Couch 198: All the Countries Couch

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UGH! Lemoncake! Never in my life have I ever had an urge to go to Ikea... BUT an Elderflower drink! They are 45min away... but on the way to Pdoc... and the quilt shop I spend too much $$ in... Pdoc is getting super expensive!

My son just texted; he's at his gate waiting for his flight to Germany.

Why do cats choose to drink from the puddle of shower water in the corner of the bathroom or from the saucepan on the stove or from the toilet when I put out fresh water regularly?

I feel bad for reading part of the article exT wrote I now things about his past I don't think he would want clients to know.

I think cats have an instinct to drink from as many places as possible.

Ugh!!!! So mad at myself! H got me a piece of chocolate cheesecake for my birthday but then I got distracted by an email reply from T and binged on crappy chocolate.
I guess that means cheesecake for breakfast!

T said “comfortable relaxed sessions are always preferable” and part of me wants to write back and ask what the F kind of therapy is that !?!?!? Then part of me is doing the “see he does want to manipulate you” thing... ugh. Why do I have intense emotional reactions to the stupidest crap from T?

I think cats have an instinct to be as defiant as possible.

But in all fairness, mine do it because they don’t like sharing dishes with “lower life forms” AKA the dogs... but mine have serious cattitude.

Cats take pleasure in rejecting what their minions do for them.

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn I scrapped my prompt 1 poem and completely re-wrote it, trying to put more of "me" into it. I think I failed. I don't know how to do it. I don't know how to show my feelings as opposed to talking about and around the emotions. Trying to do this is like sitting with L and hearing her ask that stupid question "What is that and where are you feeling it?" now I have to be my own therapist too?! identifying feelings boop boop beep beep boop boop identify - identify - identify I feel nervous and scared like they want me to be naked in a crowded room of people who are fully clothed is that what they mean show how i

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn feel?

Very late to the writing party, but I don't think the issue is not putting yourself in it. I think you could try taking yourself out of it. Disconnect the feelings from your persona. Let the feelings speak for themselves through imagery. There's no need to explain in poetry. The poetry I enjoy the most is when the images are evocative. I guess I prefer an invisible poet hand at work. I don't read a Frost poem to understand Frost (that's literary analysis); I read Frost to hear what my heart is saying.

If your voice is authentic, readers will move closer to themselves.

Acquainted with the Night


I have been one acquainted with the night.

I have walked out in rain—and back in rain.

I have outwalked the furthest city light.


I have looked down the saddest city lane.

I have passed by the watchman on his beat

And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.


I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet

When far away an interrupted cry

Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;

And further still at an unearthly height,

One luminary clock against the sky


Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.

I have been one acquainted with the night.

I’m babysitting for these people tonight that said they would be home by 11. It’s 12. She just texted to ask how it’s going. Um...it would be going better if you were actually here. I have a sinus headache and want to go home and go to bed.

I hope they get back soon sorry about your headache.

I just got home, spent the day with my oldest, left my youngest there for a week. What madness will I be up to, rattling around the house alone? I really need to redecorate my dining room, ha!

I just went back and read what I missed on the couch. I think I may actually not be able to refrain from hugging Stopdog this time. Geez.

I’m home now and just came straight to lay down.

H is at it again. Four times to the ER this week for semi high bp (150/101) and semi high pulse (130's). I know there's something up to make those elevated, but pretty much everything besides anxiety has been ruled out. He still refuses to admit to his anxiety. Deep down, I still hope he proves me wrong and they find whatever it is that ailing him because otherwise this is all bs.

I'm in too..

Both were beautifully written SD.

4 trips is excessive. Not taking sides, but his trips had quieted down for a bit. Maybe all the moving has triggered this.

You don't have to buy anything, you're free to just wander around too. I like the show rooms and trying out the chairs although I already have a favorite. I like pretending that I lived there.

They always have a cafe place where you could have lunch, so it could be a nice day trip.

(Sorry everyone but I guess for the sake of transparency- I should also declare my shares in Ikea.)

Go with whatever's closest perhaps?

Yes 😂 my poor H spent ages toy-shopping online for the cat. We now have two puzzle toys, one indifferent cat and one disappointed H.

That's annoying. I hope you get paid for the extra time they're gone. Like you get hourly vs. a flat rate?

Ugh, I'm sorry Scarlet. It seems like he should be seeing his cardiologist for that, not going to the ER that many times (once, OK). That is a pretty high BP and pulse, if it's his resting pulse. Even when I'm having a panic attack, mine is usually more like 115 bpm (and my BP has always been relatively low--don't usually take that during an attack).

Yes. I charged her $20.00 bucks an hour last night. Weather kids were asleep or not. I’m not playing around with these families anymore. They are all getting me annoyed right now. Especially the lady that said “They were going to go in a different direction” and then posted an ad on care.com. That’s your different direction? Okay. Whatever.

Jersey - I hope your headache is gone.