Broke up while living together?

My bf and I have been through a lot. I have made my fair shares of mistake and i admit to it. I never denied a thing. Whereas because of that he believes it erases all his dues. Or it just doesnt compare. I believe that was unfair. He has treated me like a peice of garbage. WORSE! He wanted me to literally lick his shoes and be his housemaid. Every time i wanted to express myself i was told to be quiet. I was a nag to him. I cried days after weeks after months. He sits theres and says stop crying, drama queen. I have made my mistakes, but i have done nothing for almost 4 months. I have been so kind. We have been in pushing and shoving fights. His name calling and how he would treat someone else better because hes sure they wouldn't hurt him. It just hurt to hear that. He thinks his mistakes are nothing. We have been living together for a year. It was my mistake to move in too soon. Now we are broken up. And he treats me like im a ghost. I do want to make him chase me, but i KNOW! Its not worth it! He watches tv and drinks beer and sit on couch all day. We both work. I come home. Theres no dinner for me, i just make it myself. Like not even a hello. I dont sleep and eat well. I have my silent tears. Yes good idea is to move out but how can i when i dont have that kind of money. Im currently looking for a roomate. But its not easy. Idk if this is a vent or question. But i dont know what is going on anymore :'( i wasted my whole year with this fool. Now its worse living with him still. I dont care if he moves out but i do.

Its not a healthy relationship for him to be treating you this way. Pushing and shoving are not ok. Save up money and get out, maybe even get a second job for while so you can afford it. Stay with family or a friend. You deserve so much better. I think sometimes we allow people to treat us like crap because we don't think deserve any better. Love yourself. I once heard we take relationships with people who love us only slightly better than we love ourself. We take the crap because we don't love ourself enough to get out. I don't know if it is true for everyone but for me I would say I agree. I have been in abusive relationships and realize now I didn't leave because I didn't love myself enough to say I deserve better. You deserve better! I hope everything works out for you. Take care and do whats best for you and your emotional wellbeing.

Thank you so much. I agree too. I stopped loving myself because i loved him more. I always had fear of losing him and i never stood up and left because i never wanted him to even like another girl and now its fading because i put hate infront of him. The more i picture him with another girl and doing things i wouldnt like. The more it helps. My friends and family all support me. And yes i will be seeing if i can stay with someone.