I'm scared to go to therapy tomorrow!

Last week in therapy, we talked some about past sexual abuse. It upset me and made me angry with my therapist. The freakiest thing that scared me the most was I had text messaged her cell phone with a suicidal type message. She never gave me her cell phone number. I didn't remember doing this, but its on my phone. I've done some weird things that I don't remember, like ending up in a totally different room than the room I was initially sleeping in. I'm afraid to go to sleep. I'm afraid to go to therapy becase I don't want her to yell at me for using her cell phone, and I don't want to talk about the trauma anymore. I'm scared and would rather avaoid than confront. Any one listening? Help!

It sounds like a very intense time in therapy for you now. Maybe you need to back off for a while, and take things more slowly--gather strength, become more stable. Would you be able to tell your T that? I think if she knew your degree of turmoil she would not want to keep on with the trauma work until you felt safe. Hang in there.

I am terrified of getting in trouble. I crossed a boundary using her cell phone. The part that is hard, I don't remember it. That freaks me out.

Your T is on your side. Talk to him/her and tell them what is going on. If you need to back off they will understand. I hope you feel better soon.