Weird dynamic with T lately

I’m not sure what’s going on, but for the past few months therapy has felt different. When I go, I don’t want to talk about anything. The whole time I feel like leaving. I feel upset with him for no reason. It’s pretty strange.
It feels different than just wanting to push him away, but I totally do that too.

Early this morning I emailed asking for an extra session this week because I’ve been having really bad flashbacks. He replied with a time he could see me tomorrow, and I responded saying I wasn’t sure I could handle it and I might have to go to the hospital. He then offered me a late session or phone call tonight, but I never emailed back declining or accepting anything he offered, because one moment I really want to go and the next moment I never want to go again.
Wtf is wrong with me right now? Why am I feeling like this?

It's not wierd. Obviously it's a defence mechanism but as to what or why can only be known through talking about it.

It's hard to say why you are feeling that way. It could be that the pace of therapy is wrong...too fast or too slow. Or that there was a rupture that hasn't fully healed, or that there is something you need to be talking about but you don't want to be talking about so it's a way of not dealing with that. Talk to you T about how you feel. Hopefully through those discussions he can help you past the impasse. HUGS Kit

When did you first notice the change?

I don't know about you, but I'm still angry at him for telling you that leaving your husband for his abusive behavior would be an overreaction.

Yeah, I’m pretty sure it’s a defense mechanism too. I agree that I should talk to him about it soon.


I noticed it a couple months ago, but I’m not sure exactly what was happening at the time (therapy or otherwise). To be honest, I’d forgotten about that comment he made, so I doubt it has anything to do with that. I think it’s more about me than him probably.


Thanks Kit. I saw my t the day I posted this, and while I didn’t bring up any of what I said here, I actually felt ok with him for the first time in a while. I have no idea what made the difference. Maybe because I felt he cared because he mentioned doing research on something I’d brought up last time we met? The fact that he spent some of his free time looking things up to better understand my experience and help me meant a lot, and honestly surprised me.