[SlumberKitty]

IOP won't take me because of the hallucinations. They will only do it if I am there in person. But they are 2 hours away. That doesn't work for me. So they gave me two other places as a possible. I called one....waiting on a call back. I emailed the other. So far no response from either. What a mess.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm really down and depressed today.

[MuddyBoots]

Sorry about the IOP, Kit. Do you think that is causing or at least contributing a bit to feeling really down?
Hope you feel better

[Brego]

I was feeling on top of the world. And then some fake fear crept up in mind. It had me on all fours like a beast. It was very much like it was the end of the world. And somehow the regulars of life seemed to come in again. So, now I am in the swing of things again.

[Breaking Dawn]

Extremely hard lately but feelng better & planning with hope.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling like a failure today. I'm regretting life choices.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm feeling like a failure today. I'm regretting life choices.

You're not a failure. You're doing your best

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Extremely hard lately but feelng better & planning with hope.

Sorry it's still hard, but glad you're feeling better

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Brego

I was feeling on top of the world. And then some fake fear crept up in mind. It had me on all fours like a beast. It was very much like it was the end of the world. And somehow the regulars of life seemed to come in again. So, now I am in the swing of things again.

Sounds like things were intense for a bit. It's great that things have gone back to the norm

[MuddyBoots]

I'm struggling intensely with sui thoughts/planning. I started packing in case PHP sends me IP tomorrow. It's just we have to rate our coping on a scale of 1-5 1 being handling life stressors fine and 5 being can't cope/need hospital I never know the difference between 4 (seriously overwhelmed, severe state) and 5 (you are going inpatient). I don't want to ever circle a five but I'm scared of myself and I don't think IP would help.

[Deilla]

I've had a better day today. My attitude has improved. I think the increase in Zoloft is helping. I am just tired now and I worry about going to bed and waking 2 hours later.

[Brego]

Feel like I am missing all my opportunities! My sister came over today, and I hardly said anything. I need to step it up.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I'm struggling intensely with sui thoughts/planning. I started packing in case PHP sends me IP tomorrow. It's just we have to rate our coping on a scale of 1-5 1 being handling life stressors fine and 5 being can't cope/need hospital I never know the difference between 4 (seriously overwhelmed, severe state) and 5 (you are going inpatient). I don't want to ever circle a five but I'm scared of myself and I don't think IP would help.

If you need to keep yourself safe, circle the 5. HUGS Kit

[Deilla]

This morning was pretty rough. But things are better now. It's raining and I have my slider open. I'm enjoying the sounds and the cool air.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

If you need to keep yourself safe, circle the 5. HUGS Kit

I chickened out and circled the 4 though I so desperately wish I circled the 5. I might have someone take me to the ER but I'm going to try and wait until after my therapy appointment tomorrow.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS Sapien

[Breaking Dawn]

Suffering quite a bit right now. But you know how it is, we find our way.

[MuddyBoots]

I can't reach out for help. I just typed in the crisis line number in my phone and then walked around for like 30 minutes before deleting the number. Two hours til therapy. I'm going to be 100% honest.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Breaking Dawn

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Sapien I hope your therapy appointment goes/went well.

[MuddyBoots]

T wants me in the hospital. My mom's going to bring me tonight. I don't know what they can do to make me feel better.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Sapien maybe the hospital can adjust your medications or something like that? I've been IP once and honestly didn't find it very helpful but it is a place to go where there are no outside pressures and you can just rest from the world for a bit. I hope you feel better soon. HUGS Kit

[Deilla]

I woke up depressed. I've been dealing with it for hours. I'm just now starting to feel better.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Deilla

[Deilla]

I feel pretty worthless today. I haven't been able to do much and I can't bring myself to take a shower. I have an appointment on Friday. I have to do something. All l managed to do today is wash dishes. I needed to take my trash out. But I was too anxious about it. I feel like my life is pointless. My cat keeps crying. I'm not even a good cat mom. I'm zero, garbage and a waste of space.