Roll call

I didn't revise jurisprudence because I am arrogant (my first degree was in philosophy so I thought I could wing it) and now I'm scared. Exam is tomorrow and I'm throwing up again. My friend is bringing over a thermometer because I think I have a fever.

fish-- sounds like you are doing a lot better today. good for you.

maybe you can coax him back costello, with a PM ...??

Yes, I do tend to do better on days I don't have to write the bar exams!
But I'm falling proper ill, I think. I'm cold and shaking and I'm still throwing up and I have another exam tomorrow.

I sent a 'please don't go' pm when he announced he was leaving.

Newtus, I feel for you brother or sister. Being in a state of mind where one needs to be an inpatient, is an unpleasant memory for me. I really hope your mood improves and your vision of yourself and your world becomes accurate so you can improve your living situation. G'luck sir or ma'am. Brook.

Who is Shoe?

Oh, and I made an appointment to go speak to the old psychiatrist. I haven't seen a psych in two-ish years, but I'm going to ask him why I was sectioned. Either he can tell me a real reason that's empirically and legally justified, or I'll know for sure they abused me.

He's a guy who used to post here.

I figured as much. From his use of tapping, he sounds pretty cool.

I find it slightly odd (but very comforting) that so many people here seek non-drug options.

Good luck in your search for answers, fish.

He was a great guy. I think I offended him one day. He announced he was leaving and he left.

Yeah. It seems to be the culture here.

You hardly seemthe offensive type.

It's a nice place to find. So many places are just big group hugs about how fantastic drugs are.

depressing is just my nature.

no food yet. and no...not anymore. you caught me. :/

ima ma'am.

im female.

to be depressed is in my nature.

id rather not be inpatient.
my mood is contently depressed. its a stable level of depression.
i do feel the opposite of suicidal though.


i wish i had some cigarettes.

i really miss that xanax.
like..i just miss it a lot.
my dad even takes some
but his is empty too.
i miss when two weeks ago
when i was i just in and out
of that drug coma.
never did that in my life.
i liked it.

Run your yap enough and eventually you'll offend someone.

I think it's worse than that. On some forums they actively quash such conversations.

Eat something - with protein.

Again you sound like my son. If you say you need to smoke because you're "bored" and it's "something to do," I'll begin to suspect you're actually my son playing with me.

Smoking is boring. You know what else is boring? Dying from lung cancer and then being dead. I bet being dead is really, really boring. I guess that is something to do, though.

Sigh! I am so lucky I don't know where you live. I believe I would come and throttle you. Then I'd be in jail.

Don't do the drug coma thing again, ok?

Truetrue, though you also hardly seem the type to 'run your yap'.
Incidentally, I read that 'run your yak' and I was rather confused for a good moment.

That's pretty much the whole world, actually. Can't tell the nutters we have another solution! Then we might exercise free will or something.

dont worry i am me.
i mean like....im not your son lol
no need to worry or anything.

perhaps we are just alike a bit in personality maybe
you know

i would like a cigarette with some candy.
and some coffee.

lol...

That's what's so confusing to me. They act like people will quit their meds if you even talk about it. Like maybe the idea wouldn't have occurred to them without the assistance of an anonymous poster on a forum. But from what I can see, the people who want to quit quit. And the people who don't want to quit keep taking them.

My son, for example, quits his meds every time he gets on his own. And he doesn't read forums. He really doesn't need someone else to suggest he quit. He got that idea all on his own.

Yeah, I was just teasing. He wouldn't mess with me that way.

Not that it's any of my business, but ... skip the coffee and the candy. Have the cigarette. Eat a real meal that includes protein.

i just cooked some ramen. whats protien?
is it meat?
because... :/ i dont have any.

i never thought about candy messing with me like coffee did
either any of that or some ambien.
i dont have either. just coffee. and lotsss of it.
pure black caffienated.

I had this argument with a psychiatrist once. He didn't want me to talk about quitting meds with the other patients because it 'gave everyone ideas'. I told him that all you have to do is take the meds and experience the (really) horrible side-effects, and you will have the idea to go off meds. What counts is whether or not you do, and if you do what else is to be done.
Plus, people stopping their drugs and then relapsing is like, the biggest issue in treatment of schizophrenia. It would make sense to tell people that if they're going to stop the meds - which almost everyone does at one point or another - what they could be doing instead.
He wasn't stunned by my fantastic logic and sense, however.