Irritated

I don't even know why I'm here anymore. I got shushed the other night in chat because people were "too tired" to support me. Ok, it wasn't in the support chat, but who really cares. I was having a rough time and nobody would freakin help me out.

I'm so sick of being pushed aside. One night another member was very suicidal and ready to kill themselves, and even though I was very tired, I stayed with her...I would not leave her side until I was sure that she would make it through the night and be safe.

I guess I have more integrity than most. I don't know. I'm so agitated right now.

(((((((Lexi))))))) I am here for you if you need to talk, ok?

-Jennifer-

(((((((((((lexicon))))))))))))

i know you're going thru a really hard time right now. i wish that you could focus more on the really good support that you are receiving here, instead of focusing on what you feel that you're not getting.

alot of ppl have shown that they care about you and what you're going thru. try to concentrate on that?

i wish you well and peaceful thoughts to you.

kd

Lexi, in the last few weeks you've seemed really needy. I know how that goes, and usually, I can't find anyone to empathize with me. At those times is when we need to learn to take care of ourselves, our own needs. When we get like that, it's the child within that needs care and attention. Threat yourself at those times, as if you were a precious little girl that needs attention. Only you know exactly what you need... much better than the rest of us or anyone else. It's okay to pamper yourself, snuggle up with a stuffed animal and a "blankie," eat an ice cream or whatever it is that your child wants. As hard as it may be, tell yourself that you love you and that you deserve the best of everything. Truthfully, this helps more than anything else anyone can say.

You know, some of us cope differently from other people. I go to Social to laugh and cut up to forget the problems of the day or to get rid of a bad mood. That's MY therapy. Other people cope the same way. There ARE those that will leave another chat if they know someone needs to talk and they'll go to Support Chat. Maybe you need to ask for what you need. It's good to accept, too, that maybe no one is in the place where they can help.

Hope this helps you to understand a little bit better. Take care of YOU, ok?

I hear you there...if you need support just PM me, I am never too busy. I hate being shunned too. Rejection and I are not friends in the least. Thats why I quit posting in here for awhile. NOTE you are not alone.