does your disorder cause self-hate?

I struggle with hating myself often, and lately hurting myself(this comes on once in a while, when things are really bad). I just hate my brain, the way it works and the effect it has on my comfort level of socializing with others.
Does your illness, or maybe it's many illnesses, effect you this way, for these reasons?

When depressed I hate myself for not dealing well with everyday situations. However when the depression lifts I care less about how I interact with others. I think it is the schizoaffective that makes me like this but I always thought it was normal prior to diagnosis

Yes. My mental illnesses exasperate my self hate and pretty much take away any confidence I have, especially my schizoaffective.
I wish I was "normal", as in, I wish my illnesses could disappear. I'm not the kind of person who appreciates the "gifts" that come with mental illness, because it's a living hell for me every day. The only positive thing that comes from my illnesses is more empathy and understanding for others, but I already had enough of that before I was aware of illness.

My schizoaffective causes the most damage to my sense of self, how I'm able to percieve myself around others, and I know it's something I need to bring up with my therapist, but there's often not enough time in our sessions, and I'd feel weird about it anyway.

ditto

No. I don't hate myself.

I have a lot of self hate but I think it's from my ptsd rather than my schizoaffective disorder.

it wont totally, but get creative and youll discover your more powerful than the symptoms. imagine..direct..find a way that wont hurt yourself. read my posts and replies for help.

I hate myself about half the time. Low self esteem, depression, anger and frustration bring this on for me. A lot of it is I'm confused about what's reality what's a bad dream. Frustration run high at home and I have a bad temper so I do hate myself. I do sometimes self harm but it's not as bad as it used to be. I've relied on my faith more and try to see the positives. I also know I'm very reactive to my surroundings so I stay away from negative things a lot.

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I used to struggle with self hate, but I've been through intensive therapy a couple times. Now I just hate the things I've done during manic phases (bipolar type). Sometimes I hate myself for going with the flow, taking my meds, going to therapy. It takes away my extra abilities, too. I hate the feeling of repressing those.

ive overcome my emotions and symptoms. i only felt bad because the accusing voices caused fear and paranoia. I figured out how to fight them without self harming today i hear barely anything and never really feel anything negative. quitting marijuana also helped me stop magical thinking and thought loops. i would like to be able to use pot but know i cannot.

ditto!

This is true for me as well, I just came off a manic phase and the self hate still is a problem for me. But it's not as bad as it was.

I struggle with this a lot, especially with school. I always valued myself as being a smart, diligent worker who made good grades... but over the summer semester my symptoms were so bad my GPA dropped far enough to where I lost my scholarship. I spent each day struggling to do work and hating myself for it. I'm hoping with time and effort Ill learn to be patient with myself.

I hate myself with a fiery passion.

My disorder causes a lot of self-hate. When I think about what it's done to my family, I feel so guilty. I wish I could just not have this disorder.

The psychological abuse caused self hate, which my T and daughter aren't able to cut through. It's become my identity. It's my truth. However, in the past 5 years, I've gone from hating myself with a passion, to just not liking myself.

When I'm depressed I hate myself most of the time. When I'm not I don't hate myself, but I don't like myself either. It makes me very sad.

I also hate myself. The voices tell me I am not good. I see people who not there and my friend keeps telling they are not real. I am on meds for this.

Nope. My dad had diabetes most of my life and was taking insulin since I was small. I consider my meds similar, I just take them because of a chemical or genetic problem in my brain for which I need help. I felt really disappointed with myself for awhile for losing my dream job, and embarassed as well, but I came to terms with it. One thing that helped was realizing how I'd react if a friend went through this instead of me - I wouldn't beat them up for having a medical condition, and I wouldn't blame them for their behaviour.

i too have self hatred issues. i've had them for so long and my voices and symptoms so long that i don't know where one ends and another begins.

i feel like i'm in an upswing recently, at least in the sense that i'm more committed to taking my supplements: B100, magnesium, and fish oil

sometimes i forget and then feel low and don't have the clarity of thought to know that's the problem and start taking them again

but yes, i experience some self hatred and i'm aware of it and working on it. life is so short and i want to enjoy it.