[neri]

by a msn buddy! i shouldn't feel this bad should i?? I'M the one that kept telling him he doesn't have to be there for me, cuz i understand he has problems of his own. And still I'm crushed i think he was the only one i've EVER somehow been able to open up even a little bit. Why is it such a big deal? I haven't even felt all that talkative lately...
F*** !

neri, i'm sorry. it's awful to lose someone you can communicate with....xoxox pat

[jmo531]

((((((((neri))))))))))

Im sorry. You can always PM me if you would like to talk. You always have us. Please dont forget that.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((neri))))))))))))))

neri,

feelings are not about shoulds and should nots. You feel as you feel and you expressed feeling bad. ((neri)) That sounds unpleasant to say the least to feel that way.

It sure does hurt when we lose contact with someone who provides a major component of our support network.

That's why they're called networks. Network definition: an interconnected or interrelated chain, group, or system. Chain. Group. System. These words are used in the plural. And I bring this up to show that we need more than one outlet for getting through these diseases/disorders.

Depression can be brutal in how it distorts thinking (as can many other diseases/disorders). I remember some of the darkness and know how hopeless it felt. I managed to get through the long times of depression with a varied and wide network of support. And updating that network as necessary helped me as well!

I know you are feeling badly but I want you to see how positive it was for you to come here and express yourself to us. You opened up to us about being crushed and feeling bad. You have support on this site. I know it isn't the same as an IM buddy however don't knock us too much

Take good care. You're a work in progress neri.....over time will you see the progress you are making. Just stinks when we can't see it right now, eh?

[Wants2Fly]

((((((((((((((((((((neri)))))))))))))))))))))

[SpazKatt]

*hugs*

[neri]

so embarrased right now... I may or may not have been a little hasty there, except not "may not"

So, guess he didn't abandon me (why does it take at least 10 efforts to spell "abandon" correctly???), I was a little oversensitive yesterday... he did something that freaked me out but I'm not gonna get in to that cuz it's so stupid and i'm totally embarrased
BUT, it is different. So it didn't happen now, but i bet my *** it will happen sometime later...

anyway, for running here right away to wallow in my selfpity. I'm just gonna crawl under my bed and never say anything again..

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((neri)))))))))))))

Its ok. Were here for you no matter what. No hiding under your bed. OK?

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Laura))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

You NEVER have to feel embarrassed here. We all wuv you dearly. You know that. I'm so glad that you've got your friend back.

Ry

[silver_queen]

((((((((((neri))))))))))

good to hear youve got your friend back.