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Why am I so scared to be myself?

I’m scared to live. I’m scared, I know I’m not going to make it. I’m not good enough for anyone. Sounds so ****** cliché but its ****** true. I’m not imagining these feelings they are ****** true. And no one can help me. No one can cuz no one ****** understands. No one understands me. No one ever will. Why cant I just sit in this corner and not do anything until its time for me to die. I prefer to be alone its so much better. So much better. Just sit there not move. I’m so bad. No matter how hard I try I can never be good enough for god either. And lets face it he’s tried so many times and this time ive really done it.

I’m all alone. I like it but I fear it. But at the same time I fear being with people.

How do I go on? How do I go on?

[ghost]

i often feel the same way... desperately need people, but totally afraid of them at the same time... i wish i could just not wake up most nights...

but it will pass. i promise.

(((((((((picture_perfect)))))))))

ghost

[Trisha]

I can definitely relate to some of that

"I’m scared to live." Well, sometimes. But I'm even more scared of dying.

"I’m not good enough for anyone." Well I have the feeling that's what most people want me to believe. But I prefer to believe THEY'RE not good enough for ME.

"No one understands me. No one ever will." Yeah. But that's cool.

"I prefer to be alone its so much better. So much better." Yes!! I second that!

"I'm so bad." There are times when I feel that way too, but generally it passes. Maybe it will pass for you, too, if you give it time.

"No matter how hard I try I can never be good enough for god either." But, why should I? If there is a God, then he's failed me!

"I’m all alone. I like it but I fear it. But at the same time I fear being with people." Yep, I too like being alone. But I can't say I fear it as much as I fear and hate being with people. In contrast, being alone feels peaceful and comforting. No hatred and resentment. Just a soothing calm.

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[krzyk101]

Hi, Picture perfecT

I understand these feelings and questions as I have myself said or thought the very same tihings. For me the very subject of no one understanding me in itself is hard enough. The part so difficult for me is the part that even 'I' myself do not yet even feel that I understand me or myself as to who I am or what it is that makes me, me.

I feel that when I look at myself as I see me, I often feel that others are looking at me the way I see me. I am often sure that they are thinking negative of me, and talking of me in ways not good. Though I must tell myself that this is not true. Only my own self feeling bad about what I see as me being put into my head through depression that they too see me this way.

I am sure that there are people out there that really like you and see you differently than it seems.

I am not one to talk on friendships as I too am alone in so many ways, though at times want to have freindship with others in 3D, Yet fear it as well. Just try and be good to yourself and understand, that it may take time untill you understand all of this and that is ok. Do something special for yourself in the here and now. Yes there are peple who in ways feel the same way.

Sorry for the long 'Book' of a reply , just know you can come here anytime and you are not alone. Take it easy - Chris

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~KRIS~

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[gloria]

The one thing I feel quite often, is that, no matter what I do, is never good enough. But. I shake it off and move on most of the time.

gab

[Picture_perfercT]

thnkZ so much guyZ!! feels so gud to kno tat i aint ta only one hu feels tat way!!