not great at asking for what I want/need) but since she has receptionists and stuff I don't even have her contact information. She knows I texted/emailed former T and didn't volunteer her info. I have asked if there are emergency appointments and the staff told me its just the next available. HUGS Kit

I hate being drunk...

I feel like getting drunk.

I can't focus on work today....