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Old Nov 14, 2017, 11:02 AM
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Technical like my location.. We're 3 hours apart via train and neither of us drives, my work (I don't have as much time off as he does, he's self-employed)...
I've told him those things can be changed, I can be relocated and we can work on most of the issues.. hell, we could work on all of them, but he wouldn't say anything. Just waiting for small things to pile up.

I doubt that he ever loved me as much as I love him. If he did, he would talk about it and we could fix it together...
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Old Nov 14, 2017, 11:44 AM
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I'm sorry. He's now giving you contradictory information. At first it was that you didn't connect enough and no spark, and now it's logistics. Wonder what the real truth is. That would be maddening to me. Maybe he doesn't even know.

I wouldn't assume that you loved him more. Whatever the case may be, he has decided that it cannot work out.

I know this saying is sooo cliche, but if it's meant to be, it will be. And if not, then you gotta try and let go and move on.. easier said than done, I know all too well.

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Old Nov 14, 2017, 12:37 PM
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We were together for 7 months.
He's bipolar with asperger's.
He called me last Sunday, we were talking about our work, planing and looking forward to our trip to Finland. Everything was alright. The next day he called me to say that he can't see our relationship going anywhere and he can't feel the spark.

At first I was shocked and extremely hurt. Wouldn't let him friendzone me and told him to throw away all my clothes and stuff I had at his house. He told me he'll call next day to check if I'm alright. He never did.

After the first shock, I was desperate for answers. He repeated the same thing, saying I'm a good person and haven't done anything wrong.
I've replied that I know it's not the spark and asked him if this has to do anything with his bipolar. Since then he's been ignoring me.

I would be so thankful if I could get some of your opinions here. Just to make some sense of it in my head.
And please don't judge me, I'm already falling apart anyway, feeling guilty of my reaction and thinking what I did wrong.
Can't eat or sleep for days, headaches, vomiting.. you name it.

Thank you in advance.
unfortunately most of the advice you might receive or analysis of your situation will be based on assumption and no one here really has enough information for real analysis.

The best person to give you the answers you're looking for is going to be your ex partner who broke it off. only he knows the full answer to your question as to why, and whether you did anything wrong but.. that being said, why after he said it isn't anything you've done do you still ask what you did wrong?

There are cases where relationships don't work out when it's not based on anyone doing anything wrong. People don't always work out as couples but that does not necessarily mean either one is wrong or had to offend or transgress the other's limits. sometimes it's just incompatibility, other times it's that one or the other is not ready etc...

It's not easy to endure a break up when you thought things were great but don't beat yourself up about it and although you'll need to grieve the loss, try to move on, as you may never have all the answers.
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Old Nov 14, 2017, 03:41 PM
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I'm sorry. He's now giving you contradictory information. At first it was that you didn't connect enough and no spark, and now it's logistics. Wonder what the real truth is. That would be maddening to me. Maybe he doesn't even know.

I wouldn't assume that you loved him more. Whatever the case may be, he has decided that it cannot work out.

I know this saying is sooo cliche, but if it's meant to be, it will be. And if not, then you gotta try and let go and move on.. easier said than done, I know all too well.

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I honestly don't know what to think anymore. I think I started letting go. I've got no energy to fight, cry, think. Just this numbness in my head. I'm actually relieved he didn't respond to my alst email because I don't think I have anything more to say.
I'm just so scared I'll fall to bits tomorrow. Or a day after.
I'm accepting now that I wasn't left by bipolar, I was left by a person I loved and still love. And I can't change it. He doesn't want me. Reasons are irrelevant.
As you said, it wasn't meant to be.

And how are you feeling today?
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unfortunately most of the advice you might receive or analysis of your situation will be based on assumption and no one here really has enough information for real analysis.

The best person to give you the answers you're looking for is going to be your ex partner who broke it off. only he knows the full answer to your question as to why, and whether you did anything wrong but.. that being said, why after he said it isn't anything you've done do you still ask what you did wrong?

There are cases where relationships don't work out when it's not based on anyone doing anything wrong. People don't always work out as couples but that does not necessarily mean either one is wrong or had to offend or transgress the other's limits. sometimes it's just incompatibility, other times it's that one or the other is not ready etc...

It's not easy to endure a break up when you thought things were great but don't beat yourself up about it and although you'll need to grieve the loss, try to move on, as you may never have all the answers.
I've got some answers from him today. Even silence is an answer.
I don't think I've done something intentionally wrong, but maybe I just didn't know how to handle him.

He is genuinely good person and I was blessed to have someone like that in my life. I just miss him a lot.
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Old Nov 14, 2017, 03:50 PM
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Oh Alice, I am so sorry. I know it may hurt again once you get past the numbness. It's hard to feel rejected when you loved and still love someone. I am sorry for what you're going through. We're all for you, as much as you need.

I am regressing today unfortunately, back to obsessing over my ex. But a new guy online is currently distracting me from my obsessing, so that's a good thing!

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Old Nov 14, 2017, 03:54 PM
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I'm sorry you're feeling like that. I know it's exhausting and I also know it's waiting for me as well. I know how far I am from complete healing. Thank you so much for your support, I can not describe how much it means for me. I'm here for you as well
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Old Nov 14, 2017, 04:03 PM
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thank you so much.. you're very sweet! It takes time, but you will heal and you will feel better at some point. Just do nice things for you in the meantime, take good care of yourself, treat yourself with loving kindness, AND treat yourself to nice things.. whatever that may be. A hot bath, a coffee out with a friend, a feel good movie or many, a good book, a gift that you buy yourself.. anything you can think of that will help you to feel even just a little better. Distractions DO help. I call my friends a lot. That helps. And listening to music. I dance in my underwear. Hehehe.
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 08:47 AM
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I forked up everything!
Was feeling blue this morning. Asked him is it just a coincidence that he finished his album and with me at the same time.
According to him, it was. But he was also saying how the album is still not quite finished, just the music is. And how he has to do a video now, promotions, copyright etc.
He explained me all of this to the smallest details like he used to when we were together.
And he thought that I thought that he cheated on me on his last gig! I know for a fact he never cheated on me and I never brought that up! Weird..

Oh, and I also have a date with my fatal ex (the other ex). Still wondering why do I need that, but obviously for some inexplicable reason I do.
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 08:57 AM
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I got together with my former ex (just before this one) after my most recent breakup, too. We went to a concert together in fact, and became friends again, after not talking for a whole year. I was looking for support around my recent breakup.

What do you hope to gain from seeing your former ex? Has he been supportive of you in the past?
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 11:22 AM
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Oh, it's too complicated with him. He's in a relationship with this woman and staying with her just for financial reasons. She knows he doesn't love her, she even knows about me, but she's kind of dependant.
And for me he was the one. Fatal one.
We had on and off relationship for a year and a half.
We we're friends for a while, but that didn't work out.
Then I wasn't talking to him as I was with J, but my first impulse after break was to text him.
I don't expect anything. He isn't available to me the way I wanted to be and now I don't even want him anymore. All I know is that I want to talk to him. He's one of those few people who fill me with energy
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 12:06 PM
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Well, it sounds beneficial for you to see him. =)
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 12:26 PM
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That's the plan We just had a videochat. It didn't felt like it used to, but it perked me up a bit
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Hey, a little but of a perk helps!!
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 01:04 PM
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Hopefully
What's with you today? Why depressed mood?
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Yes hopefully!

Just having a bad/down day.. having a rough time today emotionally. :/
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 01:28 PM
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Ahhh sweetie.. I'm so sorry to hear that
You seem so positive to me, I'm sure you'll bounce back in no time.
And I'm here if you need to talk
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awww, thank you SO MUCH. You're so kind! I'm gonna just lie down for a while and disappear into the TV. Maybe that will help. It usually does!
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Old Nov 15, 2017, 03:13 PM
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Good idea! It always helps me. I watch series until my head literally falls on my laptop
Hope you'll feel better soon
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thanks, I'm sure I will soon enough! Emotions always pass... (((((((Hugs))))))))
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Old Nov 16, 2017, 02:48 PM
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What a day!
Yesterday I had loads of drama with my ex ex, actually with his girlfriend. She threatened to tell my ex how I'm cheating on him with her boyfriend, obviously without knowing we're not together anymore. All because this ex ex got sooo bloody pissed and probably passed out, giving her a chance to look through our messages!
So I had to text my ex just to prepare him for a shitstorm. He was cool with that.
And today he's just been texting me about random things. Work, mouldy bits on the stinky cheese.. like we're best mates!

I'm feeling stressed, confused and amused at the same time

Eve, how's your day?
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Old Nov 16, 2017, 04:39 PM
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UGH. DRAMA. Who needs drama?!?

Sorry you're feeling so stressed and confused. Maybe just spend time with your closest and most trusted friends? Or call one on the phone to chat? Or spend time on your own reflecting and doing things you enjoy?

I am doing well today, & much better than yesterday, thanks! I DID bounce back from my depressed state, thankfully!

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Old Nov 16, 2017, 05:08 PM
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So glad you're feeling better

I've just had a glass of wine and I'm calm now. So calm that I'm scared that I'll have a meltdown tomorrow. But hope for the best and prepare for the worst...

I was actually talking to my friends. Two of them have also broken up with their boyfriends recently so we're just being there for each other.

Oh, and I started to eat almost normally. Even had a cheesecake for dessert
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thanks! I'm gonna enjoy some wine too!

I am glad you have some good friends to talk to! It helps!!!

And glad you're eating - cheesecake.. yummy!!! Good to treat yourself. ((((((Hugs))))))
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