[Bella777]

I was in a relationship for over two years. I loved this guy with everything I had. My heart and soul belonged to him, but shortly after encountering some of his financial issues and other issues that could not easily be resolved, I cheated on him. I blame this on my disorder--schizophrenia disorder--for I was hearing voices at the time and could not think clearly. All in all, we recently separated and he now has a new girlfriend. However, I tried to explain my disorder to him and win him back, but it's was a "no go". He has listened to me a little, but is not willing to give our relationship another try due to his new relationship. I am bummed because I care a lot about him and am finding that I compare every new lover to him. It is extremely difficult for me to move on, especially since I found out about my new disorder. Plus, my old lover isn't so terrified of my disorder as I assume other guys will be, so I feel stuck. I feel stuck on him--my past lover--because I love him with all my heart, and I don't think I could find someone else as accepting as he. Please comment.

[hamster-bamster]

Bella, I know this is not what you expected but I want to entertain you a bit.

I posted a profile on a dating site and went on vacation soon thereafter. In the short period of time before the vacation I went on two lunch dates.

One guy has depression and is on Lexapro and now emails me updates about his mood fluctuations.

The other spent ten thousand dollars on therapy in nine months. I do not know further details because I decided not to deal with someone who spends so much on therapy.

The morale of this is: other people have their own issues and mental health concerns. You are not the only woman with schizophrenia in the world. You will be accepted by someone else. Just get out there and one day someone will be sharing his delusions with you.

[NoCake]

I thought you could at least buy a new outlook with ten grand.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by NoCake

I thought you could at least buy a new outlook with ten grand.

He is East Indian. His ex wife is Christian Palestinian. She had somewhat peculiar views on sex. Before the marriage, she did not allow sex for religious reasons. During the marriage, she had two extramarital affairs, but not at the same time. The marriage lasted only eighteen months so it took him N monts of T to recover from 2N months of marriage. Not very efficient.

[Bella777]

Thank you for responding to my posting. hopefully, I will find someone who will accept me and all of my issues.

I have gone out on several dates, but I keep wishing for someone exactly like him, and I can't seem to find it. I know that I won't be able to find someone exactly like him, but I truly do want to find someone who resembles him in his character/personality. Wish me luck!

It's just seem so hard after investing so much in the relationship--so much time and energy to keep it going. It just seems like it was all for nothing. Well, I learned something, but this doesn't make up for the pain and sorrow behind losing him, you know?

Hope to hear from you soon.

- Bella

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

Bella, I know this is not what you expected but I want to entertain you a bit.

I posted a profile on a dating site and went on vacation soon thereafter. In the short period of time before the vacation I went on two lunch dates.

One guy has depression and is on Lexapro and now emails me updates about his mood fluctuations.

The other spent ten thousand dollars on therapy in nine months. I do not know further details because I decided not to deal with someone who spends so much on therapy.

The morale of this is: other people have their own issues and mental health concerns. You are not the only woman with schizophrenia in the world. You will be accepted by someone else. Just get out there and one day someone will be sharing his delusions with you.

[Bella777]

Oh. By the way, sorry to hear about your last two dates. I hope you find someone soon, as well.

- Bella

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

Bella, I know this is not what you expected but I want to entertain you a bit.

I posted a profile on a dating site and went on vacation soon thereafter. In the short period of time before the vacation I went on two lunch dates.

One guy has depression and is on Lexapro and now emails me updates about his mood fluctuations.

The other spent ten thousand dollars on therapy in nine months. I do not know further details because I decided not to deal with someone who spends so much on therapy.

The morale of this is: other people have their own issues and mental health concerns. You are not the only woman with schizophrenia in the world. You will be accepted by someone else. Just get out there and one day someone will be sharing his delusions with you.

[dismas]

I wish I knew how.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Bella777

Oh. By the way, sorry to hear about your last two dates. I hope you find someone soon, as well.

- Bella

The one with depression I like. So, nothing to feel sorry about it!

I think we need to be open to new possibilities, new experiences, new people... who do not necessarily resemble our exes in personality and character. But maybe you will find someone just like him!

[blondie123456]

you cant blame him for leaving you. you lost all his trust and without trust a relationship is not worth a whole lot. you made a mistake, learn from it, and take sometime for yourself. i have been cheated on, i know what that rejection and betrayal feels like. even if he did forgive you, he would never forget that and he would never trust you the same. maybe go on a dating site and see if you cant find someone else? there are ALOT of people in this world and someone would love to be with you, disorder or not. sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together.

[JOANNE1313]

someone i know was diagnosed with schozophrenia and then their family tried various things and they got better and all diagnosis was retracted.

she is now married to an amazing top quality guy in every way.

Even people with a disorder can do quite well when there is the right treatment and not too much stress.

I wish you good luck.

Poeple without disorders also lose the love of their lives due to all kinds of circumstances. Its very painful. Nurture yourself. Try to find small things that make you happy daily. Try to stay wise and calm. We never know what wonderful things could be in store for us.