[SlumberKitty]

Last one got to 100 pages:


Anything you would like to say to your T, big or small...post it here.

[toomanycats]

Dear T,

I just wanted to be first...

-me

[Anastasia~]

This is all a big mess. I can't go back at this point, so. I can't do what you were going to work on paperwork wise. NO support whatsoever. I really wish I was no longer around. I'm so tired of fighting one way or the other. Everyone can feel free to win if I don't have to keep being in existence.

[Elio]

I quit, now how do I tell you? How many sessions will it take for me to tell you?

(well that is what I am declaring at this moment - subject to change after a good cry)

I just woke up from a dream about my son that was very clearly not about my son at all but about my growing sense of self-apart-from-you. In the dream I couldn't understand why he wasn't angry at the authority figure. How interesting.

[Echos Myron redux]

I would be waiting in my car ready to go and see you now. How could you leave me like this?

[velcro003]

Thanks for visiting me yesterday. You are sweet, and the fact that you want to visit again on our session day next week is too much. Why are you so nice to me?

[kaleidoscopeheart]

Dear T,

Thank you for fitting me in yesterday. Thank you for being your kind wonderful insightful self. Thank you for giving me the reality check I needed and thank you for validating and accepting my feelings and attachment issues qith you even though I am still not convinced that they aren't stupid. Anyway, I really appreciated it.

[DP_2017]

I haven't forgotten you. I bet you've forgotten me though. I wish we had one more convo left to look forward to. So many things I want to tell you. So many things I want to ask you.
I wish I'd have melted into that final hug for a long time, god I miss them

[circlesincircles]

I miss you. This timing sucks. So does not knowing what's happening.

[Elio]

Nope, morning is not bringing any better feelings. I have 8ish hours to decide to cancel my appointment tomorrow. At this moment, I don't want to talk to you and I don't want to hear your voice. So, what's the point of going. 2 things are keeping me from canceling. 1. will I want to see you tomorrow or be mad at myself for canceling? 2. do I want you to "chase me" and if you don't, how will I feel about it?

I don't think I want you to "chase me", I'm not sure.

[ElectricManatee]

I know it's not your fault, but your timing couldn't be worse. I already used up all my "holding on," and now I have nothing left.

I am scared by how I feel.

[LabRat27]

I messaged my doctor.
I'll tell you if it turns out my interpretation was right. Not sure how I'll handle it if it turns out your interpretation was correct, but I can't imagine that he could have possibly actually meant that. If he somehow actually did mean that, not telling you would kind of feel like lying by omission, but I really don't want to have to consider doing that. Please don't ask me to do that. Maintaining is hard enough.

[88Butterfly88]

Dear T,

I had a rough night last night. I journaled to help me cope. Will tell you about it tomorrow. Otherwise the week has been quiet. I hope you can help me. I feel really hopeless at the moment.

-Butterfly

[Lemoncake]

13 hours, 48 minutes and 14 seconds...

I behaved in a way I'm not really proud of with my old best friend as she was entering the gym and I was leaving. I deliberately ignored her until she called out to me. I just don't feel like I know what the rules are anymore.

[piggy momma]

I know I said last week I would no longer contact you between sessions except for scheduling or emergencies.

I also know I am failing miserably...but hey...I tried (kinda).

[velcro003]

hi T. (8char)

[Lemoncake]

Well I messaged her with your voice in my head.

P.s thank you for being my anchor.

Result: 10 hours, 44 minutes and 50 seconds

[blackocean]

Today you were professional and really acted like you cared. Thanks

[88Butterfly88]

Dear T,

Depressed at the moment. Is it time for session yet?

-Butterfly

[piggy momma]

Dear T

I just completely bombed your Abnormal Psych exam and now I’m going to be embarrassed to see you again. Why can’t I pass your exams? This is gonna be worse than the awesome 42% I got last semester with you.

[piggy momma]

Oh and your homily this morning at Mass was spot on. I felt like you were talking directly to me.

[nottrustin]

Why is this so conplicated?? I want to contact you and tell you I cant do this. It is to much. When I would tell T that I couldnt do it any more that the fight was to much we would discuss it. I would feel the connection and would be in a better space. Now I am on my own and dont deel comfortable reaching out to you. All these emotions suck. Not sure why they are so necessary. I really want to numb.out all feelings. I want to call it quits but I cant quit anything, especially when it comes to people. A part of me wishes you would quit on me.

[Lemoncake]

Dear R,

2 hours and 35 mins.

P.s have you noticed that I've made it to 21 days with no email!

[Lemoncake]

I always knew I was too much. I'm not angry just feeling humiliated.

I told you I would come back when I was ready.