Major Depression & Insanity Setting in Again!!!!!!

Don't really know what to say...except I feel my insaity starting to set in!! I'm a an adult but refuse to ask for out-side help, thats the way I was brought up.

We can't cry, we are a burden to complain, so everything is held
in with out release. Last May I was hospitalized for a suicide
attempt, in a coma for 4 days and its a miracle I'm alive today!

I hate living like this....My mother is sick as most of you know
from dementia, and respiratory problems. Now I have Oxygen to
take care of, meds, meals, Bills for her and I. I having S Ideations againa....it scares me, but once I cross the threshold
its no stopping mee.

I'm so exhausted most of the time, my body hurts and I just get so disgusted.....I just felt I needed to Vent.

I haven't been on as much lately cause I'm running 24/7!!! Its
taking such a toll on me...I just need to sleep for a long time!

I know these inner signs there not good!!! They spell Doom!!!

Been there before, maybe i should go back in and take some-time
like lst year before I try an Internal Sleep????

IDK.....seems so all confusing no direction, no one who cares,
a wicked mother back at her worst of all time...Giving up slowly,
a dirt nap sounds so peaceful at this time!!!!!!!!!

Yowza, I know what it's like caring for a "wicked mother" at her worst. I used to drive to work and fantasize about continuing on down the highway and never looking back. The only problem was I was a 30 year old mother myself and too many people needed me.

I don't know the details of your situation, but I think this would be a good time to ask for help. It would be nice if you could arrange for a little time away with friends or doing something you enjoy. I always found it helpful to step out of the box for a little while because it gave me the stamina I needed to keep up my hectic schedule. It also provided a greater appreciation for the gift of life - even if it's in a box.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

Ziggy
SAying one big long prayer for you
Keeping everything is not good for you
keep posting. remember self care "take care of you"
If that means calling your Dr do it imo
ASking for help is a good thing

I know what its like taking care of a Mom
My thoughts are with you
Get as much help as you can in there
Do not do it alone imo

Know we all care. You matter at pc

my prayers are with you
muffy

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(((Ziggy))) I'm glad to see you fighting against this incorrect thinking, and are asking for help! It's ok to ask for help...outside help.... Human beings are made to do that...be interconnected. It's why you posted here, because we all need outside help with various issues.

The "again" in the subject line means you have been "here" before...and it also means you got out of "here" before too. This time will be the same, in that you might go a bit into the darkeness but once again you will rise up. I hope it will be less dark, and less time "there."

That's right, Sky. Lean into the wind, Ziggy!

(((((ziggy)))))

I'm sorry you are hurting so badly. I have been hospitalized numerous times and have been in the ICU as well because of it. When we see death as our only option it is horrible...but remember that you always have someone on your side.

I will be praying for you.

I am praying too Ziggy!!!!

Is there anyone who could help you with your mom? Home health aides, county based programs through the Department of Human Services?

Like Sky said, you have been here before, use what you learned during those times, but call your doc ASAP. Maybe, knowing the circumstances, he can help hook you up with some social service programs for you and your mom.

Take care Ziggy!!!

i am praying for you Ziggy... i know these times are hard and you are under a lot of stress... a lot of people are praying for you... you have a lot of value as a human and you can get through these hard times like in the past... let good Spirit lift you up ....

it is hard to see the bright side at times Ziggy, but it is there..... you must have some idea from where because you have brought it to us.. hoping that place is giving you comfort now until this passes..

you need to find a way to let your body rest. It's not healthy for you to be running 24/7.

May God be with you and help you.