suspended from work until further notice

Yes she had previously made me quit for stalking her. I was rehired later because I didn’t stalk her as bad as I stalked the supervisor at fast food and because my record listed me as quit, not fired.

Stalking anyone is bad though

Yes I know. Some stalking is worse than others. I’m sorry I ever did that.

Before March of this year, I used to act professionally. In fact, my supervisor had told me so. Back then, she said I've improved from the first time I worked with her and that I'm behaving professionally. That was before my mental breakdown, of course.

It was bc the supervisor from the fast food joint threatened me w/ restraining order and said never to go into the store again. Shortly after, my mental breakdown happened at my current job and I've been struggling to cope. I know I acted bad, but that was the only way I know how to cope.

Btw, how would it look on me if I quit at this time?

What happened with the fast food job was overwhelming for me to cope. Still, it has nothing to do with my current job and they shouldn't have to put up with it. It wasn't their fault what happened at another company.

Nothing happened to you that wasn't a consequence of YOUR behavior. That supervisor's reaction was not violent, YOU would not listen so she was forced to take action. You decided to act out because you were upset over the consequences of YOUR behavior.

I don't know what would happen if you quit, can you afford to be without a job?

If you quit, you'd have to find another job and explain why you left the other job.

I just don't know what the outcome will be. All I know is that she'll let me know before the end of this week.

You were fired from one job and suspended from another and you still not grasping the issue and find excuses why you behave this way. As about quitting jobs, most people can’t affird quitting jobs as they have to pay bills. I vote against quitting jobs unless you have something else lined up

What excuses did I make on this thread? I revealed my motives.

Honestly, it does seem to most people here that you've been blaming the people you've worked with, instead of taking responsibility for your actions.

If I'm completely out with this, then I apologise.

You keep saying you behave poorly because this or that. It doesn’t matter why. Saying that it’s the only way you know how to behave or behave this way because of this or that is an excuse. You also said you behave this way because of fast food join did something to you. It’s an excuse. They did nothing to you. You did things to them, for which you were fired. Saying you behave poorly because you have motives, is an excuse.

This is an excuse. You are still blaming the supervisor for your behavior. The only reason this action was taken was to protect the supervisor from your stalking. This is a consequence of your action. What you need to get to the bottom of is why you do these actions in the first place. The mental breakdown you had AFTER getting fired from the fast food place is simply a symptom/consequence of your initial behavior. Figuring out why you do these compulsive behaviors (stalking, breaking rules you know you shouldn’t, attention seeking, acting childish at work to gain sympathy from co-workers) is the only way to start fixing the problem itself, rather than just one symptom. You have shown these symptoms for years, according to your own posts, not just since March of this year.

Since you were told that they would let you know by the end of the week, you better not call, email, go by there or in any way contact the people at the current job. Wait for them to call you and let you know.

While you are suspended, you need an emergency visit with your therapist regarding your inappropriate behavior. Your behavior in general is extremely immature and inappropriate toward others, and if you are not going to take extreme measures to fix it, you will be fired from job after job for the same thing.

I know with HF-ASD emotional maturity is a problem BUT that doesn't mean you can't learn what appropriate behavior is & learn to function properly in the world around you. That is what therapy is for.

Your behavior is WRONG.....no one else is the cause of that. It IS your own poor choices that keep getting you in trouble. IF you don't start learning HOW to make better choices in your OWN THINKING you will be looking at a life time of being fired for your OWN inappropriate behaviors. NO ONE except you is responsible for the poor choices you have been making.

Are you supporting yourself with these jobs? Are there any financial consequences to you for losing these jobs?

I get the feeling you do this for attention and someone else (parents?) are supporting you, so there are no real consequences. Do you just like to have drama?

Why would you even say the comment about the bathroom? Did you say it to amuse yourself? I’m sure no one else laughed when you said it, right?

Are you acting out for negative attention?

I wonder if you are suspended not as much for the actual use of that word but for the context. If you drop something and hurt yourself and exclaim “sh...” is ond thing but when asked where you were and you reply is this manner is a bit different. I honestly have NEVER heard anyone referring to the bathroom in this way. Why?

This story reminded me of something that happened at my parents’ store. There was some hideous, expensive necklace that my mother finally was selling to a customer. This one sales lady they had blurted out, right in front of the customer, “You’re finally getting rid of that!” Boy, did my mother let her have it after the customer left about opening her stupid mouth in front of the customer, who still bought the necklace.

I understand your situation about using profanity when inappropriate. I've been there while I was off my medication and became as foul-mouthed as a truck driver- no offense to truck drivers. Are you taking your medication? If you are, may be the medications are not fine tuned enough to help you control your impulsive behavior. I suggest that you talk to your doctor/ therapist and tell them about your problems with your work situation then seek suggestions about how you can get help with such behavior. Your foul mouth may be a sign of a mental illness, such as mania and should be addressed appropriately with professional treatment. I know you feel as if it should not be such a big issue but talking profanity when it is inappropriate and not being able to control such behavior is a sign of impulsive behavior and may be stemming from irritability from a mental illness or disorder. Please seek help in the right places, namely your doctor or therapist. And, again this site is helpful to have others support your problems but it is not a place to find treatment. Best wishes!!

IDK, hunger is a really good motivator. If you need this job to keep a roof over your head and to eat, I’d think that you’d think twice before opening your mouth and blowing it. Is this the case? What are your consequences? What would happen if losing your job would make you homeless? Would you be able to just do your job and stop the drama?

I would like to point out when one is mentally ill, one's judgment is impaired. One can not decipher between what is right and what is wrong. This is the reason for some people who commit crimes while insane are put into mental hospitals, not prisons. I am really surprised by the lack of understanding and support for the op. She has problems and is probably mentally ill. Stating that becoming homeless should be a deterrent for impulsive behavior stemming from mental illness is really not comprehensible when one is ragingly mentally ill. I became homeless myself while not being treated for my mental illness. I did not comprehend while I was extremely psychotic that I would be homeless. I empathize with the op. And, hope she finds the right treatment for her problems.

The OP has ASD. It is not a so called mental illness but a syndrome & yes, with this APPROPRIATE behaviors can be learned.

ASD hmm, ok, mental diagnoses are meaningless to me. I was diagnosed with all kinds of disorders until the doctors gave up and said just take your medication. Well, if ASD is all she has, she needs to find something to curb her impulsive behavior. Whether it be medication or massive therapy, I and you don't know what is the true cause of her impulsive behavior and this needs to be addressed because it is interfering with her daily activities and causing her much trouble. OP, please talk to your doctor about your problems. I think your impulsive behavior is something more than just inability to control yourself but may have a cause that could be alleviated somehow through treatment.

I'm acting out bc I wanted to distract myself from the hurt I sustained at that fast food place. Getting attention wasn't even on my radar. Lots of times, I've even said way worse stuff that my current supervisor never even knew about (e.g. the f word). I'm not saying I'm right. I just couldn't cope w/ what happened at that fast food joint, even with therapy. It just hurt me too much to be rejected by the person I "looked up to." I know now that it's stalking, but it's too late.

She didn't reject you. You FORCED her to take the action she did BECAUSE OF YOUR behavior.

That is NOT rejection....that is CONSEQUENCES of your own behavior. You got this idea of rejection stuck in your mind no matter what everyone is telling you. Until you CHANG your thinking to understand REALITY, & not the reality yiu create in your mind you will struggle continuously through your life.

Well, if talk therapy does not help, then you have serious impulse problems that need to be controlled somehow. You can't act out of impulse because you feel like it in certain situations. No matter what we say, you act impulsively and rationalize about it. There is no rational explanation for impulsive behavior. However, there could be medication that can help you. I highly encourage you to seek professional help for your behavior. You have some impairment and I do too but take medication for it. I know you probably don't want to take medication now but after reading your messages and having you rationalize about your behavior, you don't make much sense to me nor others. I empathize but don't agree with your explanations for your behavior. Please seek help from your doctor.