Roll Call 14

By popular demand...a new role call...enjoy!

I'm feeling better? Not hearing voices anymore, that always clears up on meds thankfully. Still feeling a bit disorganized but it's not too bad, as far as I know I'm coherent?

i hope to ask to lower my dose of 100mg haldol to 75mg haldol. plus doc gave me haldol pills anyway. and i cant fuction on 100mg

sorry i keep complaining about it but it bugs me and makes me so mad.

they upped the dose cause i was in hospital but that no reason to up the dose!

I've been thinking a lot lately of trying to get a therapist. But I fear opening up to anyone. I usually avoid people as much as possible and I never allow anyone in to get close to me. I'm not sure how to get past these feelings in order to seek help. I feel like a therapist will just want to get me a doctor who will then just want to put me on medication. No offense to anyone here but I fear all the side effects that comes with taking medication. I would like to have a therapist to help me sort out all this junk in my head but I just don't want to cover it all up by taking medication that may cause me other issues. Any advice?

idk what to say cracking

thats usually how it goes
docs dont usually listen to me unless i bring my dad in to advocate for me sometimes. idk if its just me or what. but they don't listen to me im almost afraid that Im going to have to beg hands and knees for them to change my medication. it isnt right. my dad advocating for me only helps a little bit. I may have made a mistake somewhere along the lines of some time ago but when I told him or when my dad told him I liked him he laughed at me. if you have a certain illness therapist will not treat you unless are seeing a psychiatrist

Opening up comes with trust which takes time to develop. I am in therapy and have been for about 19 months and I am only starting to trust her. My first few appointments were really difficult, because I was scared of getting misdiagnosed again and judged. Feeling vulnerable is yucky but I try to talk because she has been very patient with me.

You don't need to take medication or agree to see a psychiatrist (unless you have a severe illness that threatens your safety and that of others). You can tell the therapist that. Most will respect your wishes. Why do you think you will be made to see a doctor?

[QUOTE=The_little_didgee;3477581]Opening up comes with trust which takes time to develop. I am in therapy and have been for about 19 months and I am only starting to trust her. My first few appointments were really difficult, because I was scared of getting misdiagnosed again and judged. Feeling vulnerable is yucky but I try to talk because she has been very patient with me.

You don't need to take medication or agree to see a psychiatrist (unless you have a severe illness that threatens your safety and that of others). You can tell the therapist that. Most will respect your wishes. Why do you think you will be made to see a doctor?[/

Many years ago when I tried the therapy thing I was made to get a doctor and given medication. I just feel like that would happen again because the only two
places I could go to for help are known for this type of thing. I wish I was strong enough to try to get help again. Maybe things could be different this time. I guess I won't know until I try.

You can definitely get therapists that don't require meds....mine was actually part of a study for psychosis where the patients weren't using meds in addition to what she was doing with me. I have no idea how you find a good T though since I was randomly assigned to mine. Also I honestly believe that you can just set an agenda that doesn't deal with issues requiring medication. Like for me a lot of what we discussed was anxiety...no need for meds just a different way of thinking. If you tell them you have active psychosis I generally fear they will want to deal with it and may even have a legal obligation to do so. So yeah I'm thinking omitting certain details is for the best...tell them what you do want when you call and leave out the other stuff.

Lol, y'all skipped 13 and made a 14?

There is a 13 but the title was controversial so it was easiest to make a new one.

I haven't been hearing music lately and I've been doing much better. In medical terminology I received an A and I'm waiting on my other grades.

Some of the police aren't that bad, well the ones that don't want to kill me.
2 brought me home today and OMFG the female officer was actually nice to me, well she did search me first.

The crisis team just piss me off - I hate nurses.

Last week was a really, really hard week for me. I look back on it now and realize I was doing really bad. I'm better today, but not fully. My mind is still racing but not nearly as fast.

I'm nervous about Christmas Eve. We're going to my step-mom's which is fine and all, except... it's the first holiday at her house that my dad wont' be there. It just seems so alien to me. Both me and my husband were talking about how it still doesn't feel real. Like, it feels like I'll walk in over there and he'll just be sitting in his chair and give me a lecture that I didn't call or visit for 2 months.

Hope it goes well faerie

Going to try talk to the cool nurse tonight, I'm took no meds so I'm super anxious, so I'll get no sleep, so I can try loads.

An achievement. All things going well what do you see as your position , or what job do you see yourself doing?

Kureha, you have to take the meds for a sustained period. Taking them one day and not the next is not going to have what the docs call a therapeutic effect, it's completely predictable that you will be treatment resistant if you are taking meds like this. Why not pick a med that you can tolerate , and btw tolerance takes some work , gradual titration or taking the drug for at least a month as prescribed , should hopefully see you over the hump , until you can then tolerate the med and take a therapeutic dose going forward.

Had an MRI of my brain today. Now I wait for the results.

hey everyone, i went away for awhile. i have been doing very well though. just wanted to say hi.

Pauly - I took my abilify after talking the nurse, not the 1 I wanted to talk to though, been taking it nearly 2 months now.

Faerie I sympathize about tomorrow night. Is there anything you can do to help make it easier? Plan breaks? (Even if they are to the bathroom? To heck what people think!) Can you set a definite leave time when you get there? I know nothing will keep it from feeling strange. I hope you will get through it okay. I am sure you can do it.

My friends keep talking about people they know with schizophrenia and it's SO hard to not be all 'uh...I have it and I don't do x so shut up, we're not all like that. ' :/ But I don't want to out myself.

Coyotetaught I go through this in similar circumstances at my work all the time I am very sorry.

I would like to be a medical laboratory scientist.

Alright, to me psychosis is just a waste of time , some people have other ideas about it.

Dr put it up a couple weeks ago, but I take a lower dose than they say.
Still taking it though, helps with my anxiety.