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#251
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You asked me if I regretted the way things ended with my best friends. It was painful but I can honestly say no I don't. This, whatever this is between us - is starting to feel the same for me.
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![]() Anonymous43207, atisketatasket, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty, unaluna
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#252
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Yeah, the call from the office secretary about you canceling tomorrow's appointment was not the phone call I needed this morning.
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![]() annielovesbacon, atisketatasket, ElectricManatee, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty, unaluna, WarmFuzzySocks
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#253
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Why can’t all our sessions be as good as today’s was? Except the parts where you nodded off...but when you were with me, you were with me.
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![]() atisketatasket, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, SlumberKitty
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#254
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Dear T: don't leave. Kit
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
![]() atisketatasket, Echos Myron redux, LonesomeTonight, Out There
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#255
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My social anxiety is excruciating and people think I am just faking it or something? The admin at work told me I was ruining the flow of things. Why do the only people that think I am okay -- are the ones who understand me. People at work, I don't know what they think. I want to go out on disability. I don't have a choice. Nothing I can do with what I"ve been given. I've not chose this path. I am not respectable, most people DON"T get me. I try so hard and it's all for naught. I wish I was a normal, respectable person. But I'm not. I am going to take an Ativan.
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![]() atisketatasket, Echos Myron redux, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, SlumberKitty
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#256
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I am not sure how much more of this [therapy] I can take. You did nothing wrong today. I just can't handle it anymore. I give.
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![]() Anonymous43207, atisketatasket, Echos Myron redux, LonesomeTonight, Lrad123, Out There, SlumberKitty
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#257
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Existential perplexity. Will I work my way through it ? You seem to have , so maybe I can , with your support. I wish it wasn't so difficult though.
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"Trauma happens - so does healing " |
![]() Anastasia~, Echos Myron redux, Elio, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#258
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My r*pist messaged me again. How can I heal when I know that I’m still on his mind... the world doesn’t feel safe
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![]() annielovesbacon, Echos Myron redux, Elio, LonesomeTonight, precaryous, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#259
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well i think i might keep on going. for a while there i was tired and lost on the mountain, but i have looked back and saw how far i had come and the old me would have said well lets see whats on the other side. so in the spirit of the old me i will keep on going and forge a new path.
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![]() Elio, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#260
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Let’s stop this game. I’m crying uncle. Please put me out of my misery.
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![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks, Waterloo12345
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#261
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I hope I can see you tomorrow
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![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#262
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Possible trigger:
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![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#263
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I really need to tell you this. It is killing me withholding it from you. I also know it is a deal breaker so do I tell you and know that will end therapy but I’ll feel better for having told you, or do I not tell you and let it eat away at me??
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![]() DP_2017, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#264
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I'd like to explain, but I don't know how to. When I try to explain, people want to fix, and I don't need fixing...I'd just like to be witnessed.
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#265
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I sent an email on Thursday- it's 7pm on tuesday now....
It's the constant checking I hate the most. P.s Saw stupid boy 1 today.He is in the same selected core elective as me, which only lasts 6 weeks.
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![]() DP_2017, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#266
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I wish this were easier. I don't know how to get past this feeling that we are just two strangers. I wish I could stop dissociating in session. I keep thinking I'm beyond that, and then I prove myself wrong.
It's frustrating. I think you try to help as best you can. I just don't know how to be more receptive to the help. |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#267
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Dear T,
I miss you... not the current you, but the old one. The old you that I could afford to see. The old you that was not mean to me. The old one that I could trust and turn to in bad times. Now I'm in a bad place and have no one to talk to. You are too far (emotionaly) |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#268
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Hey T: A little sad that I didn't get to see you tonight bc I am not leaving until tomorrow. Now I have to wait a whole week.
E: I'm going to be really sad that tomorrow will be our last session together. I've really liked working with you. |
![]() DP_2017, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty, WarmFuzzySocks
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#269
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I wish I could trust you with this information. But I can’t.
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![]() Elio, SlumberKitty
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#270
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I hope you felt ****** and bad after today's session. I hope even if you don't understand what you should have been saying/doing, you could at least tell you were failing miserably and did not feel good about how that went when I left.
You have an entire week to think about it. And I have an entire week to sabotage myself as some kind of stupid tantrum because I feel hurt and bitter Next time you can tell you keep swinging and missing maybe consider asking me what I want/need from you instead. Y'know, communication. You're supposed to be good at that stuff. |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#271
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I'm back 2 hating u
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![]() 88Butterfly88, Echos Myron redux, Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, precaryous, SlumberKitty, unaluna
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#272
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Please be in today. Please don't cancel. Please?
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![]() 88Butterfly88, Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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#273
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Dear T,
I'm going to try looking for a new therapist today. In the past I had a lot of trouble finding one but this just isn't working, it hasn't been for a while. -Butterfly |
![]() Elio, LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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![]() DP_2017
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#274
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A T should NEVER be angry at a client. There is something wrong there.
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![]() SlumberKitty
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#275
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We're doing what we need to be doing, T. Love you.
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![]() LonesomeTonight, SlumberKitty
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