Couch 188: Who needs those people, anyway?

Good luck and I guess I missed what happened, did you do something that upset T to cause this reaction? I'm confused why this is happening to you

Well it was just as excruciating as I thought it'd be. Yes, transfer of care, no contact, female professionals only, no garden, everything gone. Oh ****.

Welcome to the no contact world, it's ****

I wrote an email that crossed the line! I kinda knew it so had been shitting self about it. Transference and attachment. You can guess the rest.

He was like, in meeting attended by female doc, when one is ill there can be transference. I thought to myself No **** Sherlock. It was pretty short meeting.

Btw it's my doc not my therapist.

Still in shock sooooooo. Hope I'm as strong as you've been !

...struggling with a kaleidoscope of emotions that dragged me to the depths of my own personal hell. Madness both dizzying and beautiful, encapsulated by the highest of highs and the lowest of lows.

He appeared Like Gandalf at the battle at Helm's Deep. He taught me the lessons that I never learned as a child. (also about star wars which I still don't sadly understand ). He was patient and kind and belived in me when I never did. I never believed that it could work for me. I still have my moments but I'm honestly happier. Therapy was the hardest, but the best thing I ever did. (when I wasn't sending angry I quit emails, acting out every third week and skipping sessions) .

Gonna end with in his honor and the debt of gratitude that I could never repay, I named my first born son after him.

So far that's what I've got. xD

I don't feel like much of a writer today. Trying to make sense of a book review, and not entirely sure I'm writing in English.

Morning couch! Have T in a few minutes. Not sure what I'm going to talk about today, so hopefully it'll be an okay session.

Sorry you're going through all that, waterloo. Sounds like a nightmare. Impressed you went to the meeting. Sounds humiliating - not that you have anything to be ashamed of, just... not anyone's cup of tea, ya know?

Re: autocorrect, I once typed varicocele and it gave me varicose lesbians instead.

And iirc, I had to teach it the word lesbian... I forget what it kept autocorrecting that to.

Yep i think it's a good idea to let her lead and decide when she wants visitors.

Im sorry he reacted badly.

I hope it goes well.

Hugs

Irritable today, don't know why.

My HS thing went fine, my dog was a hit.

Omg I read the second part first and misread it as "my dog was hit."

Awesome! Kit

Hello all. I hope you're doing well. I don't have the energy to catch up, sorry. Surgery was on Wednesday. I'm healing okay.

Good Morning Couchies! Tried to talk my boss into letting me leave early today, but no dice. Oh well, OT! Took my Dad for breakfast this morning, early, because he is having the house recarpeted and I figure it's gonna be a long day for him. I'm still depressed...but I'm going to go to Disneyland tomorrow! Trying to get out of this funk that I'm in. What's better than the happiest place on earth?! Hopefully it works. Or at least gives me a break for a few hours from feeling so bad. HUGS everyone who wants one! Kit

This is the kindest thing he could have done for you. I am pleased that he has behaved professionally, recognised the limitation of his role and protected you from further hurt.

Yikes, sorry it happened but I don't like that you are told female only, you should be able to have preference there

I'm not that strong. I just don't talk about it much so I struggle alone. I cry myself to sleep often, I get angry often, I have thought of ending my life etc. it's been serious hell.

For the first time ever, my son who is 7 and on the spectrum has shown an interest in joining a club. I have suggested loads of different things before like scouts, football, swimming and it's always been a firm "no" from him. Out of the blue he said he would like to try hockey and he went tonight for the first time and loved it. I know he really loved it because he talked to the cat about it when he thought I wasn't listening. I'm so, so happy. There are so few positive experiences he has that belong to him and him alone. It was just so great to see him running around playing and not being left out by the other kids like he often feels at school.

Echos Myron Redux, that's great news! I'm glad your son enjoyed Hockey. I hope he continues to find things/activities that he enjoys!