[Deilla]

I feel tired, sad, lonely and unmotivated. I have to get dressed today for an appointment tomorrow. I am scared to get dressed. I'm afraid it will be difficult and cause a lot of pain. I can't cope with it today.

[Breaking Dawn]

Things turned bad.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Things turned bad.

Oh no! I'm so sorry. How are things today? I hope you are doing better. I'm sending positive vibes your way.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult time. I have my appointment today. I am so stressed out that my repetitive, non-sensical voice is back. It's going on and on about stuff I don't understand. Normally, when I'm upset, it hums. Today it is loud. I'll be thankful once my appointment is over. I may start rescheduling other appointments. I can't keep going through this.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm having a difficult time. I have my appointment today. I am so stressed out that my repetitive, non-sensical voice is back. It's going on and on about stuff I don't understand. Normally, when I'm upset, it hums. Today it is loud. I'll be thankful once my appointment is over. I may start rescheduling other appointments. I can't keep going through this.

Dear Deilla, I'm so sorry your voice is back. I hope your therapist can help you with that & everything else. I'm doing ok at the moment. Thank you so much for being such a good friend. God bless you, dear friend!!

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. I'm getting a case manager/care coordinator for a few months. It sounds like. That was helpful last year when I had one. Hopefully this time will be helpful too.

[Deilla]

I talked to my med provider today. We have to change meds. The Luvox is causing bad bruising. So we'll try Cymbalta. She's also putting me back on Klonopin for anxiety. I hope that helps calm me and helps me get out of the house more. When my stress and anxiety are low, I don't hear my non-sensical voice. So I feel good about these changes. Cymbalta works on anxiety too.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I talked to my med provider today. We have to change meds. The Luvox is causing bad bruising. So we'll try Cymbalta. She's also putting me back on Klonopin for anxiety. I hope that helps calm me and helps me get out of the house more. When my stress and anxiety are low, I don't hear my non-sensical voice. So I feel good about these changes. Cymbalta works on anxiety too.

I take Cymbalta. I like it.

[Breaking Dawn]

I have some problems, but ok.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Breaking Dawn

[SlumberKitty]

Going to get a case manager/care coordinator soon. It's short term like 2 to 6 months. I had one last year and it was helpful. I hope this one will be helpful too.

[Deilla]

I received some bad news about my sister J. She has stage 4 ovarian cancer. She goes next week to see what they can do about it. My mom said she has a few years to live. That's what they are saying now. I'm glad it's more than a few months.

I feel numb today. I think I am in shock.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Deilla, I'm so sorry to hear about your sister.

[dberte79]

I am new here and now diagnosed with Schizoaffective Bipolar Type as well as Bipolar Disorder. I am struggling to make it in my new job at a gas station after losing my last job selling car parts. I have lost a lot of capability in the last few years as my illnesses get worse but I put my struggles with Schizoaffective and Bipolar before anything else so I do not even worry about my job that much. That is all I can handle to say right now, I have been struggling with delusions for a year and auditory hallucinations for months now straight with no end in sight.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, @dberte79! Welcome, welcome, welcome! I'm glad you joined us.

[Deilla]

I relied on some addictive behaviors this morning. I was really stressed out. I may continue with these behaviors. I don't want to feel anything today.

[SlumberKitty]

Hi @dberte79, welcome to the group. This is kind of a slow forum but it gets checked on frequently throughout the week. You may also want to try posting in the Bipolar forum. Are you on any medications? I'm on Rexulti and Latuda for psychosis and Trintellix and Cymbalta for depression. I have schizoaffective disorder depressed type.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Deilla

[Brego]

Always I smoke during a storm. It's doing that, and most of the time, it's Organic Tobacco. Sometimes it is a un-realized-when-I-do-it habit. It makes me wide awake though. Mom notes it all the time. Pushes me to stop. I try to tell myself that the habit is sort of up in the air if I do it constantly or not. I think they are telling me I do it when I do not. The voices and situation hallucinations. The situation hallucinations are like out of body experiences that I hallucinate entire things said, the environment, etc everything in them. I seriously think it happens. And I have no clue what to do. I hope I don't get sucked into them anymore.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Brego

Always I smoke during a storm. It's doing that, and most of the time, it's Organic Tobacco. Sometimes it is a un-realized-when-I-do-it habit. It makes me wide awake though. Mom notes it all the time. Pushes me to stop. I try to tell myself that the habit is sort of up in the air if I do it constantly or not. I think they are telling me I do it when I do not. The voices and situation hallucinations. The situation hallucinations are like out of body experiences that I hallucinate entire things said, the environment, etc everything in them. I seriously think it happens. And I have no clue what to do. I hope I don't get sucked into them anymore.

I'm sorry, @Brego. I don't like storms either. If I smoked I'd probably be smoking more, too.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. I need my walker to get around. My mom came by today to take my trash out for me. I'm really sad, lonely and sleepy.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Deilla

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. Staying pretty stable. Was told I was psychotic last week but IDK. I felt fine.

[Brego]

I'm actually doing pretty stable also. It's a rather un-questionably prayed for state of mind. I have this feeling that it is going to last this time for quite a while. I pray for my betterment all the time. I hope that God lets it happen. He's been rather giving to me lately. And I hope it doesn't run out! I have a really hopeful feeling that I don't want to go away. I even prayed to the angels of heaven. I prayed they would guide it to a happy stable point.

I think I should pray more often, in those books that I have. I'm really looking forward to that. And then to sort of spill the beans to God or Jesus what's going on in my life. I like to try to do that.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay. I moved up my psych dr appointment though because of hallucinations. But today, at this moment, I am doing good.