Schizophrenia?

I have Delusional disorder. But think I may have experienced signs of schizophrenia?

I resigned from my job last week, couldn't handle it. My boss left me a message on my phone asking about some work I hadn't handed over. I interpetted it as if he was accusing me of sharing confidential information with another company. I only asked for some help from brother-in-law about a document I had to write.

Anyway, I decided to read my contract of employment, when I read it, I couldn't beleive I had signed the contract. They had control over my life, I had been taped, they were tapping into my phone calls, I wasn't allowed to travel abroad, I was liable for any losses to the business, and that any foul play on my behalf would be shared with the media. I thought the CIO was going to get me for breaching my contract.

I couldn't move from my bed, I was shaking with fear. Every paranoid thought I had during the last few weeks, all came together and made sense.

Eventually I decided to read the contract agian, it was like it was a different document all together, none of what I read before was there, then I began to think someone was in the house and had swapped the document when I wasn't looking, so I decided to go and check if someone was there (no-one was) but as I entered the room I got a flash in my vision as if I was being struck by something. I also thought that my boss had connections with the CIO (I heard him mention the CIO) and that the message he left had been swapped.

I was doomed! people are really out to get me!!!

I have never had this happen before, but have had persecutary delusions for 18 months now. Is this Schizphrenia rearing its head?

I get your message fury, thanks.

Quote: Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean they aren't out to get you.

I don't think experiencing paranoia means you automatically have schizophrenia. Paranoia has lots to do with fear, so you're on the right course in getting info. Speaking to a lawyer may put your fear to rest. You can usually talk to them over the phone, first time free.

depression can also cause psychosis.

I'd like to add to this thread: firstly if it were real, would I be here typing this message???

I do know that fear has a lot do with my experiences, and maybe, just maybe the word paranoid is out of context. But that doesn't mean I am not paranoid. Or else the doctors wouldn't diagnose me as being delusional...

In a nut shell, the basic question between the lines of my post was; be careful, pay attention;

How can I read something in one moment; and then read it again in a few hours time and it (to me) is a different document all together. Am I hallucinating? Why did I read the document and it meant (to me) that I was doomed? If I didn't stop and re-read the document I would probably still be in bed full of fear!

F, if I wasn't meantally ill do you think I'd be here, is it my choice? I don't choose to be mentally ill. I am merely on a journey, trying to understand my mind and the people that influence it, negatively or positively!!!

I thought i had read a while ago about delusional disorder that it said in order for it to be delusional disorder,1-delusions must be the only symptom, and 2, the delusions are false, but not unrealistic.

If you read the diagnostic criteria of schizophrenia, it first says, 2 or more of the following symptoms must be present:
Delusions
hallucinations
negative symptoms
disorganized speech.behavior

Then at the bottom is says that only one symptoms is nessicary if the delusions are bizzar or the voices keep up a running commentary on the person

I think that your delusions would be categorized as bizzar, because ideas that the CIO and such are after you are concidered very unrealistic.

It also sounds like you had a visual hallucination (the vision) Your symptoms do sound more like schizophrenia to me, but im not a doctor so i cant really diagnose you.

are you on any meds?, I hope things get better for you . good luck

-Becka

Yea it sucks when all your paranoid thoughts come together and it all makes perfect sense - and then it's relieving when you realise you'd misinterpretted something.

i know how you feel well sort of well not really just a bit sorry for going on but i am sitting here being parniod about my best friend and there is no one to talk to
hope you feel better

I've read that with Paranoid Schizophrenia that the symptoms of flattening, disorganized thoughts and incoherence are not present.