[Breaking Dawn]

This was not a very good day.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult morning. I have lots of chores to do. I've been working on 1 for the past 40 minutes. It's slow going cause I have to take frequent breaks.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I had an okay day. I boiled some potatoes and ate them with my boyfriend. I'm worried about the bitcoins someone stole from me, the money bothers me, but since I'm in public housing I'm treated like a criminal like I'm hiding assets from them since someone stole these bitcoins. I'm pretty mad at whoever stole them and mostly mad at myself for letting them get stolen. I'm bummed, now I have no way to get out of here and I might lose my housing over it. I'm really screwed. Plus my neighbors are mad since I called the FBI and the FBI is investigating them. I had no choice, someone stole my bitcoins, I'd get kicked out if I didn't report it. Plus I'm out all that money. I didn't pay that much for them, I was just lucky.

[Deilla]

I feel better today. I went to bed early and woke up early. I've been preparing meals for the week. So far I've made vegan spaghetti, stuffed mushrooms, Asian vegetables with rice and Southwest beans with rice. I think next I want to make Pad Thai. It's really easy the way I cook. I feel optimistic for a good day.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've had an especially difficult time with the voices lately, maybe more so because I'm so worn out from them & I'm losing my patience. But I think I can turn that around with effort & a different point of view.

[SlumberKitty]

I really haven't had any hallucinations since starting the Latuda.

[Deilla]

I'm doing fairly well today. It's my third day on increased Effexor. My mood is so much better. Plus I think I have an improved attitude toward housework. And that is, "Do what you can and let go of the rest."

[~*glass_owl*~]

I said something wrong and now my friend doesn't want me to talk to her and my boyfriend is sending her a message. I don't trust this situation and I'm acting like a fool.

[SlumberKitty]

How are you feeling now @~*glass_owl*~

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. The Latuda is helping me a lot I think. I'm just having some issues with anger that I need to deal with but I don't really know how.

[Breaking Dawn]

Doing the best that I'm able at this time.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I'm feeling better slumberkitty. I still feel anxiety about the situation, but my boyfriend is acting basically normal. I've accepted they might get together or I might be imagining it, either way I need to keep calm and wait for more information. Time tells the truth usually, so I just need to be patient. I honestly don't know what to do, except be mindful, wait, and cope with emotions.

[Deilla]

I'm struggling today. I feel sad and lonely. The sadness isn't as bad as it usually is. But it's still bothersome. I hate that I feel all alone. I'm trying to play my game, but I really don't feel like playing.

[Deilla]

I was feeling bad this morning. So I read some DBT stuff online and found a couple of suggestions that helped self-soothe me. I was then able to play my game and enjoy myself. Now, I'm motivated to take a shower, something I've been dreading for a while. I hope it goes well.

[SlumberKitty]

I feel like crap today.

[Deilla]

I got another shower today. I'm on a roll. I'm starting to enjoy them. I also like how I feel after. I got fully-dressed today with shoes. I stayed busy and took care of business. It really helps with the depression.

[~*glass_owl*~]

Doing okay. Met a new friend possibly.

[SlumberKitty]

I took the next two days off of work. I just feel so unwell, emotionally. I had to let the General Manager know what was going on. He was good about it. He said he would keep it to himself and he said if I needed more time off to just let him know. That was kind.

[SlumberKitty]

Awe. The owner of my company sent me a text back to my text explaining why I suddenly need to take two vacation days. She said Feel Better Kit, we need you and we love you. I work for great people.

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @SlumberKitty, for sharing this!! Thank goodness good people are appreciated & cared about in some places. I myself worked for a wonderful place like that & they still help me. I feel so blessed!! Thank you so much for sharing these thoughts of yours!! I have so much gratitude for my employer!!

[Deilla]

I've been ill today. I pretty much stayed in bed. When I got up, I tried to hydrate as much as possible. I think I messed up my sugar last night with a couple of smoothies and I paid for it today. I really have to do better with my diet and sugar intake. Emotionally, I am drained and anxious. When I get in bed, Jazzy curls up next to me and I listen to rain sounds. It's the only soothing thing I have right now.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I got up from a nap an hour ago at 3pm. I slept in until 10am this morning I really enjoyed this soup I just had though, it's a vegan hot and sour Ramen. Their Pad Thai didn't impress me, but their hot and sour ramen was tasty albeit expensive, but vegan ramen is hard to find.

I also have an amazing employer, I'm always sick or in a bad mood and they are in a good mood and always there for me.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well today. I'm very fatigued. I don't understand it. I thought I got enough sleep. I don't know what's going on with me. I'm always so tired. I may see my doctor about it.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I found a place to save money on my vegan protein sports smoothie I drink everyday. My boyfriend just called and said he'll see me a little later. I'm a little bummed, but there is nothing I can do. It sounded like it wasn't personal. I bought a yoga mat and downloaded yoga exercises. He hasn't said a word about me being overweight and he is happy with my weight. I just have trouble with overeating and I'm trying to fix my diet permanently. My problem foods are carbs, nuts, soda, gum, and sugar. How I manage to be anything remotely towards a normal weight seems to be a miracle.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult time today. I have zero energy yet there are things I have to do. I'm just pushing myself. It's time to feed my cat. Even that is too much energy. I might take a nap and see if that helps me feel better. I did have a virtual appointment today, but I canceled it. I didn't have the energy or desire to get dressed for it.