How do I walk away?

Idk if this is the right place to post about a friendship or not, but I think I need some advice. I had this best friend who I was really close with. We shared everything and were always in constant contact. Well senior yr of college I started acting really sporadic (later diagnosed bp2) and we started fighting a lot over nothing. I'd pick a fight or cause a problem. Well she stuck through it until last Sept when I became really suicidal. I went and got help and that's when she disappeared. She didn't talk to me for like a month. Later I found out she was pissed at me and also thought if she came back I'd quit therapy. But she slowly came back, but now I don't trust her not to leave again. She randomly disappears in the middle of conversations and sometimes won't respond until days later. We usually only talk maybe once a week. But my T told me to talk to her about whether she wants my trust back, which she says she does so I told her I need her to be a more stable consistent figure in my life in order to earn my trust. After I said that she disappeared again. All my friends and my T think that she isn't healthy for me cuz she has me on a roller coaster when she disappears, so should I walk away at this point? And if so, how do I deal with that? I honestly don't feel like I can handle that right now, but I also can't handle this roller coaster anymore. I want off, but I also want my best friend back :'( What do I do????

I would not totally cut her off but I would quit expecting her to be around and not be readily available when she is around. I would focus my energy more on the people who are around.

Maybe she will get the point that you are not a yo yo to be played with

Is it possible that she thinks you rely on her too much? Maybe she wants to make sure that you can "make it" on your own without her being around all the time. Just a thought. OR .........

I can understand how you would get tired of her disappearing all the time, but you must remember that your past with her was pretty volatile. Maybe she's afraid the same things might happen again.

Sounds like you two might need to have a sit-down conversation and talk things out if you can get her to stick around long enough. LOL Then you can decide if the two of you can really be "best friends" anymore.

Best of luck and I hope things work out. God bless. Hugs, Lee

Leed gave wonderful advice. She might be scared. That's not something you should feel at fault for, but you have to understand why she might be scared.

At the same time, it's not okay of her to stress you out with her sporadic friendship with you. That's not healthy.

Talk to her again. Tell her exactly how you feel, and ask her to be honest with you how she feels. From there, maybe you two can make progress from there.

Take care, and I wish you my best.

See the thing is I have talked to her and she knows exactly how I feel. She has also said she sees I've grown a lot and have been able to control myself a lot more since I've been in therapy. Idk if she is scared or not, but if she really wants to earn my trust back (which she claimed she does so we can be friends) she's not showing that at all. I'm just confused cuz everyone in my life tells me to walk away (even my T says maybe its time) cuz she keeps doing this to me even though she knows exactly how I feel about it. We have talked about what I mean by disappearing. Like she disappears in the middle of conversations. I understand life is unpredictable (esp hers), but to disappear for days when we were in the middle of a conversation is different then us just not talking for a few days. Idk if that makes sense lol. I'm not relying on her. We only talk every once in a while, but then she goes and disappears. Idk I guess its really confusing.