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Hugs. Will update.

So far today is utterly bad.

I'm Triggered. Sometimes I write stuff about grief, loss of my family, stuff I'm having a hard time with etc on my Instagram. I'm having a very very very difficult time right now.

A friend of mine tends to jump in with her experiences as a way to relate. On 99% of my posts, and sometimes she'll DM too. Not a single word about the pain I am expressing, just all about her.

She's autistic and that's her way of showing empathy, it's not anything malicious, and I don't hold it against her. I don't consider her as lacking empathy.

Hoeever, sometimes, like today... because some very painful unresolved stuff of mine is coming up...I get upset because it feels like she's turning the spotlight on herself.

It's not deliberate I know, and usually I'm more than capable of understanding it etc. Just not really today. I feel like I have to take care of her. That she's jumping in to make it about herself etc and then pressure me to comfort her.

I'll recalibrate. Right now I recognise it touches into my wounds. I'll be ok & if needed I will talk to her.

I just want to voice it out here because I'm sure some of us are caregiver-type where sometimes friends assume we never have a hard time.

And because people here have always been kind to me.

I'm writing some really sad poetry for this years poem-a-day challenge, go figure. Well, at least today's effort didn't leave me in tears like yesterday's did, I suppose that's a positive anyway. I made myself ugly-cry yesterday with what I wrote.

It's hard enough dealing with your own stuff. Sometimes you can't support anyone else. I actually have more than one account - insta lets you post the same stuff to both. Maybe you could create another and start posting there so you don't have to block her as is a friend. When you're stable you can go back to the main account .

Ooh, didn't know that about Instagram. Will consider

You could also block her and change your username so she wouldn't be able to search for you, but that's a bit more on the extreme side if you will most likely be in contact with her again eventually.

Can you explain what happens if I do that? Not because I want to block her but because a young friend is being harassed non-stop by an abusive ex. The person keeps finding out the new account name, and makes new accounts to continue extremely abusive messages. Police, courts not doing anything because it's "only online".

My reason for blocking wasn't as serious and rather petty. As I already have you on insta- you know I changed my username recently. Tell your friend to pick a username that doesn't have their name in it. I picked the name of an ikea candle and added numbers. Make sure you delete all the messages from that person too.You can take screenshots if you want to keep a copy of them. I firstly restricted them.Then later blocked them. I don't use profile pics either. Instagram will also recommend your accounts to others who are friends with your friends in the "people you may know function". Not sure if you can turn that off too. I know in skype you couldn't. If the ex keeps finding out I would also tell her to only have people she 100% trusts. I had someone else looking at my pictures because of this person.


Instagram Restrict vs Block: Which Privacy Option Should You Use

April continues on its mission to be the most destructive month of my year.



is a justifiable reason to contact R, right?

Is it bad I don't remember your Insta name? Please DM me it haha. My memory is super bad. Med management psychiatrist fortunately remembers I've dissociative amnesia for past AND daily life lol. I asked if she'd write down where I'm supposed to go after her, and she said she remembers and is willing to write it down. I definitely forget and have gotten really confused so I need it written down.

April continues on its mission to be the most destructive month of my year.



is a justifiable reason to contact R, right?

Thanks @LostOnTheTrail I also messaged a T from Psychology Today to see if we could be a good fit. If he could see me then maybe I will try to see him before I see my T again. At least if he takes my insurance. That's the part I'm not sure about.

My BF and I are having issues and I feel so so bad.

Fingers crossed he gets back to you soon, maybe you could copy and paste that same email to another 2-3 T's incase someone could see you sooner or if he didn't reply.