[Mayowhite]

What are or were you delusions?
Mine were I believed God was working through me, I would see numbers and try to find the number 4 (example: 567. 5 + 6 = 11. 11-7=4), and from there just make connections. See a bird fly by and that was god telling me to look in the direction it was flying, from there seeing a glimmer of light in the corner of my eye, follow that, and so and so forth until I finally found something that would have a secret message behind it.. It all seemed so real to me.. and i felt like noone else could see the things I was seeing.. all the connections in everyday life.. how one thing leads to another

[jelly-bean]

I have never had delusions but I'm sure that many people here have. I hope they can answer your question for you.

I too had similar delusions that I believed were spiritual experiences. I would get messages from songs on the radio or from the t.v. I would see number sequences like 11:11 and repeated numbers that I believed had meaning. I would see shapes that I thought had meaning from God (like hearts or shapes that looked like letters). I believed in the Native American concept of animal totems, and I believed that seeing certain animals were messages to me. Again, I believed all of these were spiritual and were in line with my pagan/Wiccan beliefs at the time.

I lived by my delusions and they were how I would make decisions. I even dated an ex based on the delusion that it was a sign from God. I had the delusion that I was ill because I kept getting the message of that particular disease in songs, television, and magazines. Only to learn that I didn't have it. I believed that people would be talking about a particular subject that was a message for me. I've had all kinds of delusions. Were some of these actual spiritual experiences? To this day I'm not quite sure, but those were some of mine.

My medications have been a huge help to conquering some of these delusions, but I still struggle with them. I still struggle to not "see" signs" in shapes and numbers and other "signs." I also still struggle with making decisions based on my own healthy mind.

[Zazo]

I can totally relate to your thoughts. I thought god was working through me by leading me through feelings in my heart. I had thoughts, and my heart told me if it was wrong or right. I also genuinely believed I had gotten the spirit of Nelson Mandela, and that I therefore was threefold somehow. One good dide, one bad, and one in the middle. I believed that I was supposed to carry this spirit for 8 years, until 2021, that's when I thought the world would end, I would die, and Jesus would return.

I also saw signs everywhere, telling me what to do etc. like the sound of keys or a message from the TV.

Interesting sharing thoughts, especially as you seem to have experienced some of the same things as I.

[Blue_Bird]

Mine were that the government was after me, that there were cameras watching me in my house, that my pdoc and therapist were laughing at my troubles and wanted me to feel that way.

[worthit]

Camera watching me in the house and hotel rooms, that my hands have energy coming out of them and it's bad energy, that I can change light signals. And more. It's exhausting.

Originally Posted by worthit

Camera watching me in the house and hotel rooms, that my hands have energy coming out of them and it's bad energy, that I can change light signals. And more. It's exhausting.

Yeah I've had the energy coming out of the hands one. It was twofold for me. I believed that I had energy coming out of my hands that could be used for healing (i.e. Reiki). I also believed that a friend of mine was a natural healer with energy coming out of her hands. I got "healings" from her a couple of times.

[Goldcrest]

My delusions are pretty boring. Being watched, cameras in the house, people following me, never could work out who or why but not knowing seemed to make it worse. People trying to get into my flat, thinking people had been in my flat and moved things around. At one time I thought people on the mental health team had hacked into my computer and read my private documents.

[avlady]

i relate greatly too!!!!

[Secretum]

Mine have varied. I get religious ones a lot, that I am on a special mission from God, or that I am a reformed demon...Like many of you, I also have had the feeling that God is giving me messages through everyday things.

I also am susceptible to believing that I have superpowers. Telepathy, the ability to talk to the dead, something that I call "psychological invisibility" (the ability to make people not think about me). I don't feel like this now, but for several months last year I felt very strongly that I had these abilities. This tied in with God sending me on a mission; the superpowers were necessary to complete the mission.

Delusions fascinate and scare me. How much of what my mind comes up with when I'm psychotic is a reflection of a reality that "normal" people simply can't see?

I hate that word delusion. guhh. reality is never what it seems, period. until you aquire knowledge on your own thinking, youll believe whatever anyone tells you. figuring myself out helped me alot. I was never delusional but told I was. I know what I saw, i know what i heard. I dont need vaildation from anyone else. SRA, in my case so... everyone lied. god is real so is satan. those are names for energies. doesnt matter what you wanna call it, dont get caught up in details.

[pearlzandlace012]

My delusions were that ducks were plotting to take over the world and had installed cameras in pansies "eyes" to watch us, and that pansies had thoughts and were laughing at me; American girl dolls were going to kill me if I went to sleep before twelve o'clock, and French fries were going to mutilate my body after I died. I also believed people were poisoning my food and water, the government was monitoring me through my webcam, people could read my mind by looking into my eyes, and my parents were conspiring against me.

Then I have this one that in consensus reality is, I suppose, a delusion as everyone says it is. I believe that we live in a computer simulation and that aliens are putting thoughts into everyone's heads to brainwash us all. I also believe we are all simply experiments.

[neverover]

My ex following me, taking all my support away, hacking into my phone after I admitted I logged into his accounts, toying with my sense of reality, keeping up with my e-mail (which I recently deleted,) keeping up with my obsessive tendencies and "warning" others of the "truth" for their own "good" when I have been like this all my life and never intended on physically harming anyone or badgering them. I feel like I will lose hope of pulling out of this within a few more years.

[NanuConfused]

I'll have thoughts that I can control the weather and that if I tell my friends then they will reject me out of envy of my powers.

[worthit]

I used to think I could control the light signals. I thought if I didn't worry about something it would come true, but then if I worried too much it would come true. Always worried. Still worry.

[medicalfox]

I have a lot of delusions, but my biggest ones is that someone is out to harm me, cameras everywhere, and that a ghost(s) interfere with my life.

[spincera]

I can relate to most of you. I believe that God and the Angels are fighting with the devil and evil spirits over my soul. I hear noises outside my sliding glass window and believe that evil spirits are watching me through the window. This is especially prominent at night. So I tape up the vertical blinds so they cannot see in. Also when I am outside at night, I look for little red lights that might be sights on guns of people who want to kill me. I also feel that God has a special purpose for me and that when I see a rainbow, it is God talking to me and telling me that nothing bad will happen that day, because it is His covenant between us and Him. I have always worried about things. I also believe that if I don’t worry about things then the worst possible outcome will happen, so I continue to worry. I am getting more and more scared of these things. They are beginning to take over my life. So are the shadows. People, and voices (mainly the shadows and people). My doctor recently diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type. She wants me to get another opinion, but I do not know why. It confuses me. I have also been talking with people and not making much sense and it is frustrating.

The shadows would stalk me and would hide around corners, barely visible in my peripheral vision then gone when i tried to look at them. They whisper in my ears the most godawful things while I sleep and laugh when i sit in the dark.

Everyone around me has something against me whether they know me or not. I walk by strangers who whisper about me. They want to see me fall. The shadows want to see me dead...

[tobythefrog]

I have had delusions such as I was pregnant with the anti Christ (when I wasn't pregnant at all) that people, tv, and the radio could read my mind, that specific songs were about me, that people stopped at the stop sign in front of the house would blare the"right sonG" was the person I was supposed to leave with them forever. And many more...delusions seem so real when you'return in the middle of it, is so darn stupid in the lucid moments