[MuddyBoots]

I'm being kicked out tomorrow, but this morning I asked my mom to pick up my meds on her way home from work as I was in the hospital last night, car's still there, and the pharmacy is on her way home. She forgot because I didn't remind her after this morning, so that's my first ****-up. The pharmacy didn't have them ready and that's my fault, so that's my second ****-up. She's pissed at me, so that's my third ****-up. Actually my first ****-up is being sick and needing meds in the first place so that's four total ****-ups. Just call me "General ****-up" just like my ****ING father.

She just got home and she walked in really angrily and she's not even talking to me.

Literally had a nightmare last night she screamed at me and hit me nonstop for finding evidence of my bulimia which isn't far from what she would do if that happened because that would be the proper punishment.

Is there anything I can do other than disappear from her life completely to make her happy?

[OafFish]

This sounds like such a bad situation

I’m sorry

[Discombobulated]

I’m sorry too, you are coping with being unwell and that’s a lot to deal with on its own without extra worry.

[eskielover]

Don't know her side of the story so can't judge what you can do.

Sometimes when it gets to this point where the other person has had enough, the best thing to do is to disappear from their life, let things calm down, get help for yourself. Sometimes longer time outs in situations like that are the only real good solution.

Hard when it is your mom cause we think moms should always be there for us but sometimes even moms can hit their breaking points. Like I said, don't know your history or your moms so truly can't judge.....but given just the current situation, sounds like both of you having a break from each other would be a very good idea

[SpaghettiLegs]

Sorry you're having a bad time.

Do you have somewhere safe to go? If you don't then I doubt it will help either of you to disappear? Being angry with someone because of resentment, annoyance, inconvenience etc doesn't mean they want you to disappear from their life. Your mother will probably be devastated if you just disappear? *

*Not to seem harsh with this comment you know but as a mother and as someone who constantly wants to disappear (which I used to do) I think it's important to be rational, regardless of the emotions involved.

[MuddyBoots]

She literally kicked me out this AM. I’m just hanging out at the library. It closes at five. I have a friend that gets out of work at 6 that I’m going to ask if I could crash at his place until I figure something out. I made a few bucks playing the piano in town so maybe I’ll join/start a band and just live in the studio or with a band mate or something idk.

I’m so sick too. I feel like death.

[Molinit]

Some of your prior posts refer to you having a therapist. If you are still with a therapist, can you contact them and let them know you are homeless and need resources? Either that or if you say where you are we can find a shelter for you.

Joining or starting a band and living in a studio isn't really an immediate thing you can do. You need to be in a shelter at the very least and at a shelter there will be services to sign you up for food stamps and other assistance. I believe you are in the United States?

[Fuzzybear]

I’m sorry Boots

[MuddyBoots]

I just talked to my case manager. She’s going to call me back later. I’m still going to try and contact my friend because the last shelter I stayed at sucked and I got kicked out for having a nightmare the second time I stayed. (Like I said, General ****-Up”)