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lol... Yes, it's a mystery. Maybe you should make a post of all the objectionable words you know and see which ones make it through.

I can understand why you're scared, but I don't think your life will be over. If you think about it that way, you'll only increase the fear.

but it will be. every one ive been one i have LITERALLY slept my life away thats why i dont remember ANY detail except the hospitalizations BEFORE i was medicated on nor on meds.

man...i just cant even...

...
im really depressed now..you know
i havent felt this way in a long time.
im extremely depressed over everything.

piss **** hell **** **** bloody ***** cock *** arse asshole
bastard ******** choad damn fag dipshit bint jackass dyke dike minge chav knob tit wanker bollocks bugger minger prat

Well, that was therapeutic.

Haha banging, they let me keep all my British swear words.

Many of us here won't know you're swearing.

Bollocks. Of course they'll know.

OK now i'm going to go sleep off all the civil procedure. I hope you feel better, Newtus!

Here. Still sick. Supposed to go out with a friend tomorrow to a movie but I know I'll have to drive and arrange a sitter and plan the time and I'm just not sure I have it in me to deal with it all. I forgot to take my meds the last two days. I have a headache. Kind of feel like people are in the woods looking through my windows even though I know that's crazy. I think my sick congested brain is turning against me. Hopefully sleep and meds will help.

newtus - you know what can help with raccoon eyes is more iron. It's in raisins, spinach, some meats, and some grains. (or just in vitamins) I LOVE jalapenos! I am not supposed to eat them due to my stomach but I do anyway! I love to make jalapenos stuffed with cream cheese, and, wait for it, chopped up jalapenos!
Are you scared of getting the shots because of the shot itself? The needles? Or you're scared of the medicines?

ickydog - I'm sorry you're not feeling very well. Could your friend help you with any of the planning for your outing? You probably should get the sitter yourself, but maybe the friend could plan the rest and do the driving, or arrange other transportation? That is, if you feel well enough to still go.

the medications...
i just wasnt the same on them.
my whole self....just...idk..gone
looking back i feel like i was worse on meds cause i wasnt myself and i became obese and my body hurt everyday. id vomit a lot due to overeating i never knew i was doing. i gained joint problems and my spine slipped out of place a bit from the weight..i had to goto a chiropractor type doc. i slept and ate. i was depressed all time. it was hell....

it was pure hell... :'(
and to think life
may be like that again.
i cant stand it
i just cant

That would scare me a lot too. Did you tell the doctor that gave you the meds about these side effects last time? Maybe this doctor will care? This effects your health too.

yes. i was younger and naive. he said the med has no weight gain effect and i googled it and it was one with the most weight gain reported. even other psychiatrists knew exactly what i was experiencing when i told them seroquel. i was lied to and my dad blames me for not listening to him.

he was the ONLY psychiatrist that DIDNT listen to while prescribing me meds. so i just stopped taking them one day and he threatened to hospitalize me. i couldnt believe it. i got away from him by accident when insurance got cut off. i couldnt thank god any more. i was DYING. i went to a thyroid doctor that said if i dont quit im going to get diabetes. and i said "this is it. i quit"

i quit cold turkey and i all the hospitalizations after were SO worth it compared to what was gonna come.

He tried to kill me

There are actually several different kinds of mood stabilizers, anti psychotics, etc., so there should be options. Also, sometimes the dose can be adjusted to minimize side effects. Sometimes you have to start out with a bigger dose, but then it can be reduced gradually until you're on the minimum possible.

i was on 300-400mg of seroquel. he NEVER ONCE lowered it.

he also thought an was only psychiatrist to ever think i was bipolar. he increased a couple of times because i yelled
about it being so high. he thought i was getting manic???

ridiculous. worst psyhiatrist. horrible. incompetent. inconsiderate. seriously.

Newtus, try to remember that not all of them are incompetent idiots. I still hold a lot of resentment towards docs cause my first one told my parents I was probably cutting to get attention and that I would grow out of it (even though I went to extreme lengths to hide it and they were only told because I was forced into it by someone who I thought I could trust), he's the same idiot who thought I might have DID when it fit basically nothing about me.

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