Just Thinking

Oh, I was right! I knew I recognized them. Haha...

Lightbulb- they are just a band. I think they are like KISS and wear make-up and costumes. They're not evil.

Thanks for clearing that up, they are pretty powerful figures no doubt, I get a little frightened by their strong personalities I guess, but maybe I will find out more about them and that will take the scare factor away! They sound pretty nice after the way you described them.

You might like them - This is MCR

- Halloween 06 - old, but awesome

There's FVK -

if you check it out - but don't like the first song - skip to 3:36

Well the nurse doesn't think I'm copying COD anymore
I can't remember much of what she said - I can't remember much that I was shouting about, I did mention COD, it's more important than getting a date and she started laughing at me - so I was telling her it's not effin funny at all.
Sometimes when I start shouting though -I get carried away and I keep going.
On the plus side though - she said she'd talk to the police and she's discussing me today, so it's probably happened now since it's 11:20, I hate that - because I can't be there to defend myself.
They didn't come either 20 minutes I waited - they drove past mocking me instead.

Wow they really put on quite a show! I am so out of the loop with all of the cool music these days I guess! Thanks my friend. Yours truly, Lightbulb7
P.S. I hate being mocked. It makes my whole world turn sour. Sorry about that my friend.

She will talk to the police for you? Concerning the gang situation? That is good news.

Did you mean the police were driving past your house or other people? Either way, perhaps she will be more on your side.

Lightbulb7 - Glad you liked them

They are always mocking me, it's their entertainment.

Dark_heart_x - Yeah, well she didn't say what she was going to say, but I was talking about sending up the police drone, so it must be something like that.

The sleeper cells were driving past, they find it funny , they usually drive past so I know they are watching.
Like the other day - I tried to get a pic of the drone, but they were messing with my camera, so I couldn't see it, but I know my camera should have seen it because it was so close.

I hope she will join my side.
She called y/day - she wants to see my parents, I don't know why, I don't like that it's like all secretive.

I did find a good site though - I've been saying loads of things like this for ages, was thinking of giving the nurse the address to check it out.

IF ANYONE GETS FREAKED OUT EASILY - DON'T CLICK

http://www.stopeg.com/

If your camera couldn't take a picture of the drone, it is that there was no drone. Nothing wrong with your camera.

It's because it's a digital camera, I would have been better off with a disposable camera, they could not have done anything to that.

Seeing that website I can see the difficulty. Because you hear that "odd beliefs" are the things that no one else believes in except you. So when you find a website like that, it is a big deal. Maybe do show it to your nurse. If she won't go there on her own, ask her to look at it with you. I think it is very important that she see it. If she doesn't want to, tell her that it's important. I think once she sees it that will help her help you somehow. Have you shown it to your parents? I think it's the same thing, if they see it, then they might be better able to help you.

As for the drone, that concerns me because, I am agreeing with farmgirl. If it wasn't on the camera, then it probably wasn't there. That's okay. It's nothing to be embarrassed about, especially not here. I see things that aren't there and I have to accept it. Just two night ago I saw a face jump up in my bedroom window. My window is 12 feet from the ground, way too high to jump. It wasn't necessarily a human face... just a face. It was there, then gone, like it jumped up to peek in. Scared the crap out of me, but reality checking said it was nothing there. When I looked out, nothing was there.

I've showed my parents stuff before, it didn't really help though, usually when I mention this stuff it just ends up with an arguement.

I'll show the nurse though, I wish I had found it earlier as well, she has got to realise that all these similar things - that everyone can't be wrong.

Yeah I've seen some weird things before, but this I'm so sure it was definitely there - this proof is just so elusive to get.

You are dealing with alot Kureha. I applaud your bravery to get the evidence, no one will believe you unless you have hardcore evidence because the deceitful opposition is so brain washing. Even if nobody believes you, that's not your fault that they have been brain washed. I am in the same boat. Many people love my children and want them for themselves. They keep trying to find "reasons" why they can steal my children so they can do experiments on them, I think they are going to train them to be assassins etc. something along those lines. I am very paranoid about this and nobody else seems to think that this is a threat, but I can read between the lines. Everyone is just waiting for me to let my guard down so they can swoop in and destroy me from the roots up. I hope you can finally get free my friend. It is no fun plotting their next move every second, it sucks the joy out of many joyful events. Yours truly, Lightbulb7 P.S. Thanks for the link to that website on gang stalking, it will probably be shut down or forced to move soon, once it creates too many "waves" if you know what I mean. Happens all the time. I am suspicious, it could even be a fake page put out by them and there are manipulative gestures and insinuations that they purposely put there, and we are eating right out of their open hands. Something to watch, I don't trust this website fully. They could have an agenda.

Sorry that sucks about your children

That is the kind of thing the gang stalkers would do - so it's people like that. Then they never stop - it just keeps going with more and more people involved.

Then the police don't want to help, the ones that aren't involved, just turn a blind eye, the small few that would help, don't, because they know what would happen.

You're right about the website, it could be made by them, it does describe everything pretty well though, so I'm still going to show the nurse so she understands. She thinks it's all about the murder at the end and it's not, there is so much more than that.

Got to be so careful who you trust, people say things to get close , then before you know what has happened it's to late.

Just been thinking about my death, it's very depressing.

Execution style.
I have no idea when, I can't even stop it.

Getting really anxious and not even about that.

Kureha, just stay safe. I keep praying that you find peace of mind and can get away from the horrible fear.

Anxiety can drown everything out. I have generalized anxiety disorder. So, it's important to find something that helps you center and focus. Something you can focus on that is calming to help sooth your anxiety.

Thanks, I just don't think I've got a chance with them.
Black helicopters and drones - I can't fight against that and I managed to miss it this time.

Got to get a new assessment done as well, because the nurse said there is things in my notes that don't make sense, she's going to do the test to rule it out, but she doesn't think I have a personality disorder, I was hoping she wouldn't believe 1 of the other things, but it didn't happen.

I think she might be ok - she said the way I got transferred to the other team wasn't done well and she doesn't think that helped me at all.

Just seen something weird, birds are flying in letter formation I think it must be some electric charge in the sky caused by the sleeper cells with the drone, which explains my headache as well.

No one will believe me, if they don't believe the other things.

I'm sorry you're not feeling well.

I know it's hard to talk to people and no one understands. Do you keep a journal? Maybe that will help you when you're feeling frustrated.

I understand, Kureha. I see things in the birds flight patterns as well. I have been writing about it for awhile now on this site. I am sorry that you have a headache. I hope you get better soon.

Yeah I write things down sometimes.

The birds - it's done with electrical charge, it makes them fly in a way that someone wants. I got murder and lies.

I would take them... of they helped a bit before, then I think it would be worth a try... I'm not the best for advice, but Ill try anyways.... right now I'm having problems and I'm not able to talk to anyone about them, so be glad you can....

Thanks, right now I can't take any even if I wanted to, I'm getting a new assessment - I don't know if I will last until next month though.

Going by all the fun outside - it doesn't seem likely.

I think you can make it.... ive gone 4 years, attempted suicide 3 times, and have gotten no help..... if I can do it, you can....you just have to want it bad enough....

Thanks, sorry you've been through all that.
I don't know where you are from, but in England we have NHS Direct, if you tell them you are suicidal, they assess you at the hospital.

It isn't my choice, there is going to be a murder and if it's me they want dead, its going to happen, no one can help then.

Well, I'm not old enough, really, to do anything on my own... I'm only 14..... but we do have a suicide hotline.... but I don't trust them....

I don't think there is an age limit - I know the crisis team come out for the kids as well.
Maybe you could ask your parents to call someone, if you don't want to do that yourself.

If there is a student counsellor at your school - don't talk to them