Couch 203: The Spam and Cool Whip Couch!

Dude! Do people usually do that?!

Oh, i forgot. Corporations are legally people.

Not to my knowledge, though my mom figured out the nutritional info of all her recipes decades ago.

I’m doing what’s called rationalizing.

Interesting perspective...Thanks for the kind words. I've always thought though that it may be closer to being an unconscious defensive mechanism of sorts. A way to avoid feeling the anger...the pain of those feelings that weren't allowed...but who knows... Maybe you are right. Although it's not like I never get angry about things or with people I can do especially if I am triggered or outside my window of tolerance but not as much as maybe someone else might but we are all different I guess. I wonder is it that I have learned a way to suppress my anger. I do consider myself someone who is very empathic though which although a good thing I think at time hinders progress in therapy.

Im watching the Reagan attempt on NBC.

Eta - 10 minutes in - got bored.

If it were me, I’d try to gather the courage to tell him.

L is changing offices and wants to change my days and times. I'm so overwhelmed! I don't know why she has to change my days and times. Ugh!

I feel like I am about to revert... My job has me traveling 95% of the time and its killing my relationship, but at the same time, the thought of being grounded back to home seems like a death sentence. Life is hard, adulding Is unbearable - so I am trying online therapy... opinion to be with held for now

Hope the online therapy helps Lola..

I have no idea what will help... I have been great for years, yet here we are again... driving down the freeway with no seatbelt again, doing 120, radio is blaring and I am hanging out the window singing along ....

Glad to see you around.. thought you disappeared again on me.

Who knows.. I wonder if I went to therapy to fix problems that weren’t really problems. Maybe it’s just who I am, and myself and eveybody else has to ok with it.

No, sister... your "Problems" were always problems...maybe not for them, but for you they were. For me... I am super good at compartmentalizing almost disassociation - until I remember , oh ..yeah - it is real and it is my $hit, denial is a river, but it is only so long

Anyone up? I'm new here and without a therapist at the moment. Feeling anxious. ...

A lake in the wilderness

Probably has to do with office availability. Change is unsettling, but this is a minor bump.

My T is wanting to change 2 of my weekly times now too. It's frustrating to change my routine that I'm on, but it might be more convenient for me in the end.

I remember being very flustered when former T changed offices. She sat down beside me and showed me pictures of what the new office was like, and told me she was taking the couch that I sat on and I started feeling better about the whole process. I felt like a child being so anxious about something minor but when that is supposed to be your safe space and then it changes, it can be quite a rude awakening!

I really struggled with my ex-MC and ex-T changed offices (didn't help that ex-T complained about her office all the time to me). Particularly with ex-MC, where his old office made me feel safe. And I had positive associations with it. I'm sure I'd struggle if T changed offices, too, as I find his office very calming.

My T has two offices, and is in one some days and the other on other days. It used to discombobulate me a little but now I hardly notice it. Only trouble is that I can never remember which office he’s in on Wednesdays.

I’m currently out of town on vacation, and had a session over Skype yesterday. I was worried that’d mean I wouldn’t feel at all connected to him but was pleasantly surprised to find that I still felt something of a connection.

How do y’all feel about Skype or phone sessions?

I've never had a skype session but I've had phone sessions. I don't like them as much as face to face but I found I could still feel connected to T over the phone and that was important.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm depressed again today.

And having SH thoughts.

I don't have set days and times. The therapist did move offices early this year, but it's been fine. Actually, it's been better because now there's 0penty of free parking.

I can't tell if she's late for our appointment right now or if it's the receptionist.

Do you keep a diary or a journal? It lets you see how many down days is normal for you. But i also learnt to scale them
from 1-10 with the lower numbers being more worse.

Are you eating regularly ?

I just wanted to say sometimes I don't have a reason either.