IN MY LIFE

When April comes each year, I pause and think about him. He told me that he loved me on April 15th and I celebrate his life now. He died from a brain tumor eight years later. He was the light of my life. 8 years wasn't nearly enough for me to know him..I often stop and think about a particular situation and wonder what he would do or say. I was blessed to meet him and it was all because of a horse...he made me laugh. He helped me push myself intellectually as far as I could go. He was one of the smartest and most compassionate people I've ever known. We took the high road because of obligations to others and I've never regretted that. But, Lord, I miss him. Pat

There are places I’ll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

*hugs*

tears for the song as it reminds me of someone special long gone.

hugs for your loss and a heart for your wonderful memories of such a friend.

It hurts to miss our friends who are gone no matter the years that space in our hearts remains and reminds us that we knew that type of friendship and love.

Aww, sweetheart....to know that ache of loving those who have died before their time. It's a horror in the beginning, and somehow melts into something else later. In the end, it simply changes us. Grief fashions us into altered beings. I swear I can spot one when I walk down the street. I can see it in the eye. There is a depth of some sort...pain survived without request.

Oh sweet friend...my heart hangs sad for you.

emmy

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as much as i do miss him, i'm awfullyglad for that space of time i had "with" him.......i would not have missed that dance for anything.....the pain could never override the pure joy and rapture of hearing that voice on the phone....the chuckles...what a guy! today i was playing a CD in the 'puter and Dave Matthews always has impressed me with his "covers" and his take on "In My Life" is so frigging wonderful and soft and sweet.....even better than my fave, Judy Collins and the Beatles. it got me to thinking and i wanted to share it with you guys. when he died, he had a letter in his billfold that i had written almost 8 years earlier... talk about bawling........

Oh, Pat, that is so sweet that he had a letter from you in his wallet. How wonderful.

I wonder if there is any lover (whether or not sexual intimacy was involved) in my life who holds me that dear.

so........so sorry for your pain........

very few times have i ever allowed myself to think about "if things had been different".......we did what we thought was right. he moved one state away and we stayed in touch. however, sometimes i feel guilty because the emotional bond, in the long run, is stronger than anything physical....i really do appreciate your replies....it means alot to me because you listened so compassionately........xoxox pat p.s. if you know about george jones and country music, his song, "He Stopped Loving Her Today" came out about two weeks after my friend died. I didn't listen to country music and still don't know why I tuned my radio to a country station. Needless to say, I had to pull off the road and bawl for like an hour. p

aww *hugs*

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Pat,

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you. It is such a great thing that you had the opportunity to love so deeply and be loved- what a treasure that is.

I hope that "love" will embrace you and help you cope at this difficult time.

Regards,
Mandy

over the years, i've told very FEW people about my "anniversary"...we all know that some things make people uncomfortable and we just don't talk....i'm so glad that i shared with you guys...so far this has been the easiest April in years...i just go back and read these posts and it lifts the blues off my shoulders and sorta distributes the weight around with my friends here. i am very grateful for all of you.......and i do hope to find love again....he definitely doesn't want me to be alone.