T is back, session sucked!!

No connection at all, he was all about what I have been doing this past week, I filled him in on it, and he always wants me to be honest, so I am and he gets angry and says after 30 minutes into the session, after I told him what happened all week, he says anything else I can do for you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!...........i give up!! I don't know why I bother.........why I hate it when he is gone, and then when he comes back I was better off him being gone!!!!

I'm so sorry your session sucked.

But what do you mean by "he gets angry?" What does he do to show his anger?

He just gets quiet, and then him asking me if there is anything else he can do for me is a sure sign, that was my que that the session was at a end. I know he wasn't happy that I SI'd and that I over used some meds, does he think that I just do it because I want to %#@&#! him off.......maybe I am reading into this more then it is.....I don't know, not sure of much these days.........but I could of just not answered him when he asked me if I was doing these things.......he wants me to be honest, and the trust issue thingy....so I tell him, then I get that........it isn't the first time, but he usually tells me up front that he is upset or dissapointed or angry at me for harming myself, and then he feels like he isn't doing enough to help me.........but is isn't anybody but me, that can help me!!

if this is a different reaction on his part...could it be input from that massive multiple T thing you guys did recently? Maybe another T said he should do something different... just a thot

That sounds really hard, confused. I hope the next session will be better. Lots of people's sessions after the break seem to be hard ones.

I wonder if T's withhold their connection or empathy from clients to try to manipulate them into behaving the way they want them to (not SI-ing, for example)? Then if clients behave well, they are rewarded with empathy, love, connection, etc.

(confused, I'm not saying your T is doing that--I'm just throwing out that idea, in general.)

sunrise, interesting theory. although, i really hope its not true! manipulativeness is a very nasty and unhealthy way of communicating what you want. I know my T is trying to get me to NOT be manipulative, so i don't think they would do it themselves to us. at least i hope not!

Usuall my after-break sessions are ones that are either here nor there.... The connection never seems to automatically return like magic. We have to work at it. Perhaps next time your T asks, "Is there anything else I can do for you?"-- tell him exactly what you want. What is it that you want from him?

I guess I just wanted someone to listen to me and not judge me, I felt like I was being judged.......I know what I do is wrong, after the fact, but when I am in that dark place no....I don't get it!! I don't want him to cuddle me, I just want him to understand and not get that defense up.........I want him to help me work through it, not make it worse........setting up the next appt yesterday, he was like, so do you want another appt or do you want to just wait and see!!! what ever!!

confused, that sounds so hard--worrying about what to do about your T's defenses. Can you tell him that is how you perceive he acts when you tell him you SI? That it makes it hard to be honest with him because of his seemingly angry reaction? I think he really wants to help you but doesn't know what to do.

So did you set up another appointment with him? Maybe if you can set up a standing appointment with him, same time and day each week, you won't have to go through that difficult "do you want another appointment" moment each session?