[Breaking Dawn]

I've been recovering in a few different ways & this morning I seem to have experienced some sort of breakthrough. I'm actually feeling stronger physically & mentally.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I've been recovering in a few different ways & this morning I seem to have experienced some sort of breakthrough. I'm actually feeling stronger physically & mentally.

This is good news!

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I feel very down and stressed today. My cat's been sick. I have to take her back to the vet today. And I've been sick. I have 2 doctor appointments tomorrow. I am struggling.

I'm sorry you are struggling! I hope your Doctor appointments go okay. I'm sorry to hear about your kitty! Is this Jazzy? I might have you confused with someone else. What did the vet say?

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by ~*glass_owl*~

I went to the store and the pharmacy. I took a walk with my boyfriend, which made me feel more safe. I managed to stay awake all day.

Sounds like a great day!

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I'm sorry you are struggling! I hope your Doctor appointments go okay. I'm sorry to hear about your kitty! Is this Jazzy? I might have you confused with someone else. What did the vet say?

Yes, it's Jazzy. She is better now. The vet found the problem. It was an issue with her glands. She's all fixed up. I am relieved. I have to add Mirolax to her diet. Easy enough. One appointment tomorrow is telehealth. The other is face to face. I think they will go well. Thank you!

[Deilla]

I'm feeling sad tonight. My youngest sister A hasn't talked to me in months. We had an argument over Trump and Covid. She said horrible things. I tried to stay calm but I ended up saying something hurtful. I apologized. It was too late. My sister blocked me. She won't even respond to emails. I tried to patch things up. I sent her a Christmas gift over the weened. I had a really nice note attached. She still won't talk to me. I feel hurt that she isn't more understanding. I feel like she hates me. I know she blames me for something that happened 30 years ago. She threw it in my face back in March. But it was never my fault. It was not something I did or didn't do. In a way I am angry. She's emotionally immature. I guess I just have to let it go. There's nothing else I can do.

[SlumberKitty]

Mostly doing okay. I am going to have a very full weekend. I need to plan some self care time in there.

[Deilla]

I'm alright today. I've had a busy morning.

[~*glass_owl*~]

I just got out of a CSU today. Meds adjusted. Head adjusted. Attitude adjusted. I don't know what else there is that will happen over this, but I feel better.

[Deilla]

I'm having a tough time this morning. I'm trying to apply for food stamps. Since Friday, I attempted to login to finish my application 3 times. Every time, I get a message that the site is down. They don't have online support. I guess this isn't a well-funded program. I don't have a number to call. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by ~*glass_owl*~

I just got out of a CSU today. Meds adjusted. Head adjusted. Attitude adjusted. I don't know what else there is that will happen over this, but I feel better.

What is a CSU? I'm glad you feel better.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm having a tough time this morning. I'm trying to apply for food stamps. Since Friday, I attempted to login to finish my application 3 times. Every time, I get a message that the site is down. They don't have online support. I guess this isn't a well-funded program. I don't have a number to call. So I'm not sure what I'm going to do.

I'm sorry you have not been able to finish your application for food stamps. Maybe try on off hours like 12 AM to 4 AM. I'm sorry there is no number to call. I hope you can get through and get your application in. In the meantime are there any food banks near you that can help you out in the interim? Some Churches will do food distributions as well as traditional food banks. If you can find out it might help. Just a thought.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

I'm sorry you have not been able to finish your application for food stamps. Maybe try on off hours like 12 AM to 4 AM. I'm sorry there is no number to call. I hope you can get through and get your application in. In the meantime are there any food banks near you that can help you out in the interim? Some Churches will do food distributions as well as traditional food banks. If you can find out it might help. Just a thought.

Thank you! I've tried during off-hours and regular hours. It's odd that I can't get in. There's an online chat. I will try that today since it's normal working hours. An agent called me on Friday to get things started. I just haven't been able to upload my documents. Yes, I did think about food banks. If this doesn't work or I don't qualify, I will definitely seek further assistance.

[SlumberKitty]

Doing okay today. Just struggling with negative thoughts. Like "Oh I'm so stupid." Stuff like that. I'm trying to change the thoughts but without a lot of success.


I'm at work today but I don't have tons to do. I have a scanning project to work on but it is so boring. It is hard to stay motivated to do it. But I have to work on it.


Next week I only work two days.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Doing okay today. Just struggling with negative thoughts. Like "Oh I'm so stupid." Stuff like that. I'm trying to change the thoughts but without a lot of success.


I'm at work today but I don't have tons to do. I have a scanning project to work on but it is so boring. It is hard to stay motivated to do it. But I have to work on it.


Next week I only work two days.

I'm sorry your inner critic is so active today. Maybe you can talk back and set it straight. I read an article that suggested we see our inner critic as a person and we imagine having a conversation with them. It's there to help you but it doesn't do the right thing. So you thank it for trying and then tell it your strengths. I know you have many wonderful qualities. Maybe making a list of them will help too. I hope your day goes well.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have been doing pretty good so far. I awakened this morning from interesting dreams. I had a good breakfast. I have been doing personal inventory & trying to build up my motivation to succeed at a particular goal. I'm hoping.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Thank you! I've tried during off-hours and regular hours. It's odd that I can't get in. There's an online chat. I will try that today since it's normal working hours. An agent called me on Friday to get things started. I just haven't been able to upload my documents. Yes, I did think about food banks. If this doesn't work or I don't qualify, I will definitely seek further assistance.

I'm giving up for now. I tried online chat. The agent said she was having technical issues. I can't find help on the site. I'm getting a page 404 not found. They have some serious problems. I would think it's a scam site but it's "my state".gov. And I did get a legitimate call from them. I redid my budget so I will just try to adjust. I'm fed up with this. It's just not meant to be.

[SlumberKitty]

Tomorrow we have our Christmas luncheon at work. I have my gifts for my coworkers stashed in my closet of my office. I am looking forward to the luncheon but also not. It means Christmas is coming too fast.

[Deilla]

I'm doing well this morning. I'm more relaxed than usual. I guess because I don't have anything going on today. I plan to take it easy and have fun.

[Deilla]

I mainly relaxed today. I did handle some business today. I also found out that the web site for the food stamps has been down all week. So I guess that explains why I've been having so much trouble. I will wait a while before I try again. I was able to apply for assistance with my meds. So I feel good about that. My mood has been good overall. I started Buspar today to help with my anxiety.

[SlumberKitty]

I've been working today. I didn't get the bills paid at work (not my fault) was waiting on approvals all day. It seemed like a really long day. Called my Dad. He said I have two packages waiting for me at home. Yippee!

[Deilla]

I have an appointment today. I wish I didn't have to leave the house. But I really need to do this and I am almost dressed already. I feel calmer than usual about it. I'll just take things one step at a time. Hopefully, I'll be home before I know it.

[SlumberKitty]

Hope the appointment goes/went well Deilla!

[Deilla]

I feel very sad tonight. Sunday's are always hard for me. I don't know why. It's not like I have to go to work tomorrow. The evenings are difficult. It gets dark early and I start feeling lonely. I'm bored as well. I'm not sure what to do with myself. I did try to sleep, but I woke up an hour later. I even did a meditation and that only helped in the moment. I wish I wasn't so alone. I have no one to talk to.

[SlumberKitty]

The Christmas Holiday depression has hit me like bricks today. I was doing okay but now not so much.