Couch 203: The Spam and Cool Whip Couch!

Shehulk- Just because the PDOC called the medication in, you aren’t required to pick it up and take it. Ultimately that choice is yours. The guy hugging you was very intrusive. He should have asked first. I wouldn’t want someone just hugging me. Even someone I know very well. One should ask first.

Group therapy is a touchy-feely situation where you're not allowed to touch or feel anyone.

My writing workshop homework for the week:

Well, they do say "write what you know."

Huh, I wonder if Info would mind if I wrote about her?

@@- that’s an excellent assignment.

Oh, thats not even fair!

Too bad about the minimal stage directions! Otherwise just info's clothes would do it!

Cleaning my house from my tv chair. Amazing how crap builds up around it. My sewing boxes tend to migrate to my tv snack table, so earlier this week i cleared some shelf space to move those back to. My whole apartment is a darn rubick's cube!

Hi couchies, good morning. I'm feeling depressed today. I almost called into work, but I dragged myself here (kicking and screaming--just kidding). There was a fire on my street last night, someone's garage caught on fire. It was really triggering for me because my Dad was a fireman for 25 years and he would sometimes come home burned or his hands would be burned, or his hair would be singed. Luckily I drove by the house this morning and it looks like the fire department was able to save the house but the garage has got to be a total loss. I feel bad for the family but I'm glad that it looks like they can stay in their house. It wasn't red tagged or anything. So my anxiety is a bit "up" because of the fire. I feel....unsafe? Something like that. Had some hallucinations last night but they weren't as bad as the night before, and so far today, nothing. My friend can't meet for coffee tonight though so that's kind of sad, but I didn't have much to talk about anyway so maybe it's better. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

Hi Kit,

Makes sense to me that your anxiety would be heightened because of the fire.

Hope your day gets better from here on out.

Thank you.

Ugh, just had a session where I had to talk with T about my sex life. *shudder*

I think it’s made worse because he’s a heterosexual man and I am a reasonably heterosexual woman and I feel this weird thing where... like, I am a potential object of his desire, but since I’m ugly he will never desire me and that’s kind of humiliating. (I know that’s a little convoluted; I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone but me.) And somehow talking about sex with him (or really anything having to do with my body) makes that feeling worse.

But this morning, when I was still in Vermont, was lovely. My med school mentor made me a breakfast of toast with homemade jam, and fresh berries with cream. I shared the leftover cream with a very pleased cat.

Thank you. I talked to my T about the medication yesterday and he said the same thing. I only took the lexapro last night for the first time, not the other medication.

And the guy hugging me definitely triggered me. He's not here today. I think he only comes Mondays and Tuesdays.

When I talk about sexual stuff with my therapist, I'm sitting there thinking that he's thinking that no one would want to have sex with me because I'm so disgusting. So I think I get where you're coming from. This gets in the way for me. I have a note in his teapot where I put hard to talk about things stating just this. I almost let him read it last week because I was trying to talk about a sexual assault, but this thought I have makes it so hard to talk to him. But then just him reading that feels like it would be totally mortifying. Sigh. Maybe I should just let him read it.

The place in Vermont looks lovely. Hopefully you can go again sometime soon.

How long should it take a lawyer to get back to you after your initial contact using the form on their website? Are they as bad as therapists seem to be about responding?

Was adjusting my rear view mirror when it came off in my hand. Just the mirror, not the part on the windshield or the ball mount, and it won’t snap back on the ball. Woman at my mechanic’s had never seen that before.

Maybe I should take it to mean don’t look behind me, something might be gaining on me.

I think it’s time to move to the next name on your list, or contact them again.

My divorce lawyer took a couple hours to return my call.

Hmm. Well, without a mirror, you cant tell if you turned green and burst out of your clothes...

Could be on vacation. Still worthwhile to try contacting another one. My T got back to me within like an hour of my initial contact, incidentally. (Never heard from some others, or else they took a week or two.)

This must be an all-time record for me. Session in 12 hours - anybody up for pocket riding in the morning? I've written a poem that I'm really nervous about sharing with R.

I'll hop in LostOnTheTrail

I'm in, Lost!

Talk about triggering! I get that he's frustrated/overwhelmed/whatever, but I totally did not need that image right now.

Strangely, I think Madame T was less judgmental and more supportive when I talked about sex than on any other topic.

P.S. Remember, though, that she didn't know what a butt plug is. What does this tell you about other patients' willingness to talk about sex?

Sometimes I wish my therapist would check up on me after a rough session. Just a note acknowledging our session and making sure I'm okay.

I think they just pretend they dont know stuff, just to get you to talk about it. That way they see what YOU feel about it.

I agree - I think they pretend they know or don't know things to manipulate clients all the time