Can death be a better option?

We're here....all the time....

Jiakhan, just realizing WHY you re isolating is a big step. Hang in there. When depression gets going, it gets a life of it's own, and no amount of rational arguing will drive it back completely, especially from our end, undfortuantely. That's why you really need to so a therapist and get in contact with a P-doc.

Hon, the psychs are just people. They have their own personalities and values, and though they try very hard not to let that influence how they act, it's part of who they are. That's why it's OK to try not just one, but several therapists before you find one you "click" with. It's just like anyone else.

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. HUGGGGSSSS and keep writing in, OK?

Its not easy to find a new therapist. The entire psychiatric staff knows me already and i just cant go to them again. Its even harder to go find a new one at a different ho7pital. Now i feel very vulnerable aboupt opening up infront of so many different people.

My life is a mess at the moment. I get angry towards my friends on minor things and m be2oming more and more impatient. If i dont die then there is a whole life ahead of me and i wonder how will i cope up with all this.

Anyway,thanks for trying to help me. Nothing is gonna get better,i know myself way too better than this.

I think i know where do i belong - underground. bye and take care. C u all on the other side.

To Jiakhan - I know this isn't helpful but I wanted to give you a "virtual" hug. <<hugs>> I hope things get better for you and my heart goes out to you.

aww sweety. things will get better they just take time. did you go get some antidepressants? if you cant find a therapist you feel comfy with you can always talk on here. you've been doing that already. just let it all out. we are all rooting for you. we all want to know you are ok.

Death is never better for the people who love and care about you. You matter in this world, and I bet you have touched people's lives in ways you never even realized. the best advice I've ever gotten was "you can't solve 100 problems at once, concentrate on one at a time." The second best was, "if you don't like your life, change it." Where do you start? Start with realizing you're human - which means you make mistakes and aren't perfect. It took me until I was 25 to learn to like myself inspite of myself. The first step was knowing that I TRY to be the best person I can be. The second was trying not to keep making the same mistakes over and over again by finding the reason I was making them in the first place. Ask yourself what's missing in your life, in you, and find a better way to try and meet those needs. I wish you much luck and love on your road to peace and happiness.

i went to see a psychiatrist. i hope this is a good one. he has prescribed me medicine for bipolar to stabilize my mood. i hope it works.

yes my family sure loves me and one or two of my friends might be caring for me too. i so want to become a good and useful person. and i WONT give up. a crappy guy like my receT let me down.

Hello, jiakhan. The will to get better and the belief that you can are so important. I muddled through the muck for decades. It was only when I accepted complete responsibility for my own well-being that I started to function at a higher level.

I wish you well.