Roll Call 14

so should i add people that i dont know on my facebook even though i have family on there?

they are from the schiz and TI groups.

I don't know it's up to you. I personally only use facebook for familiy. I don't even make comments on articles or anything if it requires facebook. I don't really want my family to know that much. If I was going to add on facebook I'd make a seperate account for it.

good point
i didnt really want a seperate account.
and yea i know its up to me.
hmmm
maybe i add people idk...

Since I have 5 cousins on, missed 1 out there, I add other TIs, I have loads on my Facebook, I don't see family much, so it doesn't really matter no awkward questions.

hm good point kureha.
no awkward questions for me maybe cause they live in another state. so maybe i will.

i kinda wanted family only but i only have 15 on there and only most are family. not many people to begin with.

So sorry to hear that you are struggling with your sleep pattern too. I was able to get myself to sleep around 1am which is earlier than I have been. Then woke a little before 9am. I'm slowly getting it back on track. I need to do so before I go back to work after New Year's. I hope you'll feel better soon too. Just take it one day at a time. That's all you can do. Hang in there!

I really want to get some legal highs but everyone says I shouldn't because they are going to mess with my head and I'm already vulnerable, but I just want to forget just for a little while.

what legal highs?
cuz if your talking about bath salts. your out of your freaking min.d

I'm so past done with dealing with this illness.

why do you say that?

actually i want some legal highs too and maybe some illegal

I'm just so tired of it, I've been like this for well over half my life. I'm tired of the sleeping all the time because of the meds too. My avolition is flaring up a lot right now too and that's not helping anything.

I just want any legal highs, I really don't care. I just want to get wasted.
I wouldn't do proper drugs though could be cut with anything.

Sorry you're feeling like that Atypical

i remember being in christian school in for half a year. i HATED IT. i abhored it. full of yuppie rich christian kids who only knew a few proverbs. cheesy white kids. who knew nothing about life. werent wise. only slightly booksmart. i w as considered one of the "bad apples". thas when my sz was really kickin off. i called a kid a c_nt.

Newtus: I'm really sorry that happened to you! That's not cool!
Atypical: I'm really sorry you're feeling this way too!
Kureha: Please be careful!

I don't need any highs. I need my brain to slow down. Just be careful Kureha.

In my experience, some of the worst and nastiest kids were the ones going to the private schools. Not only were they mean but they thought they were better than everyone. So, I'm not surprised you hated it there, Newtus.

AD, I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I wish I knew a way to help.

i dont either BUT what if you could get your mind to go super fast? also highs kinda always arent about getting actually a HIGH/sped up mind. it could be a like a xanax high where it slows you down. weed is a high. i tried that. doesnt speed you up. it calms you down.

Well my friend and I are getting wasted tomorrow, just on alcohol which makes me paranoid, so hopefully I get wasted and forget for a bit instead of getting paranoid.

My mind already goes super fast.

Weed slows my mind down. I remember the first time I tried it I'll never forget. I looked at my friend in amazement and said "I'm thinking one thing at a time." Even when my mind is "slow" it's still incredibly fast.

But, too fast is too much. In the passed few years I've been hitting too fast too often.

get wasted on xanax

first time i tried i got real paranoid. thought i was dying. and had a panic attack

We don't get Xanax over here, my mind goes to fast that's why I'm hoping alcohol works. Just get wasted maybe legal highs Charge if the alcohol doesn't work, if I die at least it's over.

you really wont die from alcohol. unless your BAC is over a certain limit than maybe youll get alcohol poisoning. i wouldnt worry kureha.

but honestly
from having alcoholics as parents and drinking alcohol myself... i really wouldnt.

alcohol can do a lot to you. someitmes it slows me down but i had a few times where it made me hallucinated and get extra paranoid.

Not from the alcohol. From the charge, but that is pretty safe, so I probably wouldn't die from it, not that I have any yet.

Just quit my meds, cancelled with the Dr and crisis team, because what's the point.

so lets wrap this up...

you quit your meds. quit seeing your doc/crisis team.
and started getting high.

and you see no problem with that?

not that im a saint. seems like something id do. but that doesnt make that sh_T good.