Couch 226--CCXXVI Couch

I am getting more and more irritated at places that want to make you use hand sanitizer before doing anything. Covid is not spread by hands. I despise senseless acts and I hate putting that stuff on my hands - I hate the way it feels and smells and is sticky. I usually just leave because there isn't any reason I have to go in but the idiocy of it irritates me. Sometimes I just pretend to use it like at the vaccination center (gym of my university - where they should know that it is stupid because it was the idiots at the nursing school doing it. And the student nurse who did mine was patronizing and told me I "did great" - I snarled back not to patronize clients). Theatre of pandemic for sure. After the first shot, the woman told me "congratulations" - I was like wtf? What is wrong with these people?

I wasn’t congratulated after either shot. There was nothing to congratulate me on. I sat there and got a shot.

I know - it was completely ridiculous.
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I wasn't congratulated either. And also don't get why I would be. I also don't get why people are posting pictures of their vaccine cards on facebook.

In old Western movies, arent people always spitting on their hands before doing something? The way SD described using the hand sanitizer, it triggered something. Plus im watching Dodge City (1939, colorized). I'll watch for it!

I don't spit in my hands. I don't usually spit anywhere.
The only reason I can think of for the congratulations is that the morally bereft governor of the state I live in made it more difficult for people in cities to get it and sent all of the vaccine to the counties where he got the most votes rather than evenly spread out throughout the state. I was driving eligible friends two and three hours away to get their shots

Yeah i cant believe my state went from best to worst.

our county's cases have been steadily decreasing since mid-January, since people started getting vaccinated I guess. But in my state overall, they've started creeping up again. Still way, way down since January, but even a slight increase in cases is too many. Probably spring break related, not sure? I saw on the news yesterday that forest rangers broke up an illegal 5,000 person gathering in a national park recently - probably contributed.

To make it easier for someone to fake your vaccine card? (Someone in New York just did this, forged vaccine cards using social media pics, which have needed details like the vaccine lot number on them. It took 11 minutes to do a forgery.)

Isn’t spitting on your hands supposed to give you a better grip?

As for the congratulations, I think it’s “congratulations, now you probably don’t have to worry about getting covid.”

You can buy the blank cards on ebay and etsy. They are not identification cards.
And I really haven't been all that concerned about catching it so congratulating me for that is even more ridiculous than congratulations you got one of the doses the evil governor finally released to your city.
I am even gladder to be old now than I was (and I was pretty happy about it to begin with). Crappy half-assed propaganda and cheerleaders annoy the bejesus out of me. I have several plans to avoid being placed in a nursing home against my will but if that fails, I will be one of the old ladies trying run down the irritating staff with my wheel chair and refusing to play jelly bean bingo for the chipper social worker students who want to be do-gooders. I hate them most of all.

Jelly bean bingo? Diabetes and norovirus all in one go! Where do i sign up!

I figure anything that helps you out of one of those places faster is fine.
A couple of times the ones I had clients in tried to use fruit but that failed after there were some fruiting incidents (a client of mine really got pissed off about the fruit)

SD you might like the movie I care a lot.

For my second shot on Friday, I had an appointment at 1:15 so I showed up at 1. I had to stand in line for an hour. (I only had to stand in line 10, maybe 15, minutes for the first shot.)

At around the 40 minute mark, I started getting tears in my eyes. My back just hurt so very much! The pain never started going down my leg, so I guess that was good, but it was very bad. When I finally got to sit down in a chair, I just started crying and asked for some tissues.

Which of course They Don't Have. One of the techs had some in her purse. Anyway, my leg was shaking and they were offering me Advil and Aleve, which I can't take, so I politely declined. I said I'd take a muscle relaxant when I got home and I'd be fine. They said I should have spoken up...To who? There was no one to speak up to, in the middle of this long line!

Anyway, I got my shot and played with my phone for 15 minutes and ran through the rain towards my car. I had to stop short at the edge of a driveway because a county vehicle was hot rodding it out of there, and didn't want to stop for a pedestrian, but I made it home safe in the end.

I got a button that says something about vaccinations on it. Whoppee?

I used to stand while teaching but that ended a year or two before COVID. I just couldn't do it anymore; it hurt my back too much.

I might have to buy one of those canes that turns into a small seat for traveling, for when lines are unavoidable. That makes me feel old. I'm only 48, darnit!

Thanks for listening!

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My mum with demetia kept excaping the nursing home and going to the train station they even bought a security bracelet and installed a security system but she kept taking the bracelet off. Eventually they just assigned a nurse to watch her 24/7

Mobius - sympathies. i recently ordered a scroll-y seat. I hope to use it around the house also.

Hugs to all who want.

guys, I just can't let go of the whole "stalking" question. I'm trying to go to sleep early because I have to work 5a-2p this coming week doing live chat, and all my brain keeps doing tonight is telling me that L's going to kick me to the curb on Friday because I told her I look at her psychologytoday.com profile sometimes. I don't know if I should email her to clear things up, or call her tomorrow to try to clear things up, or if i should just pop a couple of melatonin and watch mindless TV til I fall asleep.

Logically I tell myself I did nothing wrong. It's a public web page advertising her services where I found her in the first place before we ever met. She never told me that I'm not allowed to look at it. So, I look at it sometimes when I'm stressed out or having a bad day because reading it makes me feel better, reminds me of stuff I've learned in therapy. Will she think I'm stalking her even more if I call to clarify this mess?!

Goddess, why did I have to open my big stupid mouth?! Because, I didn't think I was doing anything wrong, that's why, and I wanted her to know that the changes she made were good. I am making myself feel terrible. I don't know why I do this to myself. Gah. I need to try to go to sleep.

I think when you first brought up the issue some Couchie said something very wise. Who/what was it?

Also I still don’t know why she couldn’t have been joking.

You didn't do anything wrong! It's a public site she put up voluntarily to advertise her business and get clients to want to come see her.

I think she was using the term stalking colloquially, like others have suggested, and not seriously. If she WAS using it seriously, then she's the one whose boundaries need adjusting and she needs to delete that profile pronto!

I went to my T's website, and looked at her teensy, blurry photo lots of times during the first couple of years. Then I found her on Facebook and, though I cannot friend her, I can still see her profile pic occasionally... although I haven't tried looking in more than a year. Anyway, it's entirely natural to crave that small connection and you are IN NO WAY harming her by looking at her profile.

If you were driving by her house or following her car or finding out where her kids go to school or other things... that would be different. Looking at a website she uses to advertise her services is fine!

Take some melatonin, if you like, but stop beating yourself up. Seriously. If she's got a problem with this, then it's HER problem. It is in no way, shape or form, Artie's problem.

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I just went back and read that part of the couch. I know, she certainly could have been, so I don't know why I'm letting this get to me and why I can't let it go. I've really been trying to let it go but my brain just won't.

Thanks, Mobius. You're right, I know you're right. I cannot imagine that I'm the only client she's ever had that has looked at her profile from time to time. Maybe I'm the only idiot that ever admitted it to her...

Ok I'm going to try going to sleep again. Night couch.

Thats the price of taking responsibility.

I talked to a long lost cousin a while ago, it was kind of random, and like the first thing out of his mouth validated something from my childhood. But it wasnt really happy dance time. I realize now because i have already paid the price of taking responsibility for my feelings regarding the family.

So like yeah, something fell into place, but it didnt decide me. I get the feeling this is "deciding" you. If its true is coming from the outside, not the inside. What else wont you decide for yourself on? For me it was not taking phone calls from my aunt because just even seeing the voicemail transcriptions will trigger me, let alone talking to her. There is always that "will i give in to her iron will and say i love you" at the end. No. No bad language either, but no.

When I understand an una post (or think I do) I always feel like I’ve decoded an ancient palimpsest.