sooo confused - can't figure it out! HELP

So we are broken up - well, "taking a break" whatever that means. He and I keep texting - it's hard to make that break.

I miss him already and feel like I have lost my best friend. I keep thinking of what he's doing and it's hard not to text him and see how he is doing.
He thinks that my anti-depresssants play a big role. When I was on them, I was chill and relaxed and just going with the flow type of person. I went off them for a few months (Feb-April) and things got really bad. I felt like I had feelings again, but my emotions were all over the place. He reminds me - you were in love with me when you were off the meds. I tried to explain to him it was bc I was grasping at anything - he was the person who was keeping me afloat at that difficult time. Now he thinks that since I'm back on the medicine, it's making me numb again and not allowing me to have feelings. Is this possible?

What if I made the wrong decision by breaking it off?

When I think of the reasons I broke it off:
He is very high strung - type A personality just like me
I misinterpret what he's saying sometimes, which causes conflict
I don't know if I see myself with him forever
I'm not that physically attracted to him - I haven't really been that way with any guy tho, so this might not be anything new.
He has habits that annoy me - cleaning his apartment, etc.

Reasons to rethink the break up:
He treats me like gold - better than any man has before
He listens to me and cares what I think and how I feel
My family loves him - he is wonderful with his kids and an awesome dad, which is really attractive
He's funny - so funny, and witty
He's my best friend
What if I'm just tainted from my breakup with my ex husband 2 yrs ago?
What if it's just cold feet?

I really need some help sorting this out.

I promised myself I'd take the week and not talk to him, but I miss him and it's hard to make that break. I don't know what to do. Help - I kinda feel like I'm drowning here.

Ok ~ If you think you feel better with the antidepressants and they do you more good than not, DON'T LET HIM sway that. It's not about HIM -- take them! You said things got really bad when you went off them, right? Well, stay ON them! Obviously you need them. It's not up to him whether you take them or not - it's all about how you feel.

As far as the reasons you broke it off: You said you misinterpret things he says -- EVERYONE does that at times. Just tell him you didn't quite understand what he meant! It doesn't have to get blown out of proportion, right? And he has habits that annoy you -- same thing here -- there isn't ONE of us that doesn't have a habit that annoys someone else. We just have to learn to put up with it. LOL OR we can somehow compromise, and come up with a better solution. Then you said you're not physically attracted to him -- but you haven't been attracted to anyone else anyway --??? Plus you can't see yourself with him forever -- you don't say how long you've been with him so far, so I can't remark on this.

As for rethinking the breakup -- He sounds like a GREAT guy. You just might want to take a little time off and hope to blazes that no one else grabs him before you make up your mind. But this is YOUR decision dearheart. If you feel that this just ISN'T right, then trust your GUT instincts, and make YOUR decision. Usually your instincts are right.

I wish you the very best -- my prayers are with you. God bless. Hugs, Lee

Thank you soo much for responding. We've been together a year.

I know I can't be off meds, so I'm not considering going off. I appreciate your concern, but you are 100% right on that one! I am much better on them.

Maybe it's a good thing to take a break and rethink things. See what will grow when you aren't so much needing him as being with him because you want to be. I know when I'm in the middle of stuff I can't really see it clearly, so maybe giving yourself some time away is a good thing.

I can't say much in regards to the anti-depressants as I have no experience taking them vs not taking them.

However I feel like I've been in a similar relationship situation. I broke up with my ex last February because I didn't feel happy. I felt like I was always irritated with him, I wasn't physically attracted to him etc. Well as soon as I broke up with him I felt like I made the biggest mistake and called him up and told him I was wrong and wanted to be with him and we got back together.

Didn't take long for my previous unhappy feelings to return. We ended up breaking up a few months after the first break up, and again it was hard but we stuck it out and it ended up being the best thing.

I'm not saying that will be the case for you (ending things for good) but give it time. It will hurt at first whether its the right decision or the wrong decision, but only time will tell whether its the best decision for you.

I wish you all the best- hang in there

Thanks- I've done that a few times already...broken up with him and within a week have been back with him...so maybe I need to wait it out like you said.

I know it can be so hard- but time can be the best thing.

I miss him....