Couch 199: The Unennennium Couch

It is amazing how fast 8.5-lb. new cat becomes 85 lbs.

good lord no.
It has black beans, mango, sweet potato, sweet peppers, ancho peppers, jalapeno peppers, and tomatoes.
And magical but not glittery smoked pork belly.

I do not check my work email on the weekend.

I think it's sad one of my Daughters friends is spending the school holidays at various friends place because her dad doesn't give a **** where she is as long as she is not bothering him.

I never had a work email only management had email at my last job. I don't check my email everyday.

When I worked in an IT position we were expected to read a ridiculous amount of emails mainly with operational changes in the 5 minutes assigned. I couldn't do it. I also couldn't grasp the concept of KPIs

I loathe it when the students ask if I can scan in the textbook for them because they-ordered-theirs-but-Amazon-won’t-deliver-till-next-week-even-though-they-chose-expedited-shipping.

That is too bad. I do not have time to scan in textbook chapters. Nor am I paid to do it. Figure it out yourselves, kids. Learn how to adult.

In my Stats class last semester there were a couple students who hadn't bought the textbook, who asked to take pictures of the homework pages out of my book and other student's books. Because I have half price tuition (for being over 55) I usually pay more for my books than for tuition, they're so expensive. I don't blame them not buying 'em especially for that class, if you're not a math major or something.

I'm hungry.

Precisely. Your classmates came up with a solution on their own.

I’m very sympathetic to the cost of books and keep them as low as I can, but this isn’t a cost issue if they have already ordered them.

ETA: plus it would be copyright infringement if I put more than a certain amount online.

I usually put a copy of the textbook on reserve in the library and the students can use or copy that if they want. I do it not for the cost but because our bookstore often screws up the textbook orders.

Our library tracks the number of checkouts for books I put on reserve. It’s minimal.

They also won’t buy textbooks for their collection that are likely to be updated with new editions. So no help here.

How about a fried cheese sandwich? I am on a pension and this always gets me through when money is short.

My cousin called me tonight and we talked for a good 45 minutes. I'm upset at what she told me though...not her fault for telling me, just the situations are sad.
My grandmother fell last week and got admitted to the ICU because she was septic and dehydrated. Apparently a lot of family flew out to see her because they didn't think she was going to make it. My mom went out there too, and no one said anything to me. Even some of the grandkids went out there. She's getting moved to a rehab hospital but no one thinks she'll live much longer.
Then there's 2 of my aunts that live together. Apparently their house is unlivable, with mold growing in the bedrooms and roaches in the house. Some of their kids tried to do an intervention and told them they have to make a decision of where they want to live. The kids will buy them a house if they want, but my aunts won't make a decision and want to stay in their home.
I also remembered the in 2 weeks my "brother" who murdered his girlfriend is having court to decide whether the case proceeds to trial.
Too much bad news in one day.

I don't think I've ever had a fried cheese sandwich. I imagine it's similar to a grilled cheese sandwich only fried. Yum!

Sorry I forgot you call them grilled cheese sandwiches.

No need to be sorry. It may be different, grilled versus fried.

I’m exhausted. I bought an antique treadle sewing machine but it hasn’t made it into the house yet.
I am having the push me pull me stuff with T. This has been a normal one week between sessions but I am missing him SO badly. Then he is out of town again for a week. I am starting to catch on to how much he wants me to trust him and how close he wants me to let him and I’m wanting to push away... but not before a hug... ugh... I hate me when I am like this!

You can't force the trust or connection, no matter how much he wants it. You'll trust him when you're ready. It doesn't mean you can't successfully work together. I'm approaching the 3-year mark with my therapist and the trust/connection is still a work in progress.

The effects of hanging around us.

That looks like my kind of cake!

Thank you for replying NP.

I thought maybe it was just me and I'm being too sensitive. I emailed saying
I wanted to stop for now. He goes away for a month in three weeks, and I'm not sure if i'm making the right choice.

My head is such a mess and I have an exam on tuesday.

I'm sorry things are being so difficult with him right now. Sometimes the therapeutic relationship is so dang convoluted.

I am stuck and I hate that feeling. It was the feeling before something happened in therapy but i dont know what it means. I don't know what anything means at the moment.

I once told R, that I cry now because I couldn't cry before. I've had moments where I was shouted at and mocked further for crying.

I can't do it anymore.