I've recruited the soldiers below to help in my battle at 0300.







Anyone else have soldiers to join in the war against the transference that must not be named and regular transference? We'll join forces together and use them whenever we have a pending battle as I do today. May the force be with us. LOL

--I'm having too much fun with this

[Perna]

Here's my four soldiers Soliaree!

I don't know why, but I think he might be able to help. He's armed with plastic fish. Ready to FIRE!!!

[pachyderm]

[MissCharlotte]

Oh yeah, bring it on!

I love a good fight!





Forgot to add the dragon.

Thanks to all of you!! Last week T said that in the therapeutic relationship the T always has the power. Well, when he took a gander at these troops, he had no choice but to change his mind! You all are great. Thanks for humoring me.

T and I talked and I feel really bad. We talked about my email. I asked him if it hurt him and he hesitated. I feel soooo guilty and sooo bad. How could I hurt T? He told me not to feel bad, that he could see how hurt I was when he read the email. He also said that I should notice that in our relationship I can get mad at him and that it will be okay. He told me that I tend to idealize or devalue people which is what I did to him. For 2 and a half years he was great, and after he hurt me I thought he was %^$&$#%^. Sigh.

He told me that he was proud that I actually came to the appointment. I said, "Did you expect otherwise?" He said that he thought I might skip out. He has no clue. I asked him if he noticed that I was a little attached to him, lol. It was a good session, but kind of low key. He assured me that therapy will NOT end until I am ready and can handle it. (never) I'm still processing everything he said.

I see him next Tuesday at 3:00. I won't need the troops but plan to assemble them for when others need them We can call them PC's Army.

[lauren_helene]

Sign me up!

lol i have no troops for you but im willing to join your army. i guess the war is over now tho...

I continue to fight my inner civil war. It is becoming increasingly intense and has worn me down. I notice that others are in a similar war, confused whether to fight attachment or turn and run. I choose to fight. We will need more troops for our army for our enemy is fierce. Will you not answer this call to arms to end the suffering? We must now band together and fight! What say you?

New Recruits:

[ECHOES]

ready!

[Kiya]

oh my goodness, are we harry potter, pirates, or the knights that say ni!?

[mrsmoggles]

I have none I can add as I dunno how to add things here...I tried So can I sit back n watch the show?? :P
melanie

[MissCharlotte]

The following is a modified excerpt of a speech by Patrick Henry.

The war within is inevitable--and let it come! I repeat it, let it come. It is in vain, to extenuate the matter. People may cry, Peace, Peace-- but there is no peace until we are whole. The war within has actually begun! Why stand we here idle? What is it that people wish? What would they have? Is life so dear, or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of remaining mentally unsettled, not feeling whole? Forbid it, Almighty God! I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!

[MissCharlotte]

Martin Luther King's
Nobel Prize Acceptance Speech

....After contemplation, I conclude that this award which I receive on behalf of that movement is profound recognition that nonviolence is the answer to the crucial political and moral question of our time -- the need for man to overcome oppression and violence without resorting to violence and oppression.

Civilization and violence are antithetical concepts. ... Sooner or later all the people of the world will have to discover a way to live together in peace, and thereby transform this pending cosmic elegy into a creative psalm of brotherhood....

December 10, 1964
Oslo, Norway

[Kiya]

my army needs some new recurits.

[Perna]

I memorized Patrick Henry's speech when I lived in Virginia in 4th-6th grades (1958-62). Too bad it was written by his great nephew, the real one wasn't quite so dramatic.

T's don't have all the power, only that which we allow/give to them.

Can I join?????? I'm ready ......

Jin xx

[nowheretorun]

nowhere here....

Sister, I'm not suggesting a war against any person, especially not my T. I'm using this as an analogy to the civil war within me, the "demons" I am fighting within. I guess the misunderstanding came from my original post I wrote when I was hurt by my T? I would never even think about hurting him. He has told me, though, that our sessions are the safe place, the right place for me to express my anger, my confusion, my devastation. Since I do not know where all these intense feelings are coming from, I'm just trying to get the feelings out there. That's what I was trying to do in this post. When I am in pain, for some reason, I tend to use analogies about whatever situation (I think it's called sublimation?) The troops are representative of the strength I need to persevere, to continue fighting for a day when I have Peace. My goal was not to offend anyone.

Kiya,
I hear ya'! I also need some extra help to keep on going. I'm here for you!

Perna,
When I wrote that, I somehow knew that you would respond with your background in history Now come on, we all know that everything we are taught in history is the absolute truth (note the sarcasm Especially in VA. LOL I could make a list, and a long one at that, at the misinformation being taught.

I love my T. I know he is human. I know he can't cure me. That fantasy is gone and I know that now. When I idealize people, there is also a part of me (my T says its my Watchful Ego) that knows the truth, even if I don't feel it.

[Perna]

I loved memorizing that speech (it's nice and dramatic :-) and was crushed when I learned most of the exiting parts weren't real.

I was born in Virginia and my passport is incorrect because both my parents were born in Tacoma, Washington and Richmond decided the State of Washington meant "District of Columbia"! I've had to wrestle with myself as to whether to get it corrected or not; I don't have any children of my own so maybe I'll just leave the "puzzle" of where my parents were born to future genealogists LOL

Yes, I love that speech, too. Although I teach 2nd grade now, I did teach 4th and 5th grade (special ed.) for 8 years. I was unaware, until you told me, that some parts weren't real. Another bit of misinformation being taught elsewhere is that the first Thanksgiving was in Plymouth, MA in 1620. It was actually held in Jamestown 1607 at Berkeley Hundred (called Berkeley Plantation now). But you knew that, didn't you

Wow. Someone in Richmond didn't know their geography, I see. I can understand you not wanting to figure out or correct the problem, as it might take Richmond forever to get it done if at all. Take care

[MissCharlotte]

Oh Soliaree,

I'm sorry. I was just trying to engage in a bit of humor. I was neither offended nor meaning to offend!

In fact, it is just the old hippie in me that posted.....I tend toward the peaceful resolution of conflict...even now, when marshaling my resources, as you say, I look for the gentle way to be and to engage. I know it is right and good and even very very healthy to muster up the courage that you do!

(You know, T has been trying forever to get me to be really expressively angry and no can do......) so...I thwart him in my own way! I will come on this Army's journey and bring up the rear!