Roll call

I went to my appointment today, and I'm hoping some good will come out of it. They're talking about giving me talk therapy as an adjunct to medicine, and maybe if things start to work out then I can cut down on my meds.

You can always go to your appointment, lilangelwings and if it's no good just ignore it. If they offer you something sensible then you have the option to take it up.

Feeling good because my kubotan came - now I'm protected.

The police aren't so cool about it - but arrest and jail me, I'll tell the judge how it is - jail time with harrassment and torture - they won't break me.

Glad your appointment went well

(places punch card in antique card reader) I'm still here too (lurk mode)

I am not lost. I know where I am at. I am right here.
I just read this prior to reading your post here Costello and thought I would post it here. I have been using this tapping EFT for several years now. It is something that people can use besides drugs.
http://www.thetappingsolution.com/bl...g-ive-learned/

Does EFT work for you?
I tried it and it did nothing - except make me more anxious.

I believe it works Kureha but it is not like turning on a light switch. The effects are subtle, but I believe in this energy stuff. Mindfulness is suppose to make people more anxious also when they are first starting out with it. Both things are starting to catch on in psychotherapy but there are still many that are not convinced.

The nurse said I should try mindfulness, for things like how I walk.

I prefer CBT it makes more sense to me.

Glad to see everybody! Kureha, I'm glad you got your kubotan... have you got an instruction manual on how to use it? It's fairly easy to learn some techniques with it, and because it's designed to be non lethal it's much easier to justify carrying than a knife. I'm actually thinking I should get a kubotan key chain myself.

The police can still arrest people for having, they told me it's an offensive weapon and not to take it outside, but I don't care, I care about my safety, even the nurse doesnt want me taking it out, but it's protection.

You should get one. I looked at videos on YouTube, so I know how to use it.

wed morning nad im nere..suffering ifron a bad bout of vertigo so im a a littled off

I'm here too and doing well.

My son was given a small supply of 10 mg olanzapine tablets that he can take as needed and a month's supply of 7.5 mg tablets to go on with. He has surprised me by opting to take the higher dose for the last two nights. Yesterday evening he was far calmer, less reactive, less confused, etc. I enjoyed hanging out with him.

You have my sympathies, Angel. I had an attack of vertigo a few years ago, and it was horrendous. Hope you're feeling better soon.

I'm glad that you were able to enjoy your son's company yesterday.

I knew I couldn't manage the bus today, but chose to take a taxi so I could do my voluntary work. Feel better for it, and think I might actually sleep at a normal time tonight!

Kureha, I'm going for a wooden one, will keep it to myself. Thanks for the heads up.

doing better today

Glad to hear it angelwings.

I'm not bad, managed to get to my morning guitar lesson, when I got back I did fall asleep though, slept from twelve till half two. It seems my body demands I sleep between ten and twelve hours no matter what I do... and I'm STILL tired.

But I did enjoy my lesson. And I'm getting better at the fiddle too!

I'm here and doing well.

Had my second swim class last night. Really enjoying it. I was so nervous, because I felt like I was too old and fat to go out in public in a swim suit. But I'm so glad I went ahead and did it. The teacher is great. The other students are nice. And being in the water is great. It's been years since I've been to the pool. I thought I'd go to my grave without ever working up the nerve.

My son was depressed last night. I see him going through that cycle again. As soon as he starts feeling happier he gets worried that he's "too happy," that he doesn't "deserve" it, that other people will envy him his good fortune. He starts ruminating on that. Pretty soon he's depressed and on the downward slide. Maybe the cycles are inevitable and all I can hope for is that when he goes down, he doesn't go as far down as he has in the past.

Just checking in. Had a wonderful birthday with my husband while a friend watched our son. It's the first time my husband has planned something for me. It was a good day.

Glad you had a good day, ickydog. And Costello, I'm really glad you enjoyed swimming. Since I've been on meds I've been afraid that I'm too fat to swim, but it's the only sport I never get injured at. Perhaps I should give it another go.

Sorry your son's been ruminating... hopefully he won't go down so far.

My main adventure of the day has been a vegan "chicken" soup... used a vegetable stock from a Jewish dehli... kosher parev, no animal ingredients. And it really does taste like chicken consome, without any chemical aftertaste. Nice... full of chunky potatoes, sweet potatoes, butternut squash, and it may sound silly, but mixed nuts and a bunch of herbs.

Here, alive and kicking!

I'm here too. Doing very well. Amazing how much my life improves when my son is stable. I really think that's something we should all keep in mind. When we take good care of ourselves we're also taking care of our loved ones.

Oh, please do. I've wanted to go swimming so badly for years now. I was waiting until I was thin enough. Then I realized I was never going to be thin enough and decided to give up on the idea altogether.

At Christmas my mom got my name in the gift exchange drawing and asked me what I wanted. Well, there's no object I really want, so I decided to ask for the lessons. I almost chickened out at the last moment, but then I didn't know how I could explain it to my mom. So I went, and I loved it.

I'm planning on going to the pool this evening to practice. There's a pool at work that's free for employees, but I peeked in there and it looked like everyone else already knows how to swim, and I was embarrassed to practice in front of them. I guess I'll pay to go to the city pool until I feel like I'm good enough not to make an ***** of myself in front of my coworkers. Sigh! It's always something, isn't it?

doing okay today...made it through another day of work

Doing okay today. Got to thinking about life before meds. There's always the pros and cons, it's kinda scary to think that I thought my hallucinations were normal, and I have no idea how I would have reacted if someone had told me that I needed to be on meds for that. I'm thankful, but my mind works a lot slower now. My husband noticed the other day and was upset because he thought I was just really stressed out and shutting down. And then we talked about it and he realized that, no I wasn't stressed out at all at that point, my mind on meds just has a hard time getting things organized and remembering things in order. I have to go slow and have things repeated a lot when it's something I'm trying to remember. Ayway, yeah, I'm here.

I'm new here and just wanted to say that I read the post everyday. It has helped me to understand both sides of the illness.

in salem and having a great time at the brothers conference

Saturday morning again! (One of the ways I'm trying to cultivate equinamity is to try not not to prefer Saturday over Monday. It's not working yet. )

What a difference a week makes! This time last week my son was in the hospital and I was crying uncontrollably. Today I'm happy and calm. My son is calm and rational (can't claim happiness for him yet). He had a job interview yesterday that he thinks went well. He has some hope he'll be hired - and he's not flipping out with anxiety about having to go to a job that he may be fired from.

Good to hear from you, RER. What's a brothers conference? And which Salem?