Couch 229 - Acetominphen and

It's interesting that you have interpreted the concept in terms of love. I don't believe it is about love, or even warmth. It is simply about regard. It's a rudimentary condition: I notice that you are a living being and therefore, due to your being, I regard you as having value. People who don't kill insects (no matter how ugly the creature), or who don't support the death penalty (no matter how grotesque the crime), share the same philosophy.

My dad and uncle talk about what they did before a/c - at night my grandmother would put wet sheets over them and turn a fan on them or they slept out on the back porch. I live near a large park that was donated to the city in the 1860's - people would go sleep there in the summer.

I have Info tomorrow. I’ve only just gotten myself stable again after a hell week with all the old sui and sh thoughts, she’d better not do anything destabilizing.

First rejection for new story today. I must be getting more confident in my work, it’s not bothering me.

I'm sorry you were struggling this week. Hopefully you'll have a good session. We look forward to a fashion report.

AUGH. I am finishing my penultimate graduate course. Trying to. It is impossible to even begin to describe how much I LOOOOOAAAAATHE group projects.

My part was done days ago, and done accurately and well and cited properly.


FYI- I don't care what the supposed reason for making us do these is, in no way does this experience echo working in teams in the workplace.

Staying with the parents tonight and tomorrow night before driving to the place where the fellowship is (a ~10h drive that I’m breaking up between two days). Surviving it by staying mildly drunk in the evenings, playing word games (Scrabble, Bananagrams, A Little Wordy, Kitty Letter), and hoping for minimal creepy weirdness.

How would you feel about this comment?

Some background - I was taking Prozac and Wellbutrin. I quit taking them sometime in April. I quit them because I was having trouble feeling anything.

Last session, I made a comment that it felt like everything sucked right now, because that's how I'm feeling at the moment. I also said something about how my motivation to do work right now was low and he asked how long that had been going on. I said a couple of weeks. He brought up the meds. I said something about half-life and how they were probably well out of my system by now. We moved on.

Or at least I did. He apparently looked it up. Half-life for Prozac is 2 weeks and he says it takes 5.5 half-lives to leave your system. He said something about how I said everything sucks and maybe I should rethink taking the meds again. I said I'd think about it but I also said what if everything just sucks right now?

I feel like he's dismissive of my feelings/experiences. Now that he's studying psychopharmacology, maybe he's just seeing everything through that lens, even though he claims he believes medicine is just an adjunct to therapy. Or maybe he's right and I should just take the damn pills. I don't know what to feel about his comments.

I feel my degree (computer science), while it did teach me a bunch of useful stuff, did NOT teach how actual jobs work. And any group projects we did resembled nothing from the real world.

Enjoy the totally welcoming west coast heat wave! I hope your visit with your parents goes as well as possible.

Hope your session goes well.

I think you've figured it out already.

"I feel like he's dismissive of my feelings/experiences."

Well, Info’s already screwed up the session time, first sending me an invite for an hour before the scheduled time (I assumed I had it wrong), then 24 hours later for the correct time (so I had it right).

I refuse to assign group projects. I hate them, students hate them.

Meds—I have the opposite reaction. They help me feel things besides sadness, and they help me focus. Lots of people complain about not feeling anything on them, though.

How long left to your session ?

Hope she handles it better then the organization stuff.

C what do you mean by the creepy weirdness? Does it happen every time you go back?

My T is supportive of medication, including increases where I feel is needed, and she's also supportive of people wanting to taper off meds. What matters to me is that I can discuss it with her if/when I want to, and her only "agenda" is to support me make the right decision for myself. And I can change my mind.

For me personally, I've benefitted a lot from medication but that's partly due to over 5 years of having untreated issues due to under medication and my abusive living situation. And while I feel far more stable now and can finally get restful sleep, I'm still prone to depression and still have anxiety and PTSD issues. But I stopped my anti psychotic (which I took for years to adjunct my anti-depressants) with the agreement of my psychiatrist due to it raising my cholesterol and other stuff.

But it is a very individual decision and medication tapers can be really difficult - he shouldn't be dismissing your feelings and experiences. And yeah, everything can totally suck now because hey, you've ptsd and we're all enduring this pandemic. Doesn't mean you should go back on medication if you don't want to.

My dad does weird stuff I don’t like sometimes. But I haven’t spent a night at home in, gosh, four years?

I'm sorry you hve to deal with that.

Do you have a lock on your door?

Maybe you could visit during the day, but not stay the night and book a hotel room?

Someone’s going to have to peel me off this couch like a fruit strip. It’s so hot!!!! it’s not even noon yet!!!
What’s the current temp where you are? I’m in Canada. It’s +30 right now and by Wednesday it will be between 35-40
Tried to find an AC unit on marketplace but damn they are expensive. Even used!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend. Hugs to everyone!

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I'm in the Arizona desert and it was super hot here (like 114 F) week before last, but it's cooled down a bit and it's only 104 F today. We're supposed to start getting some rain (finally!) on Wednesday which will cool it down even more.

Info fashion report:

Blue sleeveless top with ruffles at the sleeve holes. Gold chains (one with her name and the other her wedding ring). Huuuuuuge earrings. Have you seen the kind of designs on Hopi kachina dolls? Like one of them without a head or feet. It had sequins and a paste sapphire too, which matched her shirt.

She was OK. She managed not to be annoying except at the end when I was still talking and she was riffling through her appointment book to see when our next session was.

Thanks, Lemon.

The problem only arises when I leave my room at night, so I have just not been doing that. No fluids after 6pm, etc.

If I stayed in a hotel, my mother would flip her s*** so I did not -- it's only 3-4 nights. One more night and I'm done.

And next time I come to town in November, I will be with the BF and insist on a hotel and mom can't really complain bc I won't have seen the BF in a long time.

@@, I had to Google Hopi kachina doll and... oh goodness. That sounds like quite the ensemble.

You must have extraordinary eyesight to assay gems at that distance!

If she’s wearing real sapphires, I need to become a therapist pronto and cash in.

I just watched the most boring-exciting golf playoff. They went 8 extra holes, only it was just the same 2 holes, then it was just the same one hole, and the two golfers just kept going par/par, par/par, par/par... then FINALLY par/birdie. I dont know how i 1) happen upon these things in my life and 2) why i find them fascinating. There must be a lesson here. At least in sticktuitiveness.