Do I do everything wrong?!?!

I swear to God, I'm pretty sick of this crap. I'm just not going to tell my mom any my of my problems any more. It's pissin' me off. Hell, I shouldn't even try to go out anymore, even though she insists I go out and have "fun" with friends.

Last night, I was about to go over my friend in the first time in about 2 months or more, and I was looking for my contact case. Couldn't find it, gave up, and she said, " What are you looking for?", "My contact case", "Well, why don't you look for it?", "I don't need it, I have my glasses anyway." Wouldn't you know it, it all ended up in a freakin' argument? I ended up getting back-handed across the arm (Which hurt like hell, and getting hit in that area is starting to happen more an more often when we fight) She told I couldn't go out unless I found the contact case, I said, " Fine, it doesn't matter to me. I could get more done at home then I would playin' videogames over at Mario's house." So, I kinda pretended like I was looking for my contact case, and then she says I can go over my friends house, so I do. Who wouldn't say yes to that?

But, what the crap? Even it just happened to tonight, I lost a Presentation contast at County level and apparently now I get my laptop taken away for picking at my thumb and making it bleed during the presentation. Then the conversation dives into the next thing; I lost my favourite jacket at a horse clinic. She flips out on me, saying I don't care about it. Hell, I don't care about it when I know it's probably just in Ken's trailer.

STUPID CRAP!!! Like my self-esteem doesn't already suck. This women, I swear to God WANTS to mess with my head. Now, more and more the push is to wear her type of clothes, and be more girly. She ****in' called me a pig today and a guy. Thanks Ma, I love you too.

I hate the *****...

sounds as if you and your mom are really on opposite ends of the earth. would you be able to get some counseling? perhaps learning how to better deal with your anger and your mom's anger? it would be really cool if she would go to therapy with you. i don't know your situation well, but we're here to support you and listen. post more. xoxox pat

Sounds like your relationship with your mom is out of control. You really need to talk to a counselor or a therapist. If you go by yourself at first, I'm sure a counselor would need to talk to your mom, too. She sounds like she's under quite a bit of stress for some reason and not dealing well at all.

Keep talking to us. We'll listen.

that sounds so much like my life as I was growing up... apparently my mother and I never got on from about when I was 4. I don't remember it much back then, but by the time I was 12 we were fighting so badly she decided it was all my fault and had me referred to a child psychiatrist thinking i was bipolar (my dad is). That made me even angrier with her and have resented that ever since. Everything wrong in our relationship was put down to ME. But the Pdoc said that there was nothing wrong with me (altho in retrospect i suffered from undiagnosed depression until i was 18 which would've made things worse). When i finally plucked up the courage at 14 to see the school counsellor (I only saw her 2 or 3 times then gave up- i wasn't ready to open myself up to anyone) she said the most important thing that anyone could ever have told me about relationships...'it takes 2 to tango'. I threw that up in my mothers face during one fight and she just laughed it off saying that it was still me all in the wrong. Even now she doesn't believe in it. My hubby and i separated 4 wks ago and she blames him entirely for it, even tho i have told her OVER and OVER that we are both to blame. Man, I have just rambled SO much sorry!!! But please just try and remember that it really does take 2 to tango...
p.s. my mum and i actually get on really well now, but i am not as close to her as she probably thinks i am- i still don't open up to her and trust her really...but on the whole we do get along great (living at opposite ends of the country also doesn't hurt!!).

Thanks everyone for your support. ^^

Well, the thing about bringing her into therapy is that she apparently thinks she's pretty good at what she's doing already. I've noticed her problems before she'll ever realize them. I grabbed a "Parenting Handbook" that I seen lying on the table yesterday, and started to skim through it. My mom comes in later to my room and says, " Learn anything in there?", "Yes, apparently you need to learn to use 'I' messages or something.", "Ok, I'm angry, I want to hurt you." In a joking matter of course, but, jut read the damned book and accept some of this crap. Then she says, " Do you want anything?", and I say, " I want some cake.", "I don't want to get the cake. You didn't want cake before when I asked if you did." Sarcasm is not helpful.

The funny thing about our relationship is that be DO ACTUALLY get along very well. At the right time and place, that is. We're very close, but I guess it's like the Hedgehog's Dilema, in which the closer you get to someone, the more you get hurt. I'm unsure...

sounds to me as if there is a huge breakdown in communications in your household. it looks like you push each other's buttons. is there a payback in this? how does it make you feel when you two are fighting? and i wonder how she feels? i still think counseling is appropriate. xoxxpat