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Atypical_Disaster · Jan 28, 2015, 05:38 PM

I'm having a really rough day. I don't want to say why as it's personal but I wanted to check in and say I'm still here.

Blue_Bird · Jan 28, 2015, 05:39 PM

Hope you feel better soon Atypical

Blue_Bird · Jan 28, 2015, 06:21 PM

Does anyone here have a hard time coming to terms with needing medication?

I keep wanting to just quit all my meds because I feel fine and I think my disorder has gone away. I take several meds in tablet form, I could stop them if I wanted but I can't get the medication from my monthly shot out of my system.

Atypical_Disaster · Jan 28, 2015, 06:33 PM

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Does anyone here have a hard time coming to terms with needing medication?

I keep wanting to just quit all my meds because I feel fine and I think my disorder has gone away. I take several meds in tablet form, I could stop them if I wanted but I can't get the medication from my monthly shot out of my system.

Yes, definitely. It's still really hard for me to accept that I need them, I've had issues with med compliance before because of it. Sometimes I still mess with my meds without my pdoc's permission. I'm working on it.

Atypical_Disaster · Jan 28, 2015, 06:36 PM

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Hope you feel better soon Atypical

Thank you so much.

I'll be okay, there's just a lot going on for me right now. I'm not answering phone calls because I'm just too overwhelmed. I know isolating is really bad but it's hard for me to fight it right now.

medicalfox · Jan 28, 2015, 07:05 PM

My classes are going well, but since they are humanities they aren't my niche so I have to work a bit harder than the average person with them.

jaynedough · Jan 28, 2015, 08:21 PM

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Does anyone here have a hard time coming to terms with needing medication?

I've been taking meds of some kind continuously since I was 5, so I'm used to the idea of needing them. It probably helped that my first meds made it so I could actually breathe (really bad asthma). I will say that sometimes I get sick of taking them. I just remember that, like my asthma meds, I need them to survive. I will also say that they aren't doing a great job of helping me feel better.

On a related note: I spent 15 minutes crawling around on the kitchen floor, trying to find a 1/2 of a tablet I dropped. Finally gave up. Stood up, looked at the table and there it was. I'm just glad I didn't have to worry obsessively that my dog would find it.

Sorry for the rambling.

Blue_Bird · Jan 28, 2015, 10:07 PM

I hate when that happens, I get so worried one of my cats will find it first and try to eat it

worthit · Jan 28, 2015, 10:10 PM

My brother and I interviewed and got a caregiving service for my dad 7 days a week starting Friday. It was a big deal and a its a lot of life changes for my dad. Its going to be a big help for me since I'm the only one nearby to help my dad out all this time. So they will take him on errands and to the doctors and things like that. It's a big relief for me. I've been taking a lot of time off of work lately since his heart attack.

Jan 29, 2015, 12:04 AM

Haven't checked in a while. Just wanted to say that I'm still here and still kicking.

Blue_Bird · 01:06 PM

Well, I had cancelled all my future appointments but just scheduled them again, I was frustrated. But I realize it's time to grow up and accept that I have this disorder and need medication.

Atypical_Disaster · Jan 29, 2015, 01:10 PM

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I hate when that happens, I get so worried one of my cats will find it first and try to eat it

Omg, exactly!

Shmooey · Jan 29, 2015, 06:05 PM

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Well, I had cancelled all my future appointments but just scheduled them again, I was frustrated. But I realize it's time to grow up and accept that I have this disorder and need medication.

I always think that the hardest person who has to deal with me off medication is ME. Others may suffer, but not to the extent I do, and it takes time for it all to balance you out again.

The hardest part for me is I want there to be no more bad days since I take all these meds. I'm at the end of the third week of my short term disability from work. Was fine to go out earlier and get some paperwork for that notarized, but I applied for a different job when I got home and freaked the eff out. My paranoia is way up. When I was typing, voices kept getting progressively louder as if the company was laughing at me harder with every letter I typed in the application. They have not gone away and now I'm all scared and home alone for the next hour still.

I want my meds to fix that too but they aren't magic. I think they should be for as meticulous as I am about taking them!!

Blue_Bird · Jan 30, 2015, 11:12 AM

In a few minutes I'm heading out to go get my new tattoo. Nervous! Lol not even because of the tattoo itself, I have a few, just because of social anxiety.

Jan 30, 2015, 04:57 PM

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In a few minutes I'm heading out to go get my new tattoo. Nervous! Lol not even because of the tattoo itself, I have a few, just because of social anxiety.

So badass! What are you getting?

Blue_Bird · Jan 30, 2015, 05:43 PM

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So badass! What are you getting?

I got a silhouette of a black cat sitting on the moon on my left arm, it turned out great. There's 3 of these shops near here owned by an artist who was one of the contestants on one of the seasons of the show "Ink Masters", he set up my appointment and price, another artist did it though and they did a wonderful job! Also, I managed to not have a panic attack while there, the artist was very friendly and easy to talk to. I'll post a pic once it's healed

Jan 31, 2015, 02:57 AM

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I got a silhouette of a black cat sitting on the moon on my left arm, it turned out great. There's 3 of these shops near here owned by an artist who was one of the contestants on one of the seasons of the show "Ink Masters", he set up my appointment and price, another artist did it though and they did a wonderful job! Also, I managed to not have a panic attack while there, the artist was very friendly and easy to talk to. I'll post a pic once it's healed

That is so very cool! I can't wait to see it ^_^

avlady · Jan 31, 2015, 05:40 AM

i think you should stay on your meds. if you feel better it means they are working.going off them would be like starting over like having withdrawals and your symptoms of your illness would come back too.

Atypical_Disaster · Jan 31, 2015, 11:19 AM

My mood is leveling out, thank god. I finally slept well last night. I'm still not fully stable but I am much improved.

worthit · Jan 31, 2015, 11:35 AM

I had a talk with a casual friend on PTSD. I told her I was going to go to the mall to pick up some business tops and that I'm working myself up to do it because of my PTSD I'm very nervous about going out to the mall. She said why don't you go to Kohl's? They have a lot of good tops. I said I don't go to any stores that I'm not used to. She said well how will you know if you don't like them if you don't go to them.? I said I don't go to them because they make me nervous and raise my stress level because of my PTSD. And it's a higher risk of getting a panic attack if I don't know the store. So I sent her a description of PTSD from the Mayo Clinic and she read it and told me she just found out that her sister who passed a month ago had PTSD so now she understands it a little better. So, that was positive feedback.

Shmooey · Jan 31, 2015, 12:52 PM

The way I look at Kohl's is that it's cheap but the clothes wear out faster so you have go back again sooner. I mail order my stuff from Ulla Popken and LL Bean primarily. I'm agoraphobic so the mall is out and Target (where my pharmacy is) doesn't have clothes that fit me right.

(BTW, that cat in your avatar is PRECIOUS!!)

Blue_Bird · 04:56 PM

Just spilled a whole cup of coffee in my bed

Looking forward to tomorrow, having pizza for the Super Bowl. Going to get an extra large pizza from Papa John's, half pepperoni and Italian sausage and half ham and pineapple with extra sauce. and Coke to drink

I slept so much today, I went to sleep at 11 or 12, woke up at 5.Am, fell back to sleep until 10 Am, and fell back asleep again till 3pm

newtus · Jan 31, 2015, 04:38 PM

whats piazza?

Blue_Bird · Jan 31, 2015, 04:53 PM

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whats piazza?

Oops lol I meant pizza

jaynedough · Jan 31, 2015, 05:14 PM

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I mail order my stuff from Ulla Popken

Was so excited to see your post! Have been wondering how Ulla Popken's clothing is. I love the way they look! I'd definitely be doing the clearance "racks". I shop through OneStopPlus, which is changing its name to something else. They have Ulla Popken on their site.

Working really hard to stay out of the bedroom today. Have gotten a fire going in the woodstove and ran the dishwasher for the first time in a few weeks, I'm embarrassed to say. In a great deal of physical pain and inner turmoil.

Hope everyone is having a relaxing weekend.

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