Roll call

Thanks Ickydog.

I just realised how much I enjoy this forum, how safe I sometimes feel coming here with my problems, and how much I care for you guys. It's the first thread I check when I come on here. I like to know how you are all doing.

And well done on getting the vacuuming done... I've not done it this year!

i just cant do this anymore.
i think im going to be quitting therapy
i think im going to stop going to school so much until i can quit for good.
i dont want to leave my house
i just dont trust people in this town for one. or that school. etc i wont digress
but i also just dont feel like doing anything. im not lazy. i feel apathetic.
nothing matters and i dont care.
i have an exam tomorrow and i just can not go.
those 4 people so far at that school. i dont know what they are up to yet entirely. i dont even want to know anyway. im sick of this. school was the biggest mistake. i cant even concentrate anyway so its all BS.
right now i just do not want to go back to school. im very afraid. i fear confrontation because i dont know how to protect myself but i will do it if i have to in many cases. if i can avoid things i try to. im going to have to lie to avoid going to school though.

i think i know what will be happening if i have to go tomorrow. with those people. if i have to go im thinking of confronting them because they are pushing my buttons.

one of the main things with gangstalking is psychological torture.

i dont want to goto therapy but i dont think i have time to cancel. im fxcked with that.

We are here .

I woke up feeling very alone and that it was my fault that I was alone and that I was going to have a bad future. I'm feeling a bit better now.

Did okay today... I think... now that I'm thinking about it I don't really remember much of today. I made yummy mexican food for dinner and then worked out. Now I'm tired. Goodnight.

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I'm alright tonight. I'm glad angel-wings posted here. I think that means angel-wings is OK, or well enough to post. Dinner is almost ready. We are having BBQ chicken tonight with white rice and broccoli. Yummy!

I've been burning the candle at both ends lately, upgrading computers and resolving glitches. Finally I have emerged victorious. (airpunch).
Doing well. Feeling better this week than last. No psychosis or depression - just tired from pushing hard. Hopefully I will be able to be more sociable on PC next week. P

I've been enjoying healthy debates on political topics with an old friend. Slept so-so last night. Took med. Having a cup of "joe" or coffee. Drove everybody where they needed to go. Going to sit and surf the web for a while. I will walk the dog later. I feel OK. Not great, but not bad either. It is sunny and kinda cold this morning. It is january, I shouldn't be surprised about the cold. It has been a strangely mild winter, thusfar. Makes me think global warming is starting to become less theory, more fact.

Here. A bit disgusted with myself. After my son went to school I lay down... and got up at half one in the pm. This means that a whole day was wasted, and I'll probably not sleep well tonight.

Here to this day!

some where

Feeling kinda out of it today. Dizzy and having a hard time focusing. My phone also moved from the table across the room to the couch and i don't remember getting up and moving it. I assume I must have, but I remember hearing it on the table and don't think I got up since then. Kinda want to shut down. Something feels wrong and I don't know what to do about it. I slept well last night without any anxiety meds and I've been eating and drinking. I just keep looking around and feel like nothing makes sense.

Here I am. The big freeze is setting in...

I spent a quiet morning online and practicing my guitar. I took my sons bike to the repair shop. We ate lunch at a fast food restraunt. My wife and I went grocery shopping. I picked up the bike, it was fixed. I'll go to group support meeting later. We are having haddock tonight. I haven't decided on sides yet. Sometimes I'll post something online and there is zero response. It is discouraging. Life goes on...

my sis is here today

i'm here, been better, but been a whole lot worse too.

A little late, but here...

I'm up. I feel alright.

Here - feeling a bit weird though.

Present & Accounted For ... !!!

Here today, on abilify now...

We are here ...my sister and her boyfriend is coming up to ours for dinner only met the guy once unsure if he is a spy or not...need to keep an eye on him

Ella

full of anxiety and fear, but here

Here and having an okay day. Sore throat, possibly getting sick, but at least the pain seems to keep me a little more in touch with reality.