Pray?

Thank you all. I'm really doing okay now... prayer works I am amazed at how much help a simple cortizone shot helps with depression (obviously I was battling allergies to molds and mildews, which do cause depression... but hadn't had such problems since the injury, if I recall correctly.)

That I ended up with a MD appt just at this time is no coincidence (I don't believe in coincidences.

However, without getting into any disallowed "talk" of my faith, since it's the banned here, this is definitely support of being taken out prior to the terrible things of God's wrath, otherwise we would all just take ourselves out ahead of time, having such a glorious place to go and no reason to stay and suffer.

JD, think of suffering as a purification process. We are all climbing "Jacob's Ladder", and the higher we climb the closer we get.

I justhave not resilience here I am bouncing off the bottom again... been doing okay... holding my own... working through the garbage that life throws at you... trusting ( the one who cannot be named (and not Voldemort)... and hoping ( gasp) and voila! here I am deeply disappointed and bouncing off the bottom again. IDK IDK if I even want to come back up this time....

I have yet another sinus infection and it's dropping into my chest... all the rain again! has to be the culprit...mold makes me depressed.

(((((JD)))))))

I am sorry that your not feeling well, there is something going around, I have it, my husband has it, my inlaws have it, and it seems that everyone seems to have it. Stay on top of it JD, you may need to go back on antibiotics.

I shall say a prayer for you,
Open Eyes

Thanks OE I have a sinus infection...maybe even picked it up the other week at the doctor's office?

I'm treating it with herbs one is guarana which is a natural caffeine type herb (unrefined and natural) that allows the body to throw off fluid and clears sinuses etc, and one called ashwagandha which is a natural cortisone (for inflammation.)

My humble thanks to those of you who have offered me such support!

((((((JD))))))

Your very welcome, many know how difficult your life journey has been. And even though you struggle you still offer support to others. None of us have achieved real perfection, I think it is impossible, I am now sure that life is one long lesson and we all have to make a decision to do our best to live and learn and make sure we are not hard on ourselves and truely take time to appreiciate many of our surroundings that we often take for grantite. Smell the roses, enjoy the sunsets and warm days, even the seasons for whatever beauty they can offer. And, make an attempt to enjoy the various people that cross our paths with kind words and gifts of their wisdom that they have gained.

You are a kind person JD, and you ARE appreciated for your kindnesses and efforts to support others.

Open Eyes

My dreams are coming true. Is this through prayer.
All I want is now in my court. I just 'prayed' for it.
My life means something, I do not waste air.
Did I pray, or did I shape my reality.

Who knows.

((((((Sanada))))))
That is a nice prayer, I pray that you will succeed in filling your needs.
Open Eyes

I thought I'd saved several quotes from the above comments but I obviously lost them. I think this is such a good discussion. I recently said something to my psychiatrist regarding the effect I know my past has made on the mental health issues I struggle with today and she said, "If you want to talk, you need to see a therapist." Do what?

Talking (or composing our innermost thoughts) has to be the most therapeutic thing any of us ever allow ourselves to do. It's not easy but I think it is so important. So many thoughts expressed in this discussion are so profound and say so much about compassion and being a real person.

Sometimes I wonder how many people in the world really and truly care about others? I, personally, believe most do but to varying degrees while some just don't and never will. Some people have such tender hearts with such deep inborn abilities to really and truly want to help others. Some, not necessarily because of any fault of their own, never feel that way. We're all so different...but I have to believe most of the members here care a lot. We've lived with our demons, we've sometimes survived when we didn't really think we could, we've been wounded but somehow we've healed. Most of us would probably describe our lives as complex or complicated and yet our love, concern and desire to help others is so simple.

Maybe the most important thing about each of us is what we've survived and what we'll continue to survive because deep down we know good will always outweigh bad. We keep scars hidden that most people never even suspect are there and sometimes they're painful but maybe we're lucky, maybe feeling things so profoundly is preferable to drifting through life not feeling much of anything.

I've felt that way before. Hang in there! Your feelings don't define you! Your worth is constant and never goes away!

((((((((((((((( JD )))))))))))))))

Yes Queen of Chaos, this is a good thread because it shares each persons way of how to reach out to someone who can be facing so many struggles and truely wonder how to keep going and why. And also it shows someone how they are apprecaited by others.

Open Eyes

IDK if or when I 'll come up for air. I can read this forum without signing in... and receive any PMs via email also.

Be well.

(((JD))) Thinking about you, dear one!

Oh, JD, you cannot allow yourself to fall into self loathing, that is not being fair to yourself. You do have to understand that you struggle and give yourself permission to continue to work through your struggles. You must continue to use your faith to remind yourself to love yourself as your faith has taught you to do. Often we must remember it is through our own suffering that we can reach out to others even more as we can understand the depths of real deep needs. I know that is often very hard to see and understand, but you MUST not turn to self loathing. Will it be there? Oh yes I can feel it to but then I remember that I am truely stuggling and must allow myself to forgive all that I cannot seem to do.
Open Eyes

IDK if it was a vision, or a tv program (as God speaks to me via a TV Screen sometimes ) no joke. But the preacher on the screen spoke, out of the blue, about how not everyone is healed..and then quoted a myriad of verses supporting that... and then I fell back to sleep (?)

So God isn't going to heal me. It's a relief in a way, takes away the dichotomy of trying to heal while having to deal with the diability. Of course, then I might just be totally out of my mind somehow.

December 1st looms large. 25 years.

Just another day, right?

No, not everyone is healed, but that doen't mean that God has abandoned you. I dont have all the answers, only God knows that.

I am going to keep praying for you and that you will continue to keep your faith JD.

Open Eyes

JD,

I am here and now and I am thinking about you on this Day. I am not sure what all goes on due to this remembering but if it is what I think it is, it cannot be all that pleasant.

Is it possible for you to know that when I think of you I think of you as whole and healed. I have read of some of your struggles but I don't perceive you that way at all. I'm not callous I just see a whole person with gifts galore, someone who is so compassionate and has had to overcome so many things.

Is this how it's supposed to be cyberly-speaking?

My prayers sometimes get answered and I hope that today is a New Beginning. I want that for you selfishly but, of course, that has never been why people are healed. I just read this book, written kind of like the Easter story at Christmas. This little boy was healing people but he was not getting better himself but he was in contact with heaven. Anyway, was it a fairy story? Is it real? Does Jesus really heal the body, mind and spirit? Is that what I am to hold out 'hope' for?

I just want there to be some relief for you JD. You give so much of yourself and I read things are getting harder for you in some ways and I feel sad for you. What good does my feeling sad for you do? It makes me think God does not hear but that is not true, according to all I know of him. What then? Do I pray for some relief for you now and then? Then I do, breaks in the pain and the futility that will allow you to be extended for as long as you want and he wants. But then it's probably true you are already taking care of yourself as best you can so why pray? But I do pray anyway...

I pray that folks will come around you this month and bring you gifts of the unexpected, gifts to cheer you up, gifts that will surprise you and make it easier for you. Yes, even practical things and physical things and emotional gifts and psychological gifts and friendship and love. That is what I pray for you JD. Some things to ease your way in these next few months.

(((((Hunny))))
That was a wonderful post, it is very nice to see someone address another in such a heartfelt supportive way. I will join in with your prayers and sentiment.

Open Eyes