[jennaorgana]

so my parents googled me and went through some links and found my blog.

they told me that i am no longer to put entries in.

i am not allowed to post here anymore.

they are taking everything i need and love and adore right now and they are turning it to complete ****.

[Belle1979]

Originally Posted by jennaorgana

so my parents googled me and went through some links and found my blog.

they told me that i am no longer to put entries in.

i am not allowed to post here anymore.

they are taking everything i need and love and adore right now and they are turning it to complete ****.

I am so sorry for you... PC is my life line when it comes to getting everything out of my head even if it's just for a moment!

[jennaorgana]

do i keep doing it at risk of them finding out and punishing me even further? for ****s sake... i am 21 years old. when will this end.

[Belle1979]

Originally Posted by jennaorgana

do i keep doing it at risk of them finding out and punishing me even further? for ****s sake... i am 21 years old. when will this end.

Have you told them why it helps you to be able to vent/write/express?
At 21 you are old enough to make decisions for yourself, they are just trying to be protective I guess.
I wouldn't lie to them but I'd try to explain how it helps you to have the blog and PC

[jennaorgana]

I THOUGHT OF A GOOD IDEA! I MADE IT so you have to register to get on. so i made a user name and password so EVERYONE can get on! it will be in my signature!

[Rhapsody]

May I ask how they found you here on PC? - if it is through your user name I would suggest you cancel the old account and make a new one under a name they do not know.

[scrambled mother]

oh i feel for ya! I dont know what I would do if i had to live back at home! I wish you the best!

[FooZe]

Originally Posted by jennaorgana

do i keep doing it at risk of them finding out and punishing me even further? for ****s sake... i am 21 years old. when will this end.

Sounds abusive to me. Since posting here and in your blog doesn't harm anyone and seems to support you, I don't see where anyone should be in a position to tell you to stop.

BTW, I'm opting to reply here to something you mentioned in your blog:

...those of you educated in the art and form of bipolar disorder would easily identify my experiences thus far as manic or hypomanic. any other day i would completely agree with you, but the fact of the matter is that i am depressed.

(an unusual feeling: anxiety over hospitalization, 2/14/10)

I've seen something of the sort referred to as a "mixed episode" -- for instance, here, here and here.

[BashfullOne]

I am so sorry to hear that! PC - I would be lost with out it! I hope they will change their mind. Ask your T or P-doc to talk to them to see if he/she can get them to change their minds. Please keep us posted if you can!! {{{HUGS}}}

[marjan]

I'm just curious how did they find out? Do you use your real name on your blog?
besides, at the age of 21, you are adult and you don't need their advice anymore....
I would suggest to stand up for your rights and show them that they can't control you anymore....I don't say to be disrespectful towards them, but be strong....
I remember that when I was at your age, my parents were giving me hard time for going hiking or to the gym or some other good activities....but I managed to convince them....It was difficult and they were so unreasonable, but it was learning curve for me too! Now, that I talk to my mom, she regrets about those days that she was so strict with me and my sisters....she says she just wanted to protect us and didn't know how! she even told me if it was now she would have give me more freedom.....I had to sneak out from home to go hiking with my friends....I love hiking and still doing it....hehehe.....
take care and don't be afraid of them....they can't do anything....and you are not doing anything wrong.....just stay strong
Marjan

[jennaorgana]

somehow my two gmail accounts, my normal one and the one i use for PC and my website, are BOTH under my REAL name, even though i used a pseudonym for the "special" gmail account.

it must've been a mistake I personally made while making the second account... i probably wasn't thinking like a spy (who does all the time?). i also didn't think that if my parents found it it would be a big deal AT ALL. really. the only reason i didn't tell them about it was because i didn't want them to be scared OF me... and the reason i used a pseudonym was because i didn't want everyone knowing my real name.

i didn't think it would be this big of deal...

so when they googled me some twitter post or something referring to my new gmail account came up. then they searched my gmail account and my website came up.

as they were yelling at me, i made the mistake of saying that PC has helped me through the last few weeks more than anyone ever has.

i think my parents were and are just jealous and hurt i couldn't go to them. biut i cant! they wont understand. all of you do... helping other people DOES... its crazy

thanks marjan, i know i am going to keep posting here. and i put a password on the ssite FOR NOW. once i get to McLean i wont care at all since i will be out of the house.

bashful you have ALWAYS been so kind to me. so thank you for your (obviously) kind words.

[Rohag]

Regrettable... But now my mind is entertaining candidates for your first novel's title: "Looney Bin Emancipation," "Inpatient for Freedom," "Having Two Parents Made Me Bipolar," etc.

Note: The above is intended to be somewhat humorous based on reading the blog in question; lacking that context may impair one's ability to appreciate the levity.

[Elysium]

Wow!!

Your parents sound a bit intrusive, googling you to find out info on you and then taking it steps further. If they weren't intending to invade your privacy in that way, why wouldn't they just come to you first and talk with you before going behind your back.

And....your 21 years old. You have a right to express yourself, you have a right to privacy.

Keep your head up. I'm not sure if you will have an opportunity to get out on your own anytime soon, but I hope you can. And the password is a good idea.

Take care.

((((((((( Jenna ))))))))))

[salukigirl]

You're 21, tell em to get over it. You're a big girl now (said sarcastically in case you didn't pick up on that lol)

[Doomed]

If this is a place where you need to go to get support,then you should be able to go.I dont understand why they are doing this.We are all here for our own reasons,so it should be ok.Theres good in places like this.Hope you can still come here.Maybe if you share the site with your parents,then they can see what your involved in jenn.Doesnt hurt to try.Good luck..

[Jalita98]

that sucks that they found you online. im surprised they would be mad at you. if my parents found my journal, i would think they would be concerned and want to help me and get me to a good treatment place. now i know why your site asked me for a username and password. i even created an account and was still unable to get to it. post the new username and password when you can.
HUGS

[NuckingFutz]

Send your parents to McLean. Did they take your meds away since they help you? There is just nothing like parents behaving badly. I do not understand how parents can punish you as an adult and why? Maybe you can blog about it when you can get back on.

[Burbitine]

Youre 21 make your own decisions. Sorry to be so blunt but you have to make a stand about something you might as well do it about this

[jennaorgana]

haha, you guys are absolutely the best. i love the titles for my book, LOL!

um, i decided that once i get to mclean this week i am going to unlock the site. they can't do anything when i am out and getting treatment. plus i don't have to take their calls if i dont want to!

you guys have been more supporting than any other group of people ever in my life, including my parents. i came to the conclusion that why the f would i stop, you know? i will keep writing and updating the site and writing here. given the site will be a secret for a few more days.

thanks again all. you have no idea how my spirits were just lifted reading all the responses. i love you all

[Jalita98]

so youre going to mclean this week?!! so exciting..! good luck and i hope the very best comes to you from this experience! HUGS

[perpetuallysad]

I'm glad to see a response from you. I got worried when you removed the username & password from your signature. I remembered what it was, but was still unable to log into your blog. Anyhow, I am glad you are ok.

[Lady_Chaos]

If my parents tried to tell me at 21 what i could and couldn't do i'd have told them to **** off!

.....But then, by 21 i had already been living out of home for 3 years.

It does seem a little silly though, your blogs and posts here aren't hurting anyone.

[Jalita98]

does anyone know the password and username to jenna organa's blog? it looks like you have already left for mclean because she hasnt done anything on PC since the 23 or 25th. she said she would post the info in her sig and i dont see it. id like to read the blog, but it is still locked...
thanks.

[Tatyana2009]

I hope you are ok sweety!

You are not a child any more and it should be your decision - not your parents - which sites and blogs you use.

I hope you can stand up this abuse and controlling behaviour. If they were jealous as you say, they should have still respected your choice and found a way to connect with you and support you. I am so sorry they did the opposite - I d like to think they did it out of care - maybe they were afraid that your mental state will be compromised by using some site (out of lack of understanding what psycc is all about...). What ever the reason - they should not discount you and your decisions.

I hope you are ok! please let us know how you are doing when you can xxx